problems with Mindy
so resistant to input
Valerie had acquired the ex heroin addict for $70,000
Valerie wanted about 30% of Mindy's "glow" to remain.
taking anymore
created a Schizo affect that didn't really go with a little black dress,
and the main reason Valerie chose Mindy was for a vicarious "party girl" experience

enough people knew that Mindy was Valerie's ' Proxy
and had begun laying the ground work for
new associations ,referentials and imprinting
one didn't want the Bruce Dern"man with 2 heads " affect




I spoke to a nice woman in a limosine
about all this.
she took me shopping on Rodeo drive some new clothes
she said maybe it's aliens
and that i shouldnt talk about it
and maybe the aliens are good
and i should take heed of what they say

I showed her  Kevin's journal
she said this kevin seems to have a cold heart
and maybe I shouldnt hang around him
I reread his journal and can see what she means

picture the movie avatar but with that chick in photos at abugraib with her thumb up

and instead of them "channeling' threw those blue people

they can "channel" junkies

and prostitutes

what else

 whatever else THEY find handy as husks on the streets

people with that glint or lack thereof in their eyes that somehow indicate

"i won't be missed"

I am already broken

and can be easily lead.

 

the inserts didnt hurt.

but they could hurt u with them once they were in

 

u can still see my scar when i get my hair cut really short

i asked another inmate to tatoo a 666 on my stiches

.

but the ink didnt settle right

or something so now i have to wear my hair longer

kinda just like that guy

in the omen probably does now

or they" d see his markings

 

I wouldnt want to be you kid this Richard Reinhart says

 

Dome he said was set up like a pyramid.but actually was more like a cow

 of those pictures you see of a diagramed cow

 

guys name was rick reinhart.

used to be some big wig in hollywood.

he ended up  choking his maid.

he thought the maid was putting ideas in his head.

and taking them out.

theyd

film us

give us

some

tina

and cigs

they also promised to set me up when i got out

an apartment.

they'd

 give me early parole if I agreed to be monitored

it was back when I believed in the Process.

i

n the guides.

in angels.and aliens

well it's

one thing doin vids in prison quite another in some living room in Van Nuys

the director telling you youre fat

or too straighten your posture

or your fucking feet arent clean enough

 

than they want you to escort some moneybag to clubs

 

all the while you get this "monitored feeling"and you remember

 

must be nice being some married guy

who just has to put on a headset

to feel a ****in their mouth

but who's mouth is on it

huh?

 

mindy believes it's aliens

she gets nervous when i talk about it

she has the same look as Josh

where ever he went

we used to all sleep on the street near the church near sunset

now it's just me and mindy

and we usually stay with some old guy in the valley

He drops us off every morning in hollywood .he doesnt say but he's like afraid to leave us alone in his house when he's at work

i told him about the ear thing and he says

he'd wouldnt put anything past the suits in this town

Valerie bought me the most amazing clothes I have ever seen
AND she gave me money for a hotel room
all she asks is that I stay away from Kevin
who she called a ruiner.
She said I was having a mystical experience of some kind
and that I must let it run  it's course




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