.

 

.of course.
different reasons
for different people.

a certain type.
that doesnt even have the instinct to keep their degeneracy to themselves.
look for yourself
look at it now.in a clear light
what you were putting out there.
what was in your mind
that you felt some need to present to the world.
you are damn right we need to monitor you
there is a sickness here.

they seem to be a celebration of some kind of deviance
a celebration of sickness.

that is why you are monitored.
so we can understand where  this type of thought comes from

 

 

•  

• the weight
• on top of me.I don't know how they do it
•  
• I feel
• i see
• i hear.
•  
• I am pinned down
•  
• I protest that I am not
• passive

in this regard

"he "can care less.

I plead the myth

i can feel their repulsion

they hate puns

they hate me

how it must kill them to "entertain me"

I have not killed  myself

fast enuf

so

they "pump up the volume"

they "pump up the sights"

but

some sick part of me

loves the attention

and loves the machinery

but I am not fearless

and I wiped out

and they are winning

“Oh.

It couldn’t happen to you.huh

Don’t be so sure.

…just be careful of your gaze.

Your blink

Your countenance.

Oh yes Virginia.

There is a Data Clause

And he sees you when you’re sleeping

And he knows when you’re half baked.

 

I can usually spot them

I can see who might be next.

I want to warn them

I want to warn them to keep their eyes centered and head high.

…

The crazies.

Or those who appear as such

Are prime candidates for neural monitor

 

Think about it

It is really that unimaginable?.”The woman in the bed next to me may as well have been singing to the choir.

But I don’t say anything.

I sit on my hands.

I sit on my thoughts

I don’t want to be here.

They steal your things.

They pick their noses.

They give you looks.

They talk gibberish

There is never any quiet .

Not in a shelter.

 

“I’m talking to you BITCH” she says,”don’t think it couldn't happen to you!”

Finally she gets up

But not after kicking the side of my bed..

 

I am 31 years old

My name is Beth

I am homeless

I got off the bus in the wrong “right” neighborhood.

5 months ago.

I was feeling ill.

That morning I had taken a prescription cold medicine that made me feel odd,

Disoriented,scared…

I could barely sit on the bus without feeling agitated,tingly.

There was no bench to sit on.

I had to lean against a post .

A cop car pulled over and asked what I was doing.

He flashed a penlight in my eyes and said something into a walkie talkie.

I tried to explain,that it was  a reaction to medicine.

He lowered my head into the car .

I was taken to a mental hospital

And given a shot

Whatever was in the shot made me even sicker

A nurse explained that a small RFD transmitter was placed under my skin so I would not be a harm to myself or others.

I was taken to a group ward.

After 2 weeks I was released but told I must stay out of areas in the city that I have no reason to be in

And that  maybe I should leave California.

Because I was away in the hospital I lost my job as a cashier

And during those 2 weeks I was away.

Some food I had left out had rotted.and small insects according to the landlord where everywhere

I was asked to vacate the apartment.

And now I am here...

in 1977 Gary Rainy and Dixie Shaker a representative  of the dept of XXXX* met at the Calabasis Hilton .

it seems Garry Rainy had recently been implicated in several rather messy public scandals including tax fraud and more serious infractions

the dept of XXXX ,always on the look out for established "fronts"

not only decided to let Rainy slide
but also decided that it might not be a bad idea
to allot funds
and benefits
to the eccentric founder of The New Way
who had somehow managed to  implement and maintain a  functioning macro militaristic Majesty

that Dixie
thought
might
come
in handy

just in case






*the department of Shapes and Lines

,,,,,in that a a group (who i have fictionalized and refer to

as Dome)
has procured this "machinery" which is of much use to it's
idealogy

of measurement and augmentation and process
furthermore both the machinery and "the technique
has
"rather insidiously seeped into a "style" of administration
that has infiltrated either by coersion or allotment
law inforcement,hospitals and the entertainment industry

"not that there's anything wrong with that", I graph  Evan

 

"No indeed Jimmy boi
no indeed "he graphs back

I do wonder if being killed off
would make a difference
in "spreading the news"


one more  dead artist

aint gonna exactly make the papers

also
as my "mentors
 have  instigated and propagated a rather extensive mental health "al'bi"
the bases are covered."

rather
inadvertently

I have also done my part

in leaving a  rather comprehensive online forensic accounting of
what in retrospect
only
would
help
THEIR
case rather than my own

Because for all extensive purposes
in the general public's mind
intraneural interface(and such)
is still the stuff
of
bad Adrian Brody movies

but there is much more to this than the implications of "mind reading"
technology
(United States Patent 6,011,991, Filed December 7, 1998, the patent outlines a system that monitors an individual’s brainwaves via a sensor, then transmits this, specifically by satellite, to a computer for analysis. This analysis would determine if the individual was attempting to communicate a “word, phrase, or thought corresponding to the matched stored normalized signal”.(ref 8)

in that a  a group (who i have fictionalized and refer to

as Dome)
 has procured this "machinery" which is of much use to it's
 idealogy

 of measurement and augmentation and process
 furthermore both the machinery and "the technique
has
"rather insidiously seeped into a "style" of administration
that has infiltrated either by coersion or allotment
 law inforcement,hospitals and the entertainment industry


my problems began in the 1990s when i previously lived in LA
and was briefly  involved ïn this "movement"" toward "The New Way


I am not ready to tell the REAL STORY
of what occured
but I am getting closer...
too close.
-------------------------------------------------------------


Äm I a victim
or  did I  want to be the guy who says
"i dont want to play anymore" I want my ball back

but as I have stated there is a schizophrenic element to intraneural interface that begins to take a toll.

also .
recently rather more "sinister" subtexts to this technology have surfaced.
and because of this
my Judah Macabee has kicked in

their presumption that i was" Irish and" gay for pay (as opposed to be gay)" in 1994..
has been a problem from day one.
with my "mentors""
....





as for the technology
in some ways it is awesome
but
it has come to light
that
there are other uses for this that I am not too keen on
they still consider me "human garbage""
and in this regard
I am just a test for them
an experiment

 how this shit might work on "people Like Us"
not people like me...

and to see

 

if .

ONE of theirs.

could pull it OFF.

but
 the problem moreso than
these defrightful sounds and visions. of sway and influence.

is that
 my "mentors" are seeing that
"the cue" system is ineffective
in as much
as any phrase or
symbol one percieves
can be taken as "theirs"





 

Winkies (every little star)

 

the size of a grain of rice

David waited in his car

behind a Laundromat
The inserts were never meant for private use.

David hated explaining the technology
but alot of the clients needed some kind of scientific mindfuck of information or they didnt feel they were getting their money's worth


audio can be sent to the auditory cortex of the subject's brain (bypassing the ears) and images can be sent into the visual cortex.

The inserts can alter a subject's perceptions, moods and motor control.

Dome allows for a complete audiovisual brain-to-computer link.

The EMF emission from the brain can be decoded into the current thoughts, images and sounds in the subject's brain.

coded and pulsed
electromagnetic signal trigger evoked potentials (events) in the brain,
thereby forming sound and visual images in the brains' neural circuits. EMF Brain Stimulation can also change a person's brain-states and affect motor control.

Two-way electronic Brain-Link or Graphing is done by
remotely
monitoring neural audiovisual information while transmitting sound

bypassing the ears and transmitting faint images to the visual cortex bypassing the optic nerves and eyes

The man he would meet in the laundry
wanted to Loony up his wife

 

Valerie met David at Steerage.
Steerage was a new restaurant that catered to the Headset crowd.
Those in The New Way
and those that just like vicarious "events"

a fine restaurant
 if one didn't mind the box turtles that were allowed to wander the floor.
the place reeked of them.
 clearly someone had paid off a few health inspectors
for "the show'

the one rule of the guests was that if a box turtle
landed on it's back, one could not flip it over.
and because there was alot of foot traffic.
there were quite a few
"upside down" turtles on the floor.


"have you been presenting yourself to kevin as that girl with her thumb up at Abugraib  Prison,the one smiling in front of the prisoners in those photos"Valerie asked David ,digging the last bits of meat out of a lobster claw.

" My word ,LA really  IS a small town isn't it""David said smiling,kicking a small  turtle across the room.

 

Dad told me to come out to LA and check on Kevin

saying  he had spoken to him on the phone and that he sounded even stranger than usual, stranger still that Kevin didn’t ask him for money, just to come home.  Last time Kevin was here he stole a bunch of thinkg ,including our grandmothers pain medicine .But Dad said he just sounded so odd and I should come out and bring him back,

 Dear Dad,


          Strange doesn’t even describe it. He looks like himself but doesn’t act the same. Drugs or no drugs, he doesn’t even move the same. He doesn’t make eye contact. He can’t seem to even answer a simple question sometimes his eyes are clear but vacant. he looks good, healthy. He even has begun working out. He doesn’t even smoke cigarettes anymore. But something is definitely wrong. Sometimes he seems very happy other times scared or afraid.

The change can happen in minutes .He has new friends. I know that he hooking again but mixed in with these gentleman callers are what he calls mentors. Some women some men, all well spoken all well dressed. I can tell they don’t like me being here. They smile and say they hope I’m enjoying California but when I look away I can see them give Kevin a look that says when is he leaving. the look is also of admonishment and warning. I cant explain it dad…he sits sometimes in a chair for hours staring straight ahead…I told him he should see a dr. it was the only time since I got here that I’ve seen him go off. he said that’s what they said I’d tell him…he explained the staring and sitting still is his daily meditations. he asked me to please go home. I said id give him his space and stay at a hotel. He grumbled said OK but he’d be very busy and didn’t think he could see me.

But 3 nights ago he came to the hotel. At 2 in the morning, shaking. he said he was in big, big trouble. When I asked him why he said he had smoked 2 cigarettes and had a beer.

….after a few minutes he suddenly calmed down .and said he was sorry for waking me up…but dad there was a change in him that was extraordinary. It was more than a mood swing. he started to leave but I held him down. I literally got on top of him and pushed him to the carpet. I said he wasn’t leaving until he told me what was going on, that I’d hold him there all night if I had to. He said he’d tell me, that he was hungry. Can we go to Denny’s. I went to get my coat and he just disappeared.

I went to his apartment to find him but he wasn’t there.

Same with the next day. Last night again at around 2 in the morning he came to the hotel, he was smoking a cigarette.

“They said I could. They said I could now smoke 3 a day”

He said he’d explain. This time we got to the Denny’s

He was in such a good mood. he seemed to exude some kind of strange charm. Even the waitress seemed to take note. I swear even the dogs on the sidewalk seemed entranced.

Once we were sitting at the booth he took a book out of his knapsack, Enways. You remember we saw that show about The New Way on TV, the one you said might help Kevin? Well, they sure did something to him and he needs all the help he can get

It’s not a cult/they just use intraneural interface technology

to speed up the process. I have implants ‘cause I’d look like a dumbass walking around with a head set, wouldn’t I? They believe in 24 hour a day therapy so one doesn’t slip back to old ways and behaviors. The mentors who wear headsets all have years of experience in the Rainy method. In fact some of the operating neuralists have been used by the Soviets and the British, I forget which, to help break the bad guys. We’re really not supposed to talk about it to outsiders, so don’t tell dad. I’m serious don’t say a word. They can drive you a little  crazy with it. but I’m sure I can drive them a little crazy too. He smiled and ordered pancakes like what he had said was the most natural common thing in the world. And no dad he wasn’t on anything.

“Intraneural  interface?” I asked” like they can  read your mind.?”

“They also call it synthetic  telepathy*...it’s the new way…it’s about harmonic frequencies. it’s about real love, real discipline, real clans like the way people are supposed to live, as one. not everyone wanting to be top dog or self important. look what that’s done for the world

. *The brain-computer interface would use a noninvasive brain imaging technology like electroencephalography to let people communicate thoughts to each other. For example, a someone would “think” a message to be transmitted and a computer-based speech recognition system would decode the EEG signals. The decoded thoughts, in essence translated brain waves, are transmitted using a system that points in the direction of the intended target. “Such a system would require extensive training for anyone using it to send and receive messages,” Michael D’Zmura, chair of the UCI Department of Cognitive Sciences. says. “Initially, communication would be based on a limited set of words or phrases that are recognized by the system; it would involve more complex language and speech as the technology is used

So they tell you things? they tell you things 24 hours a day?

“it’s not like that, a lot of the time it’s grounding techniques or what they call spinning techniques. Frequencies, senses, feelings. Also regressive clearing techniques, chanting repeating to empty one’s mind of words and unwanted thoughts. did you know that there are harmonic frequencies in nature?you just have to tune in,it’s sort of like that.you just have to tune in. you really should read Enways. It was written before there even was synthetic telepathy.

Words don’t really matter. Someone made them all up. the more we think in words the less we can tune into vibrations, That’s why Gary Rainy took the time to record his neurals. so we can all go where he has. all feel what he has.

When a Proxy does well ,when you think for the team.when you aren’t introspect your mentor rewards you with a brain computer interface of Gary Rainey’s Top key.IF you were introspect or disrespectful to your elders and mentors you get a down key of Gary Rainey’s neurals.A down key makes you feel sad and agitated but it makes you regard your own key you are putting into the Enway and graphing towards your mentors. Mostly I am on a mid key, just Rainy’s workaday neural patterns”

“And this works for you?”I asked, “ being on someone else’s

Key? someone else’s frequency?"

“Isn’t that what people pray for. to feel Jesus in their brain and soul?” or look at it this way, how is it any different than taking Prozac or Xanex?”

“Well i can tell you one thing  Gary Rainy isn’t Jesus. And I doubt very much Jesus would have downloaded his karmic “wave’ directly into someone’s brain”

He poured syrup on his pancakes and I swear he held my hand .and said

“But wouldn’t it have been amazing if he had?”

Outside the Denny's

it was like a new Kevin,he looked scared,like he remembered everything he said and knew he shouldn't have.He fumbled around in his jacket for a cigarette.He took one out .But put it back in the pack

"i gotta hand it to you with that impulse control with the cigarettes."

I put my arm around him,he flinched,but tried not to show it.

He was out there again.



Somewhere else.

I knew he hadnt taken anything Dad I was with him for 2 hours

he looked different.

his eyes.

Everything

he covered his face.

as if he felt it

he explained "the change in keys., dopamine levels

and some of the nerves or something ,very changeling "he said ,trying to joke.

"guess they have to get the bugs out.".I said trying to joke.,...".I think that we should go to the hospital."

"No" he yelled,"I'm not crazy."

I don't know why Dad.But suddenly I believed him.

I mean it sounded crazy

.But you didn't see him.

and god knows we have all seen him crazy

.....and those strange people who came in and out of his apartment

,as if they owned him or something.

i told him we should STILL go to the hospital

to get THEM out

they'll find nothing.the inserts are the size of pieces of rice and it can be done without inserts.

"besides they work there.They're eveywhere.You don't really get it... when you're Domed you 're Domed"

just 20 minutes earlier he was talking about it like he was possessd by Jesus or something,now he seemed ready to jump in front of a car

"we'll go to several hospitals.we'll just keep going...we'll go to the police."

"you don't GET IT!"he shouted

"i shouldn't have said anything.

they can do stuff ,they record everything,every thought.

Besides it's disloyal"

"disloyal to whom"

"my mentors.and the neuralists,it's a bit more sophisticated than it sounds..."

he visibly changed again.the dopamine,the facial nerves.it was bizarre.

Suddenly his mood brightened.

"let's go somewhere,let's go to a club or something"

in the car it was him smiling again ear to ear.

"you really should read Enways.it's all about respect and knowing other people might know more than you.might know what is right.Like Moses.If it weren't for Moses.People would still be praying to idols."

"what are YOU praying to?"I asked

"I don't pray.That's Santa Clause thinking,when was the last time you received anything.anything you prayed for?"he said

"i don't know if praying is about receiving things."I told him

"we don't believe in false myth." he said as if he were speaking for some congragation"we believe in apprenticeship and rank.And eldership.that yes maybe there can be people who know more.That is my faith,and it's all but gone from modern society."

he was talking again like some evangelist Dad.

His mood was still up.

I didn't know whether to take him to a hospital or kneel down beside him and ask him to bless me.

I made the mistake of returning to Los Angeles last year to find answers... for all that occurred.for all they  took away.

 

 

Beware of a company that finds you on the street hustling on Hollywood Blvd. and asks if you'd like a job.I was young than.

Beware as well of a group or company that gives you strange drugs and guides you through ....

the New Way .

the New Stuff (it was new in 1994)that makes you See.

and Hear things.(in new ways)

For one day you will realize they can scare you into submission with the very same

"perks" of being with The In Crowd

that made you want to Join Them to begin with. 

I am old now.

no more cocksucking in cars

for "the New Way"

still even now  I serve  a  function to Dome

as "my apps " still serve their initial function of being the eyes and ears

of my alma matter

and in as much as "it takes one to know one"I am well equipped to scout for "new talent"

Procurement of attractive men and women who have "the look"of malleability

and a certain forlorn nature that makes them suitable for controlled access technology.

what my eyes see.

Dome sees.there is no need for a camera.what my ears hear.they hear.

I am a camera.

it is like being in touch with a ambivalent god 24/7

but trust me this ain't no Keanu Reeves movie.

in fact i would not Be writing this at all if I wasn't quite about ready to leap fast

into a speeding bullet

writing this.

is the equivalent of death by cop

except my death will be death

by proxy.

there is no other escape

from

The New Way

any who

as the kids say

yes.being tethered to Intraneural interface is like being in touch with god 24/7

except in this case all this god cares about is money and power

Their money and power.

not mine.

In fact it is in their best interest to keep me as broke,dependent and powerless as possible

still I see .

and I hear.

and i keep my mind wide shut enuf

to spot handsome and pretty 17 -28 year old tail

walkin around with that oh so precious far away look in their eyes

the stakes are high this time.

i have gleaned from word on high

that some very very wealthy men

want something a little different

this time

a very very famous actor

Adam Parker's last film made 50 million dollars it's opening weekend

he is also the "cover boy" for Ska cologne

but a Libyan tycoon has put up 60 million for a chance to go intra cerebral

on Adam's  5'10 148 pound fine fine bod.

soul

and brain

theses scalpers of the mind

call their acquisitions cowboys.

 

 for those "special" investors who want a little  intraneural interface

on the wild side

Ironically this same company promotes itself as a wholesome Cooperation

and has modeled its image into a "green " company catering to family values

and new frontiers.

(new frontiers indeed)

the same cooperation makes one of the best selling baby foods

has hopes that some of

of it's toddler consumers

will be consumed in a very different way

momma don't let your babies become cowboys.

once a cowboy 's neuralities have been groomed into whatever "format" the patron desires the "husk" adapts(if one doesnt go psychotic during the initial "communion")

one's face the rawhide to the patron's spur

one's mentor might use to keep their acquisition in tow

Imagine the terror of watching your face suddenly distort itself in front of your eyes

Imagine moreso that a team of scientists had actually spent months making modifications to this

unexpected discovery to in fact go further toward an "app" that causes human disfigurement

who needs to throw acid on a diplomats face or spike their drink when the entire "event"

could transpire remotely.

...

because intraneural requires extreme low frequency microwaves that can penetrate the skull

by directing some of these pulses at more  sight specific parts of the brain and  epidermal tissue specifically

facial nerves 3 and 5 along side the orobundular and occipital smooth muscle cluster

disfigurement (however temporary)can be induced via wave....*

 

also palatal myclonus,as well as the inevitable build up of both histamine and adrenal

hypertensive rigidity that goes hand in hand with Low Frequency manipulation

 

......the finding was discovered quite by accident.* much in the same way anti depressants were discovered after being tested as a means to cure TB...

Turning lemons into lemonade

rather than

correct the problem**

decided that this side effect could be parlayed into the ultimate form of control

 

 
*the electromagnetic field induced by the microwave environment
affects the cell membrane, and this results in an increase of
excitability or an increase in the level of excitation of nerve
cells.  With repeated or continued exposure, the increased
excitability leads to a state of exhaustion of the cells of the
cerebral cortex....

  ** --- Employees first learned of the irradiation ten years after
...... began.  Before that, information had been
parcelled out on a strict "need to know" basis, which excluded
most employees at the compound. Dr. Zaret'..1996

 

i went to a bar last night
against Evan's advice.
he considers drinking
and any drug taking.
besideOTC  a set back in the process.

i a processed out.
for now.


in the past i had a problem with alcohol and drugs.several rehabs yadda yadda ...
how 80's and 90's are tales of drug problems
is there anything more tiresome than a journal of excess and regret caused by chemicals

all i remember from my various rehabs is that they say
see if you can drink in moderation.
give it a try.

they say it in a rather  mocking way.the rehab workers.or whatever they call themselves

still..
it is something to go on.

i am 44 years old .this fact has moderated just about everything
and anyway
i end up in a bar these days
not so much to get drunk
as to escape my four walls.

bars used to be about
new walls.
new faces.
..
whatever.

in the past ten years though
for reasons that make no sense to me
bars have destroyed the experience of  solitary Ruiners...wishing to simply
vanish into some sort of..social oblivion

by placing televisions all over the walls.
each playing different programs.sometimes as many as 30 large screens in less than 2500 square feet.
my senses
are overwhelmed by these fast moving images
and I find myself
drinking more than i should to escape from the visual cacophony

instead.last night I just left the bar earlier than I intended.
getting into a cab.
where i was suprised to see a small tv in the passenger area.there is no escape
i have a problem relating to tv
i do not see myself in the programs.
i do not see myself on the run leaping from fire escapes trying to allude police or CSI
i do not see myself in a domestic living room or coffee house exchanging one liners or sexual innuendo with friends or lovers.
nor do i see anything I want particularly in souped up 30 second eye candy spots.
perhaps i am too caught up in the sounds and visions in my head.

where i can picture myself in the 1800's
or primitive times in a cave
roasting whatever my particular tribe has netted that day
it is only when i go back that far
in my consciousness that I can see myself in any clan whatsoever
I am not part of this.
I am in my own little world
i do not know if this is Old Way
or New Way thinking
until Evan assures me

 

 

it is both

the latest app

 most "Domed" individuals
take their own life.

so similar to schizophrenia is "Dome"
(for this non lethal brand of "offense" was created quite specifically to induce madness)
 that it will take another 20 years
for
many
families ,friends and signifigant others.
to understand
why their son ,daughter,husband etc.
suddenly
just CHANGED
or
decompensated.
seemingly overnight

(drugs,mental illness)


think again.
but don't think too hard.

because .
although I have written this as fiction..

the.case.
it is based upon.

is all tr**

 

 

 

 

• it is
•  
•  
•  what
•  it is
•  
•  
• 
  lover 

 

the boy(s) from Brazil

Whatever happened to Rosemary's baby?Evan asked.

"which one Veda? or Kitt?" Valeria asked

 

Kitt ,the one  Rosemary sold in 1970 to The Gary Rainy corp? Evan said ,filing his nails,.by Veronica Lake,by the m ouse.near the Cabin in the Woods.near Mulholland drive

Veda.

oh.we'll get to Veda soon enuf

 

 

it's just way too soon

Dome....after Dark

much in the same way one might" wack off"
 and visualize themselves as a  younger
 more virile version of themselves doing things might not do sexually in real life
With Dome 's new Love app
the lonely
can now find
satisfaction
perhaps even love
via
a brain computer interface

of accumulated
visual
 aural and
 stylistic
preference points

whether or not
the
love interest is real
(as the input bypasses the ear and eyes.and segues directly into the brain)
becomes of little consequence.

one's genuine
love interest
may also become
less than

as the simulated
playmate
is a composite of
 years of recorded  audio visual and emotional neuralities
and in this way is everything
one
truly desires

some days
 I can't take it..
and when i ...
 ...kind of fall back on my old habits.

to center my mind.
to escape.
to give it a rest.

or cuz Evan wants a bit of dope
or
speed
I am the one who pays



and although they won't admit it.
it aint always me
who needs a little pick me up
("know what I mean? ..jellybean?",I graph)

hmmm



it can take days to recover from this stuff.
both the drugs.
and the aftermath..


they want me to turn them on
 than
they turn on me.
i turn on them.

the Hangover.
is never a shared experience

the working relationship that has been built.all goes back to square one



i panic sometimes .if i write too badly.about the process.
they will take it away.
they will stop.
and give up on me as an unresolvable.

sometimes i fear that i am
unresolvable.

that i do not care enuf about the world around me.or others.



I concur
why would anyone want "that type" in the enway


should we all
be allowed.
to remain?

should we all
go forward.
to life.

everlasting

but I wonder....

are my current readings reflective of my true self?

 or are they  of my finances
or  my reaction to the color of my walls?
or  what's on television?

my neuralists. sometimes seem to care little

about THIS reality

 nor about cicumstances and situations causing
a bad read.
a bad interface.
a bad scan

don't we all just need "money from home?"for a "nice" neural charting?sometimes?

or is this type of thinking
against The New Way?

does anyone but a mystic
or a shaman
have
clear.
steady thoughts
beyond
their own interior monologue

what is pure in this world anymore.
one cannot even sleep outside  without being jailed.

THEY have made the world  all about money
about the safety of money

it was never supposed to be like this.

and THIS has debased our collective mind and soul.  has already destroyed the viability of the New Way

 

 

 

 

 

 

worked one too many nites overtime last xmas...was subsequently driven temporarily schizoid by a homeless Husk with ruinitious tendencies who was staying at a New Way shelter in Chattanooga.Our final interface caused an overload of both adrenalin and serotonin in my temporal lobe...and Dome said my pineal gland was no longer high functioning enough for direct remote access(I have heard the Husk has been making great strides thanks to New Way re-ed and was working at a Wholefood in Nashville..)so  i am back to the 8th floor. doing old fashioned monitoring.eyes on the screen.ass on chair...not quite the same thing,once one goes intraneural it is difficult to simply find any stimulation whatsoever watching a flat screen.sorting a backlog of Ruiners.

 

a good many of them identify themselves.

their postings and texts all but screaming help me help me I am lost...i am doing New Way analysis of Alan Amsel's last 3 months of texts,uploads and "likes"Alan,a baker from Paramus New Jersey,who fancies himself a New Way ruiner.A potential Unresolvable.A weirdo

 

an interesting case.Alan makes less than 28,00$ a year.Doesn't smoke and furthermore has "gone organic"Quite a difficult thing to do on his income.And because this Alan 's body is relatively chem free the neural sweep done in his grid last May did not lock on to his Ruinations( not  enough Benzophenone  hexo diamter -5 or even benzene HBR in the vascular membrane basal cluster)thus his fMRI and EDC brain functions barely registered any red flag adjustment correspondence(in that his mind appeared biologically that of a healthy person  in the 70,00$-120,000$ range) .Also the Dome towers in his particular neighborhood (12,000$- 23,000$)were also miscalibrated by an April wind storm.Luckily his rants online had become more and more aggressively Un New Way since his divorce.