Kitt ,the one Rosemary sold in 1970 to The Gary Rainy corp? Evan said ,filing his nails,.by Veronica Lake,by the m ouse.near the Cabin in the Woods.near Mulholland drive
much in the same way one might" wack off"
and visualize themselves as a younger
more virile version of themselves doing things might not do sexually in real life
With Dome 's new Love app
the lonely
can now find
satisfaction
perhaps even love
via
a brain computer interface
of accumulated
visual
aural and
stylistic
preference points
whether or not
the
love interest is real
(as the input bypasses the ear and eyes.and segues directly into the brain)
becomes of little consequence.
one's genuine
love interest
may also become
less than
as the simulated
playmate
is a composite of
years of recorded audio visual and emotional neuralities
and in this way is everything
one
truly desires
some days
I can't take it..
and when i ...
...kind of fall back on my old habits.
to center my mind.
to escape.
to give it a rest.
or cuz Evan wants a bit of dope
or
speed
I am the one who pays
and although they won't admit it.
it aint always me
who needs a little pick me up
("know what I mean? ..jellybean?",I graph)
hmmm
it can take days to recover from this stuff.
both the drugs.
and the aftermath..
they want me to turn them on
than
they turn on me.
i turn on them.
the Hangover. is never a shared experience
the working relationship that has been built.all goes back to square one
i panic sometimes .if i write too badly.about the process.
they will take it away.
they will stop. and give up on me as an unresolvable.
sometimes i fear that i am
unresolvable.
that i do not care enuf about the world around me.or others.
I concur
why would anyone want "that type" in the enway
should we all
be allowed.
to remain?
should we all
go forward.
to life.
everlasting
but I wonder....
are my current readings reflective of my true self?
or are they of my finances
or my reaction to the color of my walls?
or what's on television?
my neuralists. sometimes seem to care little
about THIS reality
nor about cicumstances and situations causing
a bad read.
a bad interface.
a bad scan
don't we all just need "money from home?"for a "nice" neural charting?sometimes?
or is this type of thinking
against The New Way?
does anyone but a mystic
or a shaman
have
clear.
steady thoughts
beyond
their own interior monologue
what is pure in this world anymore.
one cannot even sleep outside without being jailed.
THEY have made the world all about money
about the safety of money
it was never supposed to be like this.
and THIS has debased our collective mind and soul. has already destroyed the viability of the New Way
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
worked one too many nites overtime last xmas...was subsequently driven temporarily schizoid by a homeless Husk with ruinitious tendencies who was staying at a New Way shelter in Chattanooga.Our final interface caused an overload of both adrenalin and serotonin in my temporal lobe...and Dome said my pineal gland was no longer high functioning enough for direct remote access(I have heard the Husk has been making great strides thanks to New Way re-ed and was working at a Wholefood in Nashville..)so i am back to the 8th floor. doing old fashioned monitoring.eyes on the screen.ass on chair...not quite the same thing,once one goes intraneural it is difficult to simply find any stimulation whatsoever watching a flat screen.sorting a backlog of Ruiners.
a good many of them identify themselves.
their postings and texts all but screaming help me help me I am lost...i am doing New Way analysis of Alan Amsel's last 3 months of texts,uploads and "likes"Alan,a baker from Paramus New Jersey,who fancies himself a New Way ruiner.A potential Unresolvable.A weirdo
an interesting case.Alan makes less than 28,00$ a year.Doesn't smoke and furthermore has "gone organic"Quite a difficult thing to do on his income.And because this Alan 's body is relatively chem free the neural sweep done in his grid last May did not lock on to his Ruinations( not enough Benzophenone hexo diamter -5 or even benzene HBR in the vascular membrane basal cluster)thus his fMRI and EDC brain functions barely registered any red flag adjustment correspondence(in that his mind appeared biologically that of a healthy person in the 70,00$-120,000$ range) .Also the Dome towers in his particular neighborhood (12,000$- 23,000$)were also miscalibrated by an April wind storm.Luckily his rants online had become more and more aggressively Un New Way since his divorce.
Evan said he wanted a good 3 minutes effort.
if it's not one thing it's
another.
everything I do is wrong.
especially since my reduction
reeee
education
...
the filth
i had previously painted.
a no no
the
opposite of The New Way aesthetic
non representational he
said. just try he said.
try to do
something different.
like for instance try not writing
something that depicts your mentors as "some childman's notion of fascist
nazi's"
poor jimbis.Evan
graphs...our resident
stockholm neurotic
he is trying to teach me how to paint
again.
I think he is reading from a book...
if his heart isn't
in it either is mine....
it is
what it is...
i spend 2 minutes in
adobe photoshop
following
direction
I have been made an example
of.
my art .
my mind.
my degenracy..
I am a joke to these
people.
it is what it is.
and I am not what i used to be.
don't get me
wrong.
I am not totally against the process.
but against it enuf to
be
weary.
in many ways i am better.
in many ways..
I am
lost.
but was i so lost that I needed to be refound and rewound to
square one?
perhaps.
they had found out I was using
again.
crack.weed...
and according to Valerie
I was using
people.
and simply not thinking
right.
she was right.
they are
always right.
they are always one step ahead.
and
1000000000
times.
faster
than my wee little mind
a mind that
tends to curl into itself
and into whatever
warm hands
that will
will
unfold me.
crack cocaine.unfolds a curled in
mind
quite
effectively.
I couldn't stop.
in 2011.
they brought
me back
"to the fold"
to be reDomed.
in LA however it was
weed.
alcohol
and whatever
else stilled my beating brain.
I
continued with "the overload" after being reDomed.
and there the troubles
began.
again.
Moving on
Evan graphs,insinuating that I focus on
the "subject" at hand.
Art.
specifically the Adobe sketch I had
spent minutes on
Evan takes the art seriously.
I on the other hand woke up
with a desire to drink.
to use.
to party...
it
denotes a lack of foresight.
a
lazy mind.
try it
again.
I have an instinctual desire to draw how I always
draw..
to make every thing.look like people.
or something that is
known
some shit they graph that there is
beauty in form and color.
it lets the
viewer make their own whatever....
I have always had a difficult time
learning.
listening.
must we
always
always
return to self referential.
to I
I
I
I
I!
somehow THEY don't "speak" in I
or
we.
my first thought as usual is to graph a ragey "fuck
you"
but
there is simply
not
that
feeling
or
sense
towards
THEM
progress in spite of Iself is
being made.
toward a new way of doing
the same thing
starting
over
on the 3 minute exercise.
with foresight.
and cleaner lines
and still. another face this isn't about the art. as much it is about trying not to see "a self" in
everything around you.
i slip back to old ways.
looking in the mirror.
always a problem.
during Inter Neural.
or laying down too much
the weather changing.the cold setting in...the darkness.
i used in the last coupla weeks.
stuff i shouldnt have..
.staring endlessly at the giraffe poster that hangs on the wall
but
I don't want to reach or study or change so I return to The Old Way
i turn away from them.
i spend hours on the computer.... a "targeted individual *"chatroom. ... damn right /Evan graphs/ you were targeted. every word you typed screamed ....somebody stop me. somebody help me somebody show me The Way
the previous night.a slight pain.
my left arm
a reminder.
nothing to get worked up over.
just something to let me know.
that indeed
there were "angels"
above me
keeping me in line.
the old blog...
July 2 2011 I am getting all sundance movie my head .I hate this dumpy apartment.This dumpy life....I think if i had a wife and child right now.i would just leave in the middle of the night and never call them again .I would just send them money and after a while i wouldnt bother even sending that....
July 17 2011 I have a hard time with women artists.most of them especially the good ones are plain and simply evil.Women were not meant to toy with another's mind .Which is what art is. A woman who can do this ,especially one who knows one can is a fiercer creature than any on earth.And these women tend to have several primes.And "Mary Clair" was "priming" all over the place. She dressed in a big floppy hat and a blonde wig and immediately i picked up the reference to "mystery woman" in Fatal Vision, Joe Mcginnis' account of the officer who presumably murdered his wife.
Earlier on the phone we had spoken about how good some of the miniseries were in the early late 1980's and how Lifetime Movies of the early 1990's are the true masterpieces of modern cinema. now this was the type of person i moved here for...
Nov 1 2011
"mary Clair"a very intelligent woman.and very easy to be around so long as you dont get too close.get close enuf to anyone and you see every pore and crack and trick
I suppose a restless ,reckless sociopath cant very well change their tail feathers.so they might as well learn how to shake them properly.
we spent a good part of the day going over a previous blogs I had written when I first began The Process
when i couldnt cope with it.
and returned.
to meth
and coke.
to anything
but THEM
the journals.
my scrawlings
against the New Way
against my mentors
against my parents.( the style of the times....but not their times...in the New Way we don't denounce or dredge up incidence best left alone for the sake of a good sentence...we turn away from such books and films...and most of all thinking....look what it has done.to the Enway.to your way and mine....look around you ...what have we done?) stop writing if the words you write further THEIR cause. what happens to the "hipster" when the hipster turns 50 the need to be young and current will they not inevitably envy their own children's "nowness" their children who main goal will be to move miles and miles from them. this is what we must changeEvan graphs
nasty nasty bits about my childhood when we were working to
"get rid of it"
half written sentences.of rage ,lunacy,madness,sadness...I wondered.
and not for the first time.
why they even bothered.
saving my life.
the New Way is strict.
parental.
"cruel to be kind"
but not always
"in the right measure.."
I must trust completely
that they know best
they are ahead. of the times.
...
against
against always up against...
The new guy who has moved into the complex.
also in the New Way
Tad.
He looks, moves and speaks like television.
tv watching
... the comparisons I make ...towards fictions.
the comparisons i unconsciously make towards the less than one percent attarctive and enticing enuf to be actors in fictions.
if i am not looking at their flawless beauty and grace i am looking at their furniture..or clothes.
or comparing my socialness or lack there of to a beer commercial
and there are things I never write of.
that are out of this world.
I am never alone.
nor would I want to be .
ever again
---------------------------------
*Targeted Individuals are people who are illegally and covertly harassed, abused, gang-stalked and spied upon 24/7 by organized groups of persons.
There are several reasons why people become targets and they usually have something to do with sex and money, in that order. The targeting may have to do with a messy divorce, child custody, unrequited love, whistle-blowing, revenge, differences in social, political, or religious beliefs, etc.
Targeting for monetary reasons can include anything from denying you social security benefits or workmen's comp. to outright stealing from your bank account, from sexual slavery to embezzelment, and so on.
Targets should vehemently resist all attempts at being denied any and all kinds of government benefits. Appeal any bad decisions and if you don't like the next decision, appeal it again.
Another claim being made and that is that people might be being targeted for experimental reasons by the military or security agencies, usually, to test out how certain mind-control techniques and weapons work, which goes back to money or sexual slavery.
The main purpose of the assaults is to discredit and control targets. Harassment and abuse is often set up by corporations, businesses, organized criminals, street gangs, right-wing extremists, doctors, dentists, lawyers, or anyone who stands a chance of making any money off of targets.
Targeted Individuals are often hit with gassing (blowing noxious bio/chemical fumes into the target's environment) and they are attacked psychologically, as well. These abuses often lead to the need for psychological and physiological medical attention, thereby providing a good cash flow for the medical community and for big pharma., while taking care of someone's personal problem at the same time.
Kevin wasn’t working out.
Not since his brother had come to town.
According to Valerie
he needed a lesson
a reminder who his true family was
Dome wasn’t something one spoke about
not to outsiders
The 9 Hz focused extreme low frequencies waves* from the graffitied van outside Kevin's apartment this time was focused on the posterior region of Kevin''s hypothalamus .
As expected the excitation caused by the transmission triggered calcium ions **to build up and than release into Kevin’s blood stream.
Causing muscle contractions from head to toe.
The damage would be irreversible after 8 minutes.
Instant Parkinson’s Disease
Generalized Dystonia of the trunk and limbs
"let him twitch," Valerie said ,as his mentors had upon hearing that Kevin had spoken out and against intraneural interface and
the Dome towers being constructed around the city
Kevin lay in bed.unable to move.
A feeling like pins and needles,than as if an electrical current was passing through and inside his body.
His face tightened and swelled
His arms jerked about as the smooth muscles of his young body were overcome with stimulation.*
"stop ,stop""Kevin thought ,graphed as loud and as sincerely as he could to his neural mentors."please,please,:he graphed.
I will do anything.Anything you say"
and it stopped.
*
Since ELF is not found naturally, and is only used for maritime communication, its presence proves used on the general public..... scientific documents showing the devastating effects of ELF broadcast by microwave, UHF and VHF on humans.
pulse modulated microwaves (as used for mobile phones) can, when modulated with ELF which mimics specific brain patterns change the behaviour of the victim at the flick of a switch. A vast catalogue of control frequencies in the MHz range, FM radio, TV and mobile phone frequencies, have been measured, 147, 153, 197, 199, 447, 453, 456, 466, 853, 883, 884, 887... Symptoms can be depression, befuddled thinking, loss of memory, stress, not being able to cope, manic behaviour, schizophrenia, nervous breakdowns, physical collapse, brain and nervous system damage, heart attacks, cancer...
Contacting researchers in this field of enquiry, they all complain of microwave-like symptoms, headache, nausea, giddiness, eye damage, ear problems... Readings I have taken show that the 750-1000 MHz range is used by ...services for inducing nervous and physical collapse. Microwave ovens give off 1000 MHz.
highly deniable, device for civilian control.
Precisely modulated microwave radiation is used to influence brain function. Human behaviour and reactions can be entirely controlled by using pulse modulated microwave EM radiation. Pulse modulated microwaves are useful as the carrier for signals as they are able to pass through the skull, which is rather resistant to low level EM. The massive number of microwave antennae that dot the country, some of which are used for the microwave phone network, all use pulse modulated microwaves, which makes their use..against the civilian population in times of trouble, or rioting, crucial to modifying the behaviour of the general population. This pulse modulated microwave carrier beam can then be used to carry signals. These signals are extremely low frequency recordings of brain electrical potentials, which have been recorded by neuro-medical researchers such as Dr Ross Adey.
Dr Ross Adey's research at the Brain Research Institute of the University of California, ...a catalogue of different brain signals for specific actions, emotions and pathological states of mind were recorded. It was found that when microwaves were used to fire these signals at victims' brains, they experienced the moods, behaviour, and the pathological states, carried by the signals. This meant that by mimicking natural brain frequencies, the human brain could be controlled remotely by use of extremely low frequency broadcast carried by pulse modulated microwave beams (ELF pulse modulated microwave remote mind control technology).
Paralysis can be induced in the target by use of this method of broadcasting preparatory sets encoded on microwave beams. A pulse modulated microwave beam, carrying an ELF signal, which is identical to the one in the motor neurone centre of the brain, is used to jam the victim's motor co-ordination. .analogous to radar jamming,..literally overloads the brain, so it cannot control the body. Pulse modulated microwavewhich broadcast the ELF preparatory sets of the motor cortex at the victim, will paralyse the victim without killing them. Breathing and heartbeat are involuntary actions controlled by another set of frequencies in another part of the brain.
.
.... Sophisticated computer systems have learnt to read the sub vocalised thoughts in the brain, by associating a specific brain excitation potential, with a particular word. .. Once the donkey work of finding the specific frequencies for all the words in a language has been programmed into a super computer, which can carry out massive parallel processing, software is used to match this with real world excitation potential associated with sub vocalised thought obtained from thousands who are used to calibrate the synthetic telepathy devices.
Synthetic telepathy detects the l5Hz, 5 milliwatt auditory cortex brain emissions, that are linked with the excitation potentials in the brain associated with subvocalised thought. New technology, involving low frequency microwaves and RF, has enabled devices to be built which can scan through walls and look inside peoples' bodies like X-rays. This enables security personnel to see a target in his own home and to track him throughout the house. Further to this, being able to see inside the victim's head, would allow computer controlled targeting of specific brain centres in the victim's brain, even when he was walking around the house.
Adey found that by using 0.75mW/cm2 intensity of pulse modulated microwave at a frequency of 450 MHz, it was discovered that an ELF modulation could be used to control all aspects of human behaviour.
., stressing the neural network by constant calcium ion efflux and interference with bio electric fields.
With the advent of synthetic telepathy, 'CCTV of the mind' becomes a reality.
[1] Non-Lethality: John B Alexander, [3] Enigma Vol 2, It's All In The Mind, T Rifat.
[4] Ross W Adey
**The calcium-outflow window discovered by Ross Adey could be used to interfere with integrated muscle movements
Thursday, October 4, 2012
i lay there the trance like state i hear things. i see.... i am aware of the one million yard stare my eyes now look tricky i listen is what I do (there was a time i thought I was IN something .Part of something exciting.a new venture...) the paintings i go back to now. what began this . (again) the monitoring I have been told I will be monitored like this the rest of my life.
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
I work on the 8thfloor of Proxy Cyber
In the Indications and Cue Department
I have a subtle hand
I must pat myself on the back.
My name is never mentioned or written on the scrolls that begin and end films
but my touches are everywhere
One can say I work in the propaganda department but we don’t use those words around here...
I don’t even think they use those words in Russia any more.
I don’t know if I should even use the word Russia
For the word Russia also has implications
everything has implications on
The 8th floor
Almost every film and publication that crosses my desk contains elements of The New Way
And why should it not
Proxy Cy and Neuronautics and Parasol Pictures owning 96% of all publishing houses and film
Proxy Cy and Parasol Pictures should be ahead of the times
After all we create the times
How can one not be up to date when when knows the date already
our job is about subtle references
Little touches for our brothers and sisters to lock onto
So many hits and misses with these things.
One never knows when a chord will be struck
The times .
so fast these days
I mean whatever happened to Rosemary’s Baby
The 18-25 year olds haven’t a clue
1200 channels.
The fragments
And cues get lost
The Whitest guys in the room way up top of the Proxy Cy and Parasol Pictures have fractured and destroyed their own system of response cues with greed
Producingand jamming up their own airwaves and Enways with so much random randomousity
that there are almost no keys to any of the opened doors
Now it is all about almost monumental events to bring a collective mind together
My timeline (age 35 -45) and referential response cues were set several decades ago
As is the forthcoming second coming public brouhaha concerning Intraneural Communications
My mind though is on my script
and not the scripting of events
i was raised an
Immersive
in the Gary Rainy style
Immersives
are prime
candidates to participate in a private game
that keeps the lights on around here
Involving specific members of the Dome elite.
there is not that much of a difference between an immerse
and a Schizophrenic
Only that Immersives always came back
Immersivescan lose
themselves completely in other parts of their minds
these type of children and young adults were of special
interest to those in the communications field especially concerning virtual
reality
because they help map alternative thinking patterns
that are useful in the construction ofspecific neural patterns that are essential
for non immersives to make the leap to another cerebral
mindscape True Schizophrenics had been used in the past to chart simulated
mindgrounds but their patterns were too erratic.
Proxy Cy and Parasol Pictures Direct Neural Tv Dept. collects Immersives
The Rainy Group discovered in themid 1950’s that a child’s mind could be
rendered to REACH
Also the same process that created such explosive thinking also
permanently brands the child
in such a way that they are
responsive and respectful to his makers, ,mentors and "handlers"
Kitt too was raised Rainy
as was Evan
The monster under the bed was auditory neuro linguistics
and over the bed
(the baby sitter's boyfriend or the ubiquitous. Uncle Ernie with hands hands fingers thumbs...oh yeah there's a department for that too)
A rite
a ritual
A necessary crime ?
How else to craft a mind
splintered into pieces
and shiny points
it was the secret to ceiling walking
to royal loyal broods
to have among them one who travels
elsewhere
some.thing .to be fed .to those hungry MGM lions with tiger blood in their veins)*
*
The mentor might establish early on that the individual is of great importance in the world
The mentor creates a realistic New beginning for the individual
A new narrative
An endless conversation begins involving the individual’s un awareness
The mentor convinces you that that your idea of reality has been deliberately altered
and what was done to you was also done for you
He might convince youthat you have special powers
He knows your story
(what did you give me .what did I take.what was in that you ask. you ask and you stop asking)
The individual sense of self is tested
One’s lineage is questioned and challenged
"I don’t think you really know who your father is.”
“your father isn’t your father.”
“I too travel between realities.It takes one to know one he might say
Your mentor might hug you ,hold you, cry for you
For all you have been through
You are part of a sociological experiement ..Didnt you always wonder why you felt different?
I am part of the Uncle Ernie Tribe too.
it's all very complicated.don't even think of going out that door. you are with us or so much against us and we will literally drive you mad now come here sit down and let me hold you you were never hugged enough I know I know I am you and you are me you will see how much
i don't feel good
the world is selfish with thoughts like that you must think of larger things.beyond good.beyond your individual feelings
they have ideas for intraneural interface that I did not understand until recently
it involves Immersives “”he says taking off his shirt .telling you to take off yours.and your shoes.Now lie down
don't think of going out that door.
do you understand
Secret texts and sects through the ages had found the age of 5 to be the best
Age for one’s initial imprint
To open one’s mind to such an awakening and to brand the child to a state of full Immersion
The abuse enacted on the child is not only to cause a split of personality structure but also
Necessary to flatten affect enough that future handlers/commanders might recognize the child/man as an Immersed.
Immersives tend to grow up quite unable to take care of themselves
And must seek help from other Uncles throughout their lives
"uncles" knew
uncles sensed
They knew
A Rainy child
“had the look”
He knows your story
I am proud to be the first to know who you really are
you are told you were born to take part in numerous tests to protect and serve
(that was not done to me you say. that was not done to me you say)
what do you know
I can see
I see it
That didn’t happen to me you say
It did he says
You don’t know anything you're 20 years old and
literally off a bus
///
In the mid 1960's Before the scandal with "Safety in Umber" Gary Rainy and Alliance Pictures were forefront in sophisticated sound and emoting techniques.such as non localized sound and pre holographic 3 dimensional 3 d televised imagery. for a Cleaner ,authentically pure neural 'starting place" that was universal and equal for all Rainy children it was preemptive to first introduce associations through artificial device.especially because Rainy Children future champions of modern thought were primarily to think in terms of symbols in a more binary capacity. which would make these Rainy children "state of the art" concerning their interactions which Rainy wanted to be beyond the 5 senses.Rainy Children of "quiet" OFF would awaken to full ON "in the air,thinking" "on air thinking"
by age 2 a 3 dimensional projected cloud over the toddlers crib that would sometimes "smile"sound would also intermittently placate the child usually pitched to a soothing 25 megahurtz.sounding much like Rainy himself.
the child's interactions with these gentle vibrations were enough to move
the Rainy Children into a pre school environment.all but a few
high functioning enough to sit thru class
the addition of an "imaginary friend"would be added during the child's 4th year,
synthesized beginnings Rainy explained also made the initiation of LORE almost seamless.LORE was just one of the reasons for this technological "hands off" approach to early rearing.LORE involved quickening the child's link to televised indicators that would reinforce their kinship with the Rainy Clan.Specific words and entire story lines,features,and programs that would not be introduced into the mainstream for 20 or 30 years were assimilated into the already fragmented collective minds of the Clan.A head start ,a heads up to the New Way.Besides the smiles of the 3d clouds and comfort of the omni present sound devices key pieces of future "pop culture cues" would be discretely introduced. .LORE relied extensively on The Rainy Method having an ongoing "discussion" with Symbiotic Cue participants in "the industry and always in tandem with the SYNTHESIZED BEGINNINGS program.
The indicator/cue could sometimes be as simply as an art director placing a light green bed spread in a relevalent scene on a sight specific TV program.that would instigate a significant cerebral response in children raised Rainy(as The Rainy Mother's Handbook might include a ritual of folding this specific bedspread a certain way ,with or with out a corresponding "lesson" in New Way Philosophy. much like a visual of a mother making cookies could bring a rush emotion to a non rainy child.A lemon colored Kite introduced 5 seconds after a thunder clap could bring a Rainy child back to his SIMPLICITY MODELLING CORRALATIONS (age 5-7) GaryRainy wrote several short stories for Rainy Day Magazine (an adventure sci fi magazine for boys)based on his access to "secret technologies" which he implied were kept under wraps and released in small measure to the world at large especially the televised image,primarily how TV was primarily developed as a "means" not entertainment.He says that it was about this time that he came under fire from "the powers that be"and for a time moved to Mexico privately said he thought "the powers that be" were envious that he and his clan had "beaten them to the punch by "hard wiring "members to codified television .As for the creation of "pre-events" to trigger all sorts of economic and societal shifts,Rainy simply shrugged i"s there any other way?"
the child's interactions with these gentle vibrations were enough to move the Rainy Children into a pre school environment.all but a few high functioning enough to sit thru class in his notes he concluded that by 2007 the technological advancements would be such the addition of an "imaginary friend"would be added during the child's 4th year a composite of Gary Rainy himself. as troubadour,playmate and confessor
.
problems with Mindy so resistant to input Valerie had acquired the ex heroin addict for $70,000 Valerie wanted about 30% of Mindy's "glow" to remain. taking anymore created a Schizo affect that didn't really go with a little black dress, and the main reason Valerie chose Mindy was for a vicarious "party girl" experience enough people knew that Mindy was Valerie's ' Proxy and had begun laying the ground work for new associations ,referentials and imprinting one didn't want the Bruce Dern"man with 2 heads " affect
I spoke to a nice woman in a limosine
about all this.
she took me shopping on Rodeo drive some new clothes
she said maybe it's aliens
and that i shouldnt talk about it
and maybe the aliens are good
and i should take heed of what they say
I showed her Kevin's journal
she said this kevin seems to have a cold heart
and maybe I shouldnt hang around him
I reread his journal and can see what she means
picture the movie avatar but with that chick in photos at abugraib with her thumb up
and instead of them "channeling' threw those blue people
they can "channel" junkies
and prostitutes
what else
whatever else THEY find handy as husks on the streets
people with that glint or lack thereof in their eyes that somehow indicate
"i won't be missed"
I am already broken
and can be easily lead.
the inserts didnt hurt.
but they could hurt u with them once they were in
u can still see my scar when i get my hair cut really short
i asked another inmate to tatoo a 666 on my stiches
.
but the ink didnt settle right
or something so now i have to wear my hair longer
kinda just like that guy
in the omen probably does now
or they" d see his markings
I wouldnt want to be you kid this Richard Reinhart says
Dome he said was set up like a pyramid.but actually was more like a cow
of those pictures you see of a diagramed cow
guys name was rick reinhart.
used to be some big wig in hollywood.
he ended up choking his maid.
he thought the maid was putting ideas in his head.
and taking them out.
theyd
film us
give us
some
tina
and cigs
they also promised to set me up when i got out
an apartment.
they'd
give me early parole if I agreed to be monitored
it was back when I believed in the Process.
i
n the guides.
in angels.and aliens
well it's
one thing doin vids in prison quite another in some living room in Van Nuys
the director telling you youre fat
or too straighten your posture
or your fucking feet arent clean enough
than they want you to escort some moneybag to clubs
all the while you get this "monitored feeling"and you remember
must be nice being some married guy
who just has to put on a headset
to feel a ****in their mouth
but who's mouth is on it
huh?
mindy believes it's aliens
she gets nervous when i talk about it
she has the same look as Josh
where ever he went
we used to all sleep on the street near the church near sunset
now it's just me and mindy
and we usually stay with some old guy in the valley
He drops us off every morning in hollywood .he doesnt say but he's like afraid to leave us alone in his house when he's at work
i told him about the ear thing and he says
he'd wouldnt put anything past the suits in this town
Valerie bought me the most amazing clothes I have ever seen
AND she gave me money for a hotel room
all she asks is that I stay away from Kevin
who she called a ruiner.
She said I was having a mystical experience of some kind
and that I must let it run it's course
and give up on me as an unresolvable.
Evan said he wanted a good 3 minutes effort.
I have been made an example
of.
always up against...
