hung over or not
the sense of being in two places at once with the Visage Holo App
could be a bit disorienting
and leave it to Bernardo to instinctively make it even more jarring

"wouldn't a broom stick have been more apropos"He said to her Projection,her Visage which Valerie neuralled toward a chair

"funny " Valerie graphed.watching her likeness adjust her skirt

she had to give  Bernardo credit for financing an intraneural mini series about Gary Rainy.For all the wrong reasons of course
.Because Rainy was "in"
yet Valerie couldnt really trust Bernardo.
he didn't have a Proxy.
nor would he use the Dome Headset

 using Visage  Holo App without the other person doing Interneural Interface
was
just so much
sound and
image...

Visage  technology didn't really "have eyes", or really much of a point  without Bernardo intraneuraling  as well .There was no real perspective of sight. So Valerie had to further break the illusion by having to ask

Bernardo  to reposition the camera on his laptop  so it at least captured the meeting as a two shot.

not that she wanted to particularly get into Bernardo's mind

but still.

 it was  his job as well as hers to" play" with the new equipment

to at least try to understand what intraneural interface .Intraneural television was about

Bernardo however chose to understand it as some kind of 3 d television

he found it "skeevy" to imagine getting into someone else's head.

or linking his mind to a computer.

A Jew thing,Valerie surmised.,he said the very thoguht of it made him sea sick

 A  potential ruiner.

if one presumed Bernardo had the gumption to "ruin" or fight  for or against anything


 So Valerie watched her Visage and Bernardo the Old Way
on the laptop .
At least she could stay in bed,Valerie thought ,yawning.eating  toast.
 Her Visage  already  preprogrammed toward  courteous pleasantries,she thought of not using her headset at all,she doubted he would notice or quite possibly care if he realized he was speaking to the equivalent of a dial tone
It amused her that Bern  couldnt see  the scowl  on her "real time ' face
god,she hated having to think or use words like "real life " or "real time"as touchstones as if one reality was somehow more authentic
or wholesome than the other.
Valerie thanked god she hadn't bothered driving to Century City
as Bernardo was barely worth a holo app transmission
 .
The limits were all some people saw
or all some people chose to see
like
Bernardo
 who really"real time" thought that intraneural television was what financed this clusterfuck that was
Dome.
Still
her Visage  smiled . In listening mode
 Based on real life measured neural tandems.
Subtle facial movements  and reactions  recorded and recalibrated  from facial scans when she  was speaking and listening to more interesting people than "this suit and tie" who didn't know The New Way from a Enway
aside from the smoke and incidental music upon entering a room
Visage with a bore like Bernardo
was just another telephone call.



Yet Valerie supposed one had to genuinely like people for this interacton of manners and artiface so common amongst Ruiners and Semi People
Valerie agreed with  Gary Rainy that
spoken thoughts
spoken words
served absolutely no purpose.
not really.
 
almost everything a person said had  little to do with what one thought
and what a typical person thought
was little more than
SELF SPEAK
which was unnatural

 he first introduced  The Process.
and The New Way as reteaching people
HOW NOT TO  THINK

Bernardo didn't of course notice that Valerie's thoughts were elsewhere
he was speaking to Valerie's Visage Persona
which had been programmed to be relatively neutral
Valerie picked up her copy of Enways
and made a point of indicating her projection to nod her head more
Valerie corrected her Visage to seem more "there"
It was difficult technology.One didn't know what to do with one's hands.
She really couldn't imagine this being done strictly computer interface.with prerecorded neurals.
where was the fun.

and what was the point unless one was a porn piece
or a dead rap star in Coachella




still it was nice watching herself .
even if it was With Bernardo

she brightened her Projection's smile and adjusted her luminance in recognition of how "most people' had to conduct themselves with "others"
and Bern was definitely an "other"

She didn't quite imagine him a Ruiner.
more of a
impasse
or what Gary Rainy called a SEMI PERSON INEVITABILITY

a semi person who could perhaps be resolved
Dealing with semi people day after day
was taking it's toll on Valerie who had to hold onto her RECLAMATIONS more and more.
Even Holo projection Bernardo was soul sapping
 To test a theory that most Semi Persons were so automated and closed off from their TRUE COGNITIONS
already ,after only twenty minutes he had altogether forgotten that he was speaking to thin air
offering her coffee twice.

to see if Bernardo might notice.Valerie decided to alter her projection's hair style
a full 3 inches longer.while Bernardo droned about some boat trip he was planning

Valerie interfaced her Holo to a loop of
"attentive" mode
and got into the  shower.Bernardo wouldn't mind.Bernardo wouldn't notice.

in the shower
she  set her mind to the Enway
to free herself of the clinging EnRot of Bernardo's semi personhood





to a forest
a jungle
to a forest
in a jungle

.she appealed to her mind
as she  taught by Gary Rainy himself




POUNCING THOUGHT TECHNIQUES always helped her wit meetings with Semi people


pretend you are a cat

pretend you see a mouse
what does your natural THRIVE INSTINCT say

BITE IT

now pretend you see a world
pretend you see a crest

RIDE IT


RECLAMATION of NATURAL INSTINCTS
TECHNIQUES

Visualize a line of hungry men

they are in ripped clothing .they stink.

WHAT VALERIE is your natural instinct ? Her Mentor had asked


to cuddle them
or


("           ", Valerie thought, but was afraid to say it out loud.)


all her mentor had was a modified fMRI   scanning wand
but her mentor
knew without knowing
she was One of Them


a wave
 a pulse
 a feeling came up from her neck to the base of her skull.
a seizure
a pain
a pleasure
a window
of minds
her mentor held her.
her body shook
other people seeing
hearing  
KNOWING 
The physical change
 came around
and  laid their hands on her.
it might have been the first time she felt anything like love

one of them explained

we belong
 around a fire.
in caves.
in groups
not this.
not Now

 Gary Rainy had a vision that something went wrong with evolution and not right that
made us weak
and people came along and said weak is kind
and someone came along and said kind is good
and someone came along and said good is right

all that matters is true nature
if you see someone and want to punch that person
it is because THAT person probably DID something to you
in another life or will in a future one
or is sending something out in the enway
and who knows.
because it is natural for you to want to punch that person
 maybe it is what THAT person needs.

to begin breaking the cycle of
FALSE BEING
 TECHNIQUES
 COURSE 3 and 4
and 
 5  a mentor herself

ANIMAL KINGDOM VISUALIZATIONS and ANIMAL KINGDOM EXERCISES
making lion noises
 and tiger leaps in the room with 20 others.
not feeling a bit ashamed.
If it were allowed she have have bitten  someone


they knew when to draw the line

but now the line wasn't so defined
intraneural was non lethal
and showed no marks.
predators
and the preyed upon
the true way of the world

and the special breed.


  our right
our technology
our natural instincts
no calling except to our own






The new way