they like me
destitute
they like me having
little else to do but stare
at a ceiling all day

the ceiling Evan graphed
is all you  need
it's a clean palate
clean canvas
to dream

but I always fuck it up
i picture
nasty
scary things that frighten Evan,not always
but sometimes I resent the intrusion
and get embarrassed when Evan is nice sending me nicer and nicer images

i recoil and picture some childhood humiliation
and hate Evan for knowing,seeing it enacted

so do I Evan graphs

than take off your fuckin headset scumbag,who gave you the right to do this

do you want to quit or do you want to learn

both

no .
i want to quit..

ok than we'll
flay you
alive
like physically torture you

i mean he graphs
wouldn't it be nice
to get
that kinda
neural read
your very nerve endings screaming

I tell them
I will just go
meow meow meow meow like the Purina cat chow commercial
all through my
flaying

you think so Dumbo

I know so ASSHOLE !

he settles down
and graphs me a rainbow and some clouds
but all I can think of is this flaying business

and big bizzness it is Dumbo

now let's start again,he graphs,I feel his smile

 

i send him a rainbow but it has little pieces of lint and spiders in it

 

 

not bad  Dumbo.not that good but not  that bad

truck.stop.

since so much of Brain Computer Interface concerns studying the effects of pulsation and mega hertz on a Proxy's moods and cognitions much of what a Proxy perceives as hearing is only to keep synapses sufficiently engaged for a mapping  and to induce heightened reads during "Chatterbox" processing
a Mentor will often work in tandem with the rhythmic algorithms by engaging A Proxy in simultaneous discourse
in a pre registered "tone"which encourages a Proxy's self to a corresponding "zone of Being", based on previous recorded brainwave response

Since most of this "machinery"s design and intent is to induce  heightened activity in the amygdala  through fear and emotional breakdown and subsequent nurturing  a large portion of the psychotronic "play dates:" are and should be based on a Proxy's  sexual predisposition.

As with all engagements  with A Proxy ,a Mentor's  primary focus  inevitably and rightly goes back to self protection ,as a Proxy's graphs can be cruel and hurtful,"why are you doing this to me?" can only be heard so many times.And often to get back at the Mentor for having so much control of a Proxy will purposely  "toy" or "creep out" the Mandler with activities  the proxy knows  repulse the Mandler...things like pornography and masterbation ,as a Proxy regresses further and further into an almost infantile state ,this activity,if not curtailed can  become a de-stressor,and a weapon,as the Proxy is only too aware that  neural mapping and neural monitoring  must proceed despite the crimes against self being committed.


The Mandler,who must  foremost protect his or her own mind will inevitably devise drastic measures   to get the Proxy to stop such  foul behavior ,for instance over riding the Proxy's visual cortex with directed  images of children's toys 

 ...as the Proxy is aware that his or her readings will indeed be read by magistrate and  may be mistaken as "jacking off" to these "placed"visual overlays ,which might be perceived as  sexual perversion..

But beware Mandler. for while this coercion may seem necessary to curb a Proxy's  self destructive behavior the Mandler must be aware that these associations may cause the Proxy to present as criminal ,as these associations may linger causing the  Proxy to  have heightened brain alteration and feedback if ,for instance the Proxy sees a toy truck or  a child on TV or any sort of childhood recollection 

The proxy  may also assume that these introductions and associations of sexual perversity were perhaps not "to make for a more pleasant work environment for one's Mandler but to deliberately implicate a Proxy as criminal in his  " neural readings.

and do not forget that The Mandler who might initiate a miscorrolation for disciplinary action is not immune to the power of suggestion he has induced into a Proxy's mind set as the "graphed" referential has also been imbued into the Mandler's mind .

Scientists Successfully ‘Hack’ Brain To Obtain Private Data

BERKELEY, Calif. (CBS Seattle) – It sounds like something out of the movie “Johnny Mnemonic,” but scientists have successfully been able to “hack” a brain with a device that’s easily available on the open market.

Researchers from the University of California and University of Oxford in Geneva figured out a way to pluck sensitive information from a person’s head, such as PIN numbers and bank information.

The scientists took an off-the-shelf Emotiv brain-computer interface, a device that costs around $299, which allows users to interact with their computers by thought.

The scientists then sat their subjects in front of a computer screen and showed them images of banks, people, and PIN numbers. They then tracked the readings coming off of the brain, specifically the P300 signal.

 

Read more: http://seattle.cbslocal.com/2012/08/25/scientists-successfully-hack-brain-to-obtain-private-data/

Ps and Qs

don't think of yourself as a human experiment
think of yourself as a social experiment
evan graphs

i try not tp think at all.
these days

for my thoughts are fodder to Dome

Vanessa from General Foods is in Palo Alto this week
and thinking of investing 4 million or so into market research

 you all but lost us Coca Cola Dumbo
what you did with that poor executive was a disgrace
that thought about what you wanted to do to that jogger with your tongue
not everyone is a homo Dumbo
please,please don't go out on tuesday
and practice your white wall visualizations
FOCUS
no thoughts of thirst,hunger,that your cold ,
nothing extraneous..
as that kind of thinking not only makes you look ridiculous
but also ego centric
nobody cares if your cold or thirsty
so take care of your Self Referentials before 2 pm

Fuck you i graph Evan
folding laundry

I don't care that you're folding laundry dumbo!
go into your white room

The white Room is supposedly a place in my mind free of words

I try folding a t shirt without thing about the T shirt
than I find I am thinking about trying not to think about folding a T shirt

knock it off !
Go into your white room go into your white room,Evan
 graphs

 you had better mind your pre neural firings and cognitive intent
understand?
no smart mouth!

Smart mouth? smart mouth?
have we ever spoken face to face you son of bitch!
.
Evan
i am convinced
 has never listened to a single thing I have ever deliberately graphed to him
about how it is on this end
of
the graphs ,the microwave transmission via brain computer interface via headset and in my case nano particle inbeds

this manic
(who has never paid me a fuckin dime
by the way)
 really thinks" I am mouthing off "to him all day long

him to me
is a disembodied voice
i am linked to via brain computer interface
a nuisance
an amusement
a horrorshow
a game
a giant 8 foot rabbit
only I can see and hear..

On tuesday Vanessa will be interfacing with you from 2pm to 4pm about logos and colors for packaging of a new line of  low sodium soups
it will be an opportunity for you to pay us back for the experience.

The Experience?

the mentoring
the sight and sound
the therapy.
fair is fair.. another voice graphs

it's difficult to switch gears from psychonic neuro "gaming" to marketing
and having some kind of slow ,gentle wholesome neurals





do you ever just listen stop talking stop talking Dumbo
i am trying to speak to you as an adult




.I try not to think about the color of the t shirt i am foldingbut you are Thinking of it DUMBO
and I don't care about things like that! the subject we were discussing is you'd better min dyour Ps and Qs Tuesday!I can't help but mind drift and wonder who coined the term Ps and Qs,and what it means




and I feel a tingling than a stinging pain in my left arm,
saying he must clean me up and my "mind games"
by tuesday
MY MIND GAMES,are you fuckin kidding!I can't help but think.
than I become worried.for the intensity of my hate of this situation goes right into Evan's nervous sytstem..I apologize.
and go in My White Room and calm myself..i sens ethat Evan understands but really wants me to try on Tuesday and he's sorry about the directed energy pain but I am acting all beligerant ,moreso than usual



and
that Vanessa is really a very sweet gal ,very excited to be part of neural brain pattern analysis
and don't you go graphing her about being a human monkey!
or stockholm syndrome or cults
or anyof your ruiner shit
Or what Evan ?
or this he graphs ,and I hear the sound of a ping pong ball going once in my left ear
and than in my right
once in my left ear
once in my right
once in my left ear once in my right
we can play this the rest of your life.
That's what!

and if you fuck it up we'll play ping pong sounds voice to skull for days..
you don't respond to the "stories"anymore  but trust me Dumbo you will respond to the sound

glue factory glue factory glue factory

Evan has somehow gotten ahold of some shit I wrote on facebook and says
it is proof positive that I have no idea how to ACT like a normal human being in polite society


cuz i wrote online once that when i was painting out side in the park
when I used to do such things
when I was
alone with my thoughts
before Harvey

before this Donnie Darko Jonny Mnemetic Frea Show
before I was apped
before I was tagged

i had written
that i was laying on a knoll  drawing on this knoll  i consdiered MY KNOLL in the park for people watching
and people drawing
I wrote that trying to draw people was like
sniping  or something

trying to capture the people on paper
without being seen
staring
and that one must use their eyes like telescope
to correctly adjust horizon lines and ...and art fag shit like that

OOOO no


metaphor is beyond these rocket scientist's understanding
metaphor to these types is strange
faggoty
or Jew-ie
jewie means intellectual
EWWWW

"and some of this art
Dumbo
is just plain wrong!"Evan laughs
you really used to sell this shit"

Used to Evan .cuz I don't draw anymore do I not since you "saved me from myself and my sick thoughts"
"it looks like a madman with feet for arms drew them." Evan wails,

"it's bad enuf that you think this way
worse that you feel you must share your sickness with others

why did i ever start posting my thoughts and my art
OH I don't know
maybe CUZ it seems they're training the entire planet to reveal every god damn
(i mean gosh darn !! Mentors!)thing about one self

"never write grassy knoll when hill will suffice ...not only is it questionable but
extraneous,"I man's voice says,a pleasant voice I had heard before  in a TV ad
The Voice sounds like .Dennis Haysbert...I wonder why i know the actor's name


"You know the actor's name because that's the type of thing that people who do not care about human beings or the world care about dumbo"


I am sent ,a visual overlay of what looks like an air traffic control room
it looks very modern
but between the over lays
i see a jump cuts of title cards like silent movies use
GLUE FACTORY! it reads in neon blue over a bright pink back round
it goes very fast
the words
and there's a strobe effect

than I get a
fish eye look at the control room ..
like a movie
than GLUE FACTORY GLUE FACTORY
and than the giant control room
people wearing not just head sets but helmets
 their hands and whole bodies wired to things
i

"FOR FULL IMMERSION DUMBO!"

,i had once went to see an air traffic control room   on a field trip
 in the 5th grade
my mandlers of course know this
by now they know everything

a voice
repeates my previous thoughts in a mocking way,..i had once went to see an air traffic control room,it says in a mincing ,mocking  waylike nah nah nah nah nah..
..

there are no windows in the rooms but giant tv screens with all sorts of video of point of view shots that are pixelated.
pixels are filling in
point of view shots from Proxy
i can tell the point of view is from Proxy's eyes

because the pixels are also filling in time delay and blackness
from blinking


no their are not camera in the eyes
of urban astronauts
it's called something else.
.some fancy science terms
and not simple fancy -like cones and rods

but xy /fg -xy equals  yap yap yap fiancy


"did ya hear Barbra,now Dumbo thinks
we're in the transhumanism bizz.. A VOICE says

" the enemy is scum like  you Dumbo.."



I retain a visual overlay of Evan  in front of several monitors
wearing a body suit with wires coming out of it
like a real astronaut
his face  and head are covered  ,more wires ,more gadgets
..
he removes the "helmet" and shakes himself out of the suit
i see him through a visual overlay
and feel him in mt system
he feels proud and smiley
 he  always presents as
 the best looking man in any setting he send me
 ,often he is out of scale,his ego often making himself so large in relation to other's he -

SHUT UP DUMBO!!!!
He ROARS

this is called fucking up the good part.!
don't go all francis ford coppala on me..directing me around !
I know what i am doing a little better than you might think

just the same i notice in the next visual overlay
that Evan's sense of his EVAN ness is in scale to the scene around him



"Oh fuck it Dumbo...we'll try this again some other time.."

"
tempers get riled in direct interface as they do in real life
i graph him a unicorn
sometimes this is so gay

AND DUMBO RUINS IT AGAIN
i hear or seem to hear
and feel bad..
cuz it's true i suck at this..

and one learns not to move one's mouth to their
sound or one looks like a dummy
a puppet
it took a year and a half to learn that shit
also not to look to wacko not looking
at the visuals
only one can see
cuz people see you sometimes LOOKING
and look in that direction
like whats that funny lookin guy lookin at

hmmm don't ya wish ya knew..

now Dumbo is being a show off!
bragging about his human enslavement cuz he was deemed disposable enuf to be
found unworthy enuf
to be made a husk for AI and psychotronic testing

yeah you FUCK i graph
I'm bragging
if you didnt notice I am crying for help with these

jottings of a LOOOOONY ,he states..again as dennis haysberry
and i lose track
and try to recall the name of the car insurance
company he did the ad for
and cannot

finally Dumbo some News we can use!

ya know dumbo.He graphs in his own voice
THEY  think you believe this nano looks shit..
                    it's why half of them think you're bona fide .
                  bedridden loco loco....you'r e good at this actin crazy shit
but you don't have me fooled..
and this gary rainy half of them think is YOU.what YOU want the world to be
YOUR Proclamations
of HOW TO BE
not ours
boy did someone write themselves into a corner ...
reread it sometime
and realize...how this TIME STAMP of yours really comes off.
you trying to present yourself as the victim?
what a joke!
the looks thing.
ain't none of your business but between us
                                                                                 it's high density directed energy to make you look like THE MONSTER you are


you really believe there's nano particles in your face..dimwit?
I WISH
WE ALL WISH!
you really give us too much credit...but we like it.we'll use it
on the next one

you in fact gave us that idea.it's your claim to fame
a monster like you deciding to monster up another's face with nano inserts
congradulations
you mr greenpeace
against psychotronics and the New Way is helping make develop it
is this a rundown?I graph
some kind of
runthrough to create gaming techniques


you are a run through DUMBO
I wish you ran through your mother's -

MORNING DUMBO a new voice said



that's why the option (,if you such a good man) still stands
kill yourself as soooon as possible
,,well gotta go to church dumbo,go play with yourself or whatever social deviants do on a sunday morning
we're giving you some time off
not from the monitoring understand
filth like you needs to be watched
you're a slippery guy
with a criminal mind
YOU know it

and WE know it....

the fact that "the looks thing"

was reversible was not disclosed to new clients

The clients of course were aware that the nano particles could alter one's appearance drastically

but  were not informed that "at a flip of a switch" the cluster of nano could rearrange itself to one's mentor's desires
 not yours 
The cosmetic nano enhancement feature that came with The Package of The Singularity by Dome Cybernetics could be "reformatted" into something hideous if one did not "get with the program"

  Much in the same way that one's intraneural mentor  could turn synthesized 'telepathy" into "synthetic insanity" if one's neural readings were presumed "mutinous",confrontational or simply "too weird"

"Don't fight it
          After all
   you have signed on
          and paid
    to be sculpted  by  bettors
 to Become

and trans-scend your  current state*
 to Be One
with the teachings of Gary Rainy
who you knew despised this contrived sense of "Me"

 back to the path of We*
-------are in this
together Dumbo

are we
Evan?...you said I was yours .and to trust you and the new way ,that i should consider myself adopted .i did.
and needing reparenting...I did
and mind expansive plasticity..I did
and that the inserts were temporary
and just training wheels.
Are they?

 You know I'm still trying ..I haven't given up on you yet
but have you given up on Me?
cuz I feel you have
because of the writing..but you cause me to write more...
and more harshly
and say I 'm the one whose made my bed
and make it worse by continuing my diatribe against you
who els eam I gonna turn to?
while we try to work it out 
so this is
a
time stamp ,not a  betrayl 
and no I am not bailing or "being cute" or making a mockery of  what might SEEM to others like  severe punishments
they are not New Way,they don't understand Intraneural Interface or how it can be used to re-align and prioritize
both one's self referencials or what one puts forth into the world
I do
you know it
I can care less if anyone knows what's it been like.
but man
this is a story...that got carried away perhaps
everyone likes a bad guy
you do Evan
isn't that what you see me as.all the time now?
as you know i misunderstand the
threats of physical harmyou say are mainly to test my fight or flight response and reawaken  my primal
instinct
and that "the reigns" that alter-
are a gift.
as man's most ingrained primal fear is disfigurement
and dismemberment

and that Gary Rainy
included "psychotronically induced pain points" in his set of rundowns
to further induce the amygdala to regress to primitive states of altered consciousness.
and that the psychotronic pain
is also a gift
from Gary Rainy's bag of tricks
to reach out
like a father ,with a caring kick in the behind , done only with love
a "butterfly kiss"
really?
Do not get me wrong when I write about the New Way
I get it.I respect it,YOU know it's true
fuck what other's think
or think of my "story"
you said previously It was important to you that I do anything I want
including writing about "it"
 so long as every now and than I tossed in some
measure of fairness.
and respect
and lately you feel I am making a joke of IT
but
it is you making a joke of me
back in LA,
why can't I go back?
what have you told them?
I thought our sessions were private?
I am not writing about my real mentorship
why are you telling THEM i am a Ruiner?
I am not mocking your mentorship or Tru Christie so much as trying to work out my own ...
responsibility  in this
with all respect
and endurance and love,
                                            J


Transhumanism is a movement that fundamentally transforms the human condition by developing and making widely available technologies to greatly enhance human intellectual, physical, and psychological capacities.British philosopher Max More  articulated the principles of transhumanism  in 1990, and organized  in California an intelligentsia  and following that has since grown into the worldwide  movement.

Francis Fukuyama has called transhumanismas the world's most dangerous idea.,^[5] to which Ronald Bailey  countered that it is rather the "movement that epitomizes the most daring, courageous, imaginative, and idealistic aspirations of humanity".^[6]

disappeared dead.the worst kind of dead

         "  the stylized family  the
arranged marriage
                  of certain types
                         is  not a new thing .Peter..
Peter?
                          only that this  stylization happened to include fore knowledge of Things to Come
concerning nano particles and such....
Mentorship via Neural Interface and all that fine stuff you've been carrying on your back Peter ..
my name isn't Peter

 to make someone OPEN MINDED toward the Take over
 required a certain malleability of mindset
                                                          based on a scattering of self integration
                   that certain childhood traumas have been known to evoke.Exponentially
there's theorems ,algorythyms  x equals this,y equals y all over the place
your grandfather was a scientist was he not?"
can i have another lollipop?I ask

The Loon  hands me a pollipop and jumps on top of the garbage bin and startes twirling and dancing  like a marionette

But  Peter,you provincial square
you let down
you shmuch
you ingrate
you faggit
                  they didn't count on the inhaled stimulants or you to being  so difficult and so so pre-emptive !

who gave you the idea to smoke crack
HUH HUH
.You completely fucked it up ,there's really no way of making you shattered glass again.!
Decades of imprinting  were just wiped away in a single puff ,you're supposed to be Tommy Walker in this not some Paul Revere secretary...
so now
you're simply a liability ,a ruiner,
you may as well be one of THEM

well they're still trying to save me i tell him,cure me,I say ,afraid

Dude,spare me the born yesterday shit,who you think wrote half these god damn stories in your wooden Woodhouse head
we're  trying to drive you mad
they hate  you
for being such a Ruiner


ahhhh i'm sorry pinochio,the Loon says sticking his hand down my pants
"Yeah yeah yeah he say
thats all Dumbo understands
yeah yeah yeah...all those drugs they gave to you over the years ,those pills ,the built up diagnoses,RUINED cuz Pinochio  short pants wants to be a wigger.smoking crack,with the boys in long pants in the alley,he says punching me in the stomach
YOU IDIOT!
ahhh
I'm sorry Pinochio
he says pulling me up
the Loony  tells me to sit on a milk crate and   takes an intravenous needle out of his backpack,a spoon  and a small blue cap full of powder   it's not heroin, it's Holmium,
the 67th element in the periodic table,it's magnetic and disengages the receptiveness of  nano particles making them Virtuuualy non responsive,Like you are.
too much Holmium will kill you Pinnochio
 and not enough won't do a  damn thing
         it's a delicate balance
but how'd you like those  Mandlers 
to get a dial tone or a busy signal  instead of your neurals. graphs and readings
they told me the only way that would happen is if I were dead.
and I just won't be dead.
but disappeared dead
the worst kind of dead
and it won't be fast
it will be as slow
and wasteful
as I am
was
"you were supposed to be Tommy Walker,not Tommy Talker.and now your Tommy NOBODY!Hope you enjoyed yourself smoking crack with the Big Boys and typing online..hope it was worth it,caus eyou got no idea what's coming next Dumbo ,now roll up your fuckin arm"he say ,as a black van pulls behind the dumpster

Autistic Syntax as an Inverse Use of the Psychic ... - Frances Tustin

by D Amir - Related articles

Abstract. This paper deals with autistic syntax and its expressions both in the fully fledged autistic structure and in the autistic zones of another personality ...

Autism and telepathy

no soda for Dumbo Darko

..ive learned to control my neurals enuf that half the time I can visualize myself doing other things than what i am doing


i can recall long boring walks
or products on the shelf at mini marts..
and reduce neural spikes and pre neural firings lately for up to four minutes at a time
so in a way they don't know where i am or what i am thinking or doing

 i even forget if i posted something or kept it as a draft for authorities other than them to discover after I disappear in one of their vans
there is not authority other than us DUMBO
i refuse to believe this is true..


you can write about as vampires BUT don't write about imprints or Tommy Walker or stylized family units
stylized childhood
is what makes kings

well I aint no king am I
some of you didnt work out.OBVIOUSLY  DUMBO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but you are trying to ruin it for the others
envy
vindictiveness
jealousy

I try to imagine  hundreds or thousand other kids being brought up in like exactly the same circumstances
with people playing mothe rand father.
the same incidentals

red slay yellow sundress
orange

  you can have some juice now.but no soda Tru Christie graphs
..i am of no use...to them.
juice juice juice I love juice.except maybe to get some neural read of my being physically hurt to use on enemies...so who gives a fuck.
juice juice juice
i love juice i sing to fuck with fuckin Tru Christie
juic ejuice juice WE love juice
and  in return Tru sends
visual overlays of ancient
torture devices
he said will be used on me
as neural overlays of physical pain
are GOLD! to Dome

i graph to them if they trying torturing me to get a neural  read
they can sell to THEM
to use on bad guys
YOU ARE THE BAD GUYS
he booms
that I have trained my mind to go meow meow meow meow like the Purina cat chow commercial so whatever brain storm shit they gather wont hurt anyone..
I am excited to see if you can really do this when the time comes.
you have not trained your mind Dumbo
you have no mind
think about it.
you were born to be a husk
the problem is you have some notion from tv or something that you
SHUT UP i graph,slamming a plate across the room
no eating for the rest of the day !Tru Christie graphs.and for the rest of the week you will eat off the floor since WE DO NOT THROW PLATES,THAT"S NOT WHAT A PLATE IS FOR!
I grab a tiny piece of bread
and know true
can sense the chewing
and a zap goes through my arm*sending me to my knees and than prone on the floor ,on my back like an insect,who's been specimened and labeled and stabbed with a pin
FINISH ME OFF


oooh come on joy boy
a voice says
I just wanted you on the floor
a visual over lay of one of my favorite actors
makes me see
Adam Parker,in mid air

the takes takes his shirt off .
and I feel my arms ,being held down

".They can lock you up for crying fire in a movie theater  ya know ,"the overlay of Adam Parker graphs
 but I'm not in a movie theater,I graph back
oh yes ,yes you are Dumbo!he graphs
and I feel his mouth on mine
he smiles ,This Really feel like psychotronic torture to you Dumbo?
a little,I graph ,
can you tell them to amp up the pain a bit?

*

 Psychotronic  Electronic, Electromagnetic, Directed Energy, Neurological, Non-lethal Technologies,..... human subjects in experiments without their informed consent.  randomized with nanomaterials that  alter consciousness and behavior and encode EGG patterns of thought
targeted individuals may experience:
a). Microwave hearing, torture with loud noise.
b). Visual hallucinations, artificial dreams.
c). Reading thoughts, retrieving memories.
d). Manipulation of thoughts, will, emotions, desires and perceptions.
e). Manipulation of human behavior: forced speech, involuntary body movements, transmission of specific commands into the subconscious, compulsory execution of these commands
f). Debilitation of mental acuity, loss of memory.
g). Sleep deprivation or uncontrollable sleep
h). Cramps, spasms, excruciating artificial pain in any part of the body, manipulation of body systems, including heart attacks and other serious medical conditions.
2. Some victims are subject to harassment and organized stalking in their communities, some victims receive false psychiatric diagnosis and in addition become victims of the systems, from which they are seeking help (medical institutions and law enforcement).
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Come here , the man in the trenchcoat said ,holding up a lollipop

i was thirsty and the lolliopo looked extra extra good like a chip of ice they give you in the hospital when they run you over with a car or beat you up for "talkin about it'
or what they call squeaking about the inserts or imprints that help the inserts "make you a better person"
the lollipo looked like it might help my dry mouth
I was not  allowed to drink liquid as Tru Christie made it clear I had embarrassed him and his pet project
in front of all his friends
in the cabin in the woods

the man seemd nice and i needed someone to touch me
direct neural interface is never lonely
but it's good to be touched
I don't really talk to people
all i respond to they say is physical touch
and they sometime send ground bound Mandlers to touch me
if I am getting to be Too Much
sometimes the groud bound mandlers who do this give me money
they say I am autistic
or schizo affect
or they just say
i was raised a certain way
to be able  to DO IT

if i was raised any other way
they couldnt do associations

to be Mandled by Mentors

the lollipop looked good and my mouth watered
YOU HAD BETTER NOT BE DRINKING LIQUID !
TRU CHRISTIE GRAPHS 
and i hope the man in the trenchcoat didnt see me react
 I wondered what was under his raincoat...and so hungry these days for any sort of real connection that is not mind to mind but person to person ,face to face,I went with the man behind the Winkies toward the alley in back where the garbage cans were
he seemd to know I associated bad things with garbage cans behind winkies.
The man
made a universal circular motion with his finger pointing to his head which meant I am not one of them  I just be crazy but it's really the same isn't it? it's Ok
..I wondered if the man knew  I was under some reprimand to not drink liquids for my bad thoughts about overpriced juice with chia seeds in it that afternoon.
who are you talking to
are you making up more fucking stories
Tru Christir graphs
ARE YOU DRINKING LIQUID!

"synthesized telepathy
causes psychic stress
and stimulation of the amygdala ,the lizard brain,"the strange fella said,
"as the subject of these tests brain is  being  essentially rewired and reintroduced to primal fear for any number of reason.
the subject
unaware of the source of the psychic trauma 
instinctively wishes punative damages against the source of this trauma
DMT a naturally occurring substance in plants and all living things
quite possibly can be triggered in the Enway of the Source
by simply suggesting  some empathic intervention concerning  unwanted interface
as DMT is known to repond to those that either seek or need a lesson in empathy
DMT is known to cause mutual shared hallucinations and the feeling of a force reading one's mind..
the.Loon.Outside.the .Donutshop.Said giving me the lollipop

Maruta Confidential

" I hear nano tele manipulation using virtual reality interface based on manipulated childhood imprinting codification  systems and staged parenting techniques is all the rage in Paris -The Loony outside the Winkies said,I like watching you lick a lollipop,you're quite a sucker aren't you

"thanks ,"I said shrugging,the man came around behind me and began to unbuckle my pants.

"you don't mind people fiddling with you do you,you were raised to be fiddled with,played like a fiddle weren't you,you're one of THEM aren't you?"He said,"it always shows,"

After the man did his business on me ,he handed me 3 lollipops and 3 dollars and told me I should save some of the 3 dollars to buy myself a nice house and maybe a car.Ever wonder why you have nothing.Became nothing...Feel like you're in some  case in a warehouse?Some case in a ...

"he sees me getting uncomfortable ,he is talking too fast and I can not really engage with another for more than 2 minutes without losing track
""I understand ,"The Loony bum says ,taking one of the three dollars back<
"try to remember
these words....

Red Sled
Orange Shower Curtain
Yellow Sundress
Green Tambourine
Blue Velvet
Purple Rain
Violet Awakening

but I couldn't as the red sled made me remember a specific day in 1974 when my father left for a pack of cigarettes and returned in a seemingly changed man wearing a Member's Only Jacket with a strange
haircut sheared on the sides and piled into a point on top with what he called hair gel.He had met a colleague at the Rotary Club who had given him what was called a CD..and an odd machine that played this shiny circle giving my father ,"not only a glimpse into the future but the entire contents of 1983"

My mother told him to get rid of the machine that played the disk and that in 1974 we don't drag snow into the house,"That jacket looks ridiculous ,"she said,"and only women where setting lotion in their hair are you trying to make our child into a homo?"

I hated when my mother yelled at my father ,I like my father's new hair cut and new clothes and wanted to hear the disk that knew the future 9 years ahead of time.But a agreed with my mother that it was wrong to drag snow into the house as cleaning up only made my mother angry and sometimes smack us,
"Take all that shit outside and throw it in the garbage," my mother said to my father,speaking to him like he was a child,which made me feel odd for him.There wasn't a word I knew about how I felt for him.There were no words I had learned in school for any of those feelings I felt just what my counselor at school called Mumble Jumble thoughts.

"look at your silly father,Look ,come on and look!" my mother said ,pointing to my dad sitting on my red sled like a little boy in the backyard not caring that he was in shirt sleeves and being covered by falling snow

Test subjects were gathered from the surrounding population and were sometimes referred to euphemistically as "logs" (丸太, maruta^?).^[1] This term originated as a joke on the part of the staff because the official cover story for the facility given to the local authorities was that it was a lumber mill.^[1]  the term Maruta came from German, meaning medical experiment, used in such contexts as, "How many logs fell?"^[15]

evan saw i have a little tin foil pipe i made
with some rock in it
that i hid in a book
he says to smoke some NOW to keep my little jew knobby fingers off the fuckin keyboard
and says if i even think of tea.
or chia seeds
or liquid of any kind
he will do things with the visual overlay that have me in a loony bin by 10pm

he says I am not to drink so much as water until tommorow for bringing
up the entire chia tea
incident
this afternoon
he demands i smoke the residue in the foil pipe not giving a damn it will make me need more
it's the only things that makes you managable
it's the only way
i can "talk " to you

the effect of microwaves on ground control to major tom voice to skull

the words come so fast lately
that i can no longer seprate them into entries.

the posts go up and down up and down

they "the voices"
scare me
they always have
that is their job
imagine having a job
to put on headgear

to induce another to madness 
with techn ology so far out
that the very act of speaking about it makes one sound loony
supposedly virtual reality is solely being developed for one reason
to drive "the bad guys " mad
so they test it
on "bad guys " like me
who make
questionable art
and get neuronauts
to join in the fun
as neuronautics is also very interested in using this equipment to get rid of
all the "enrot" within you and alllll the enrot in the world
also Hollywood
has a stake in this horror show
also
companies wanting a leg up in Mind augment ..or the so called singualarity (AI)
and many biomedical companies
and medical facilities
presumably once the hide all evidence of human testing
etc
this freakshow of both nano particle mind reading and also Impart technology (brain computer interface and direct neural interface (for mind to mind interface,I shit thee not)
will shift the economy back to 1983
here's to big bizzzness,the singularity and Neuronautics
may they influence the world
and take GROUP CONSCIOUSNESS to a whole new level!
but the subject was
neurological hands off psychotronic rundowns on non persons
who
oh there are more people in this mind fuck for either money power or of all things entertainment
and as always
it all begins
with the bad guy
in this case
me
do I sound jack rabbit mad
i hope so
for in between the gibberish
and AI virtual reality synthesizes schizophrenia
i am not quite sure I should be writing what they do
as one cannot see
psychotronic microwaves,frequency or nano particles so small they can enter one's system in shampoo
it all begins with trying the stuff on monnkeys
than people in prison
than a cross population
all who are warned endless to shut up about being human guine pigs

 they are trying some thing called a brain salad on me. words and ideas flooding your mind like it's no longer yours(is it?.not as scary as it once was

.when i had to be locked up and shot up in the beginning ,
they encourage me to write of the hospitalizations and shots of haldol that gave me tardive dyskinesia as I am pushing it writing about "The Tests" and  the nano and that i am lucky my papers are in order concerning my diagnosis of schizo affect or I would be 6 feet under by now DUMBO!
what type of person has a job
putting on headgear to drive a person SANE! you ask

.cuz there's alot more to this than you know

you wanna see yourself as a guinie pig
as pinochio
as charly gordon
that's your thing,not ours,it's gettin to be a real drag
at what you call The Cabin in the Woods
so we
play a bit
And you don't?
my god that stuf fthat you graph us goes into our heads...no buffer
not always
for instance when you PURPOSELY said to your friend ,whatshisname
that that Synergy chia tea tasted like you were drinking the inside of a pimple
FOR HIS BENEFIT MR DUMBO!
or for ours.
to put that sicko image in our heads HUH
there was someone from Coca Cola listening by the way
just another person you TURNED OFF to the possibilities
of direct neural interface what if next time it's a senator or something
and than EVAN pumps up the waves.so my face swells up and my jaw aches
faggit you deserve everything you get
YOU bring it on asshole
we bend over backward to treat you right
and than Dumbo thinks to us.Hey this chia juice tastes like you're drinkin the inside of a pimple.
I hate you Dumbo
I  hate you Dumbo!
he switches gears
roles
how I don't know
to me these Mandlers are like cartoons
hallucinations
demons
or
angels
but I am oddly real to them...i am studied like some strange insect

you are a disgusting man dumbo thinking like that deliberately

i won't be able to eat for a week after that sickening display fuck you EVAN ,HAL Mandler Vampire!you taught me to think like that...

it's a side effect
they never counted on and want me to be quiet about 
stuff like skin
saliva
texture
and what certain textures or tactile automatic response
can set one's senses into memories
or smell.
or so many other things the geniuses never considered after shoving nano into someone's arm
how many grown men shoot up speed dumbo with strangers in bath houses huh
huh
huh
huh
and    how many people
    get  played with
             24 hours a day by the likes of Evan Rainy?
i cannot help but wonder how much calcium ions were rushed through my system after that Synergy Tea comment
i knew pre-neural firing not to say
and not to think
but it is not easy
not thinking ..once certain synapses have been triggered
by texture
in this case taste
i should have known when i saw the tiny chia seeds
to hide the bottle of chia tea in a paper bag
or perhaps jump out of the moving care to escape it
knowing i was interfacing with King Evan
i hate you dumbo
i hate fuckin hate you in a way you cannot begin to imagine
i sometimes literally feel his hate for me
in my nervous sytem
especially when i slow my mind down with inhaled stimulants

                                                       Evan calms down he is a good role player
                                                   sometimes he turns me on
                                                                       
                                                                        especially his hate
                                                  
                                                

you get confused and panic when you hear nothing

i hear and realize it's just chatterbox

not Evan

it's complicated

maybe he went to the vending machine to get a Mars bar.

i hate being on chatterbox

I'd rather be hated and intraneurally attacked

by real people albiet on headset

the chatterbox is to keep me runningand engaged

it's also for AI and to pound your occipital nerve so you can see things

you really gotta hit that mother fucker ,the visual cortex to soup it up

lately the visials are getting stranger

so fuck only knows how terrifying the sight will be to go with the terror of the sound

thank god I

i am serious abou tknowing where the door is to these tests

or at least the window on the 12th floor

maybe what's going on is the bends.The chatterbox saywhich IS essentially HAL but hardwired to your hippocampus.

.

we can't have you writing and writing without being monitored

there are things..you can't write about and you have no sense of fair play

you were and are tended to

by people who only want to see you TRY

and stop doing drugs

using men for money

which means hooking

and many other things MORE

.

now those rundowns ...well,there are bad guys..in the world
and there is stuff like collecting neural spikes and stuff..sorry he who does not work
who hasn't held a real job since when? is how the world works
you can't get your cake without *****
you're a Proxy
how does a brain respond to chatterbox BCI?
i'll tell you
the brain goes like a monkey playing cymbals responding
to it
dispassionately
but embarrassingly still engaged it mimicks one own interior monlog and self referential concerns
also the jist of one's mandlers"themes" of the day
so even though one is preoccupied tryin gvaguely and vainly to remain sane
one also finds themselves thinking towards a ----

shut the fuck up EVAN

cool it with this fake concern

do your maniac shit on me

you sound like a fuckin

social worker.

do some rundown

do some nasty stuff..anything but be nice..it doesnt suit a person who would put on head gear to drive a person mad.

so I may continue

carry on Lover

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ahhhhh EVAN graphs...
sending me a visual overlay
"of how a gentleman " drinks coffee
ahhh
he is relaxed and
thus from the over lay I become relaxed
ahhhhhhh
i feel
----------------
now ,EVAN graphs...let me explain why jew'd be loyal to
a group
your Betters
Your Mentors
who are reparenting you.A guy who we found suckin off men for dough on Santa Monica with shoplifted Mentos in his pocket..
becaus ewe
have control of your 5 senses Dumbo
and can make your life
Heaven or
Hell
that's why we expect just a teeny tiny bit of Loyalty ,Respect and Decorum
teeny tiny
like those nano particles ..
need I graph more?

now why would i be loyal to a system that essentially has found a way through Automatic Response
to basically make people RUN on cues
even before
the singularity
arent things bad enuf
that people barely know who they are
without measuring their looks and
actions
wardrobes lifestyles
hair colors
gromming
way of speaking..."My Bad?" who the fuck put that ridiculous phrase into a collective consciousness that
now encourages men to wax their chests?

OH DUMBO with his Jewie thoughts. EVAN says
sending me visuals
of gold stars that say Jude on them
and i long for the old days 27 minutes ago when I was simply Dumbo

no
from now on it's Jude
or more so
Judas..

an urban astronaut and a gentleman

these are private conversations
EVAN says

THESE ARENT COVERSATIONS YOU IDIOT
you read me somehow.

you
put
what did you call them inserts,nano particles whatever you call them in my fuckin ...


He graphs that I am bad PR .and Tiger Blood is a good thing

Tiger Blood who thought that one up?

OH  we think of everything Dumbo
but we didn't think about
Dumbo
writing about jism online
as the point of this was
to get me to off myself
months ago
but
being that I am a human cochroach
the very fact that I haven't ....yet
is interesting enough to continue with the brain mapping and Virtual Reality Hands Off Testing
 Evan graphs that I lack some basic human
awareness
and dignity
 that is astounding
and that people who've been Domed
 must conduct themselves as an Urban Astronaut and a Gentleman at all times
and that if I don't cool it
they will stop doing the eye thing
or playing with me
and that i love it most of the time
which is really quite odd
but interesting if only for neural data
could be the Asperger's ,,,he graphs and I sense the shrug of his shoulders

i consider them stopping the visual overlays
meant i suppose to drive me insane
unless this is more playing shit

oh no....THEY really do want me to off myself..
...........................................................or is those run throughs private as well ...Dag
besides
some of their runthroughs are so god damn complicated that
I couldn't even recount them
spoooooooooky
WOOF and HOOOOWL!

but I feel

it is wrong

to have someone else

have me see things

and that anyone with any real dignity would say

i want my own sight back

and don't want you SHOWING ME shit

to graph my point at my stockholm sydrome situation i slam my coffee cup down

and EVAN

is amused

when the coffee spills all over my lap

yeah

yeah

real funny dickhead

I graph

looks like urban astronaut needs a time out

How Dumb do you think I am!stop calling me urban astronaut  I'm a guine pig.

well,EVAN graphs ,I wouldn't disagree with you that you're a pig.

and we sorta

wouldnt be satisfied with you killin yourself

and would rather do it ourselves

OFF LINE

and these apps i write about

were only added to me system

caus ei began writing about shit like seeing the rhino

and wild palms shit

that nobody can writ eabout unless it is masked like vampires

and shit like that..

and i turn on a fan

to not hear them

and the air conditioning

to not hear them

and pretend this is just schizophrenia

i won't ' let myself consider the implications

of some fuckin group

in Califormya

like in that stupid made for tv movie

really having that much power of someone

but than i consider what apps

can do...

............................................................or is the wild palms shit just a rundown...

                                                             who can tell anymore

                                                            nobody says jackshit to me in person like they did in LA which they said never to back to...

who are these people? huh......

i sorta know

and sort don't want to put it together.

don't forget what they did to a certain artist.

in wild palms

not metphorically but

when the RUINER was off line Dumbo.....

you want a LA REFERENTIAL after all we've done for you

i scumbag!..........................................................I turn the fan up to as loud as it gets

than i remebr what they did

in american horror story

as this all has to do with tv scaring the shit out of people with associations
that will tied in
with
future technologies
of THE SIGULARITY that they assume people will pay millions for
could you imagine PAYING for nano particles
THAT once in YOUR SYTEM
will NEVER EVER EVER COME OUT
and that certain folks
will have access any time they want to the techno
like that episode of "Homeland" when they give that dude a heart attack remotely..
talk about an LA REFERENTIAL
woooooof!
shut up dumbo shut up dumbo shut up dumbo EVAN BOOMS!into my hippocampus

people "lucky" enough to be apped

...........................................................................are there no good people in the world who will stop this from happening?

you

are

not

good

Dumbo

don't

you EVER

think

you

are

we

know

all

your

false

intentions

and

all

your

..........................................the fan has no higher speed

                                                                i am tempted to smoke some

                                                               stimulants

                                                                        anything

                                                                                to pretend this

                                                                                     is .....

.

bone conductive audio.

you wanna present yourself as a side show Dumbo
cause that's what you're doing Dumbo

piss off
i graph
i telllllepathize
 to the vampires.
my mentors
who fucked around with all manner of vampire shit
involving shit like microwaves and patents and micro processors
i try to think of metaphor for what urban vampire do to make make another their propert
and i think of situations
on american soil where man attempted to own another man
things like slavery
             but that never happened here
                             it was science fiction
like that myth about  MK Ultra
                           fuckin with people's minds
                           urban legend
and that myth about human trafficking
and that myth about
sound
or the sense of sound bypassing the ear

Google reveals Glass specs: one-day battery life, bone conduction audio, 16GB storage

I am old skoool lawnmowerman
human guinie pig
back in the day
bone conductive audio.
was called voice to skull technology
and was being developed to drive people mad
how nice to see now just another toy for rich white kids in Chelsea
the ability to hear things inside and not outside one's head.

well i tell you
hearing aint the only thing they can do
the other part
is even trippier
depending on your mentors who still want me to talk about the donnie darko shit like it's schizophrenia
although
i am unaware of true schizophrenics being told about how my direct neural interface effect interns named Amy
 who are part of this AI virtual reality MIND fuck-being developed for rich motherfuckers,the Singu-larrrrity
big deal
this singularity built on human experiments so your over privledged kid can learn spanish in 3 minutes in 2021
but you think they teach me spanish and shit?
no
all i hear is

how do think that poor Amy,a 23 year old CAL TECH intern felt monitoring your  dirty ass when she put on the headset only to find you wiping jizz off your stomach with a dirty sweat sock PINoooooooCHIO..
the poor gal now has to take Klonapin and no longer dates men.Can't get near men...what did we say about wackin off Dumbo,we need 5 minute warning..