Cole .week 25

sometimes it all goes to hell.

the "process"

i slip back to old ways.
looking in the mirror.
always a problem.
during Inter Neural.
or laying down too much
the weather changing.the cold setting in...the darkness.
i used in the last coupla weeks.
stuff i shouldnt have..

.staring endlessly at the giraffe poster that hangs on the wall
but
I don't want to reach
or study
or change
so I return to The Old Way


i turn away from them.
i spend hours on the computer....
a "targeted individual *"chatroom.
...
damn right /Evan graphs/ you were targeted.
every word you typed screamed ....somebody stop me.
somebody help me
somebody show me
The Way

the previous night.a slight pain.
my left arm
a reminder.

nothing to get worked up over.

just something to let me know.
that indeed
there were "angels"
above me
keeping me in line.

the old blog...

 July 2 2011
 I am getting all sundance movie my head .I hate this dumpy apartment.This dumpy life....I think if i had a wife and child right now.i would just leave in the  middle of the night and never call them again .I would  just send them money and after a while i wouldnt bother even sending that....

July 17 2011
  I have a hard time with women artists.most of them especially the good ones are plain and simply evil.Women were not meant to toy with another's mind .Which is what art is.
A woman who can do this ,especially one who knows one can is a fiercer creature than any on earth.And these women tend to have several primes.And "Mary Clair" was "priming" all over the place.
   She dressed in a big floppy hat and a blonde wig and immediately i picked up the reference to "mystery woman" in Fatal Vision, Joe Mcginnis' account of the officer who presumably murdered his wife.

   Earlier on the phone we had spoken about how good some of the miniseries were in the early late 1980's and how Lifetime Movies of the early 1990's are the true masterpieces of modern cinema.
now this was the type of person i  moved here for...

Nov 1 2011

 "mary Clair"a very intelligent woman.and very easy to be around so long as you dont get too close.get close enuf to anyone and you see every pore and crack and trick

I suppose a restless ,reckless sociopath cant very well change their tail feathers.so they might as well learn how to shake them properly.

 

 

we spent a good part of the day going over a previous blogs I had written when I first began The Process
when i couldnt cope with it.
and returned.
to meth
and coke.
to anything
but THEM

the journals.
my scrawlings
against the New Way
against my mentors
against my parents.( the style of the times....but not their times...in the New Way we don't denounce or dredge up incidence best left alone for the sake of a good sentence...we turn away from such books and films...and most of all thinking....look what it has done.to the Enway.to your way and mine....look around you ...what have we done?)
stop writing if the words you write further THEIR cause.
what happens to the "hipster"
when the hipster turns 50
the need to be young and current
will they not inevitably envy their own children's "nowness"
their children
who main goal will be to move miles and miles from them.
this is what we must change Evan graphs

 

 

nasty nasty bits about my childhood when we were working to
"get rid of it"
half written sentences.of rage ,lunacy,madness,sadness...I wondered.
and not for the first time.
why they even bothered.
saving my life.



the New Way is strict.
parental.
"cruel to be kind"
but not always
"in the right measure.."

I must trust completely
that they know best

they are ahead. of the times.
...


against
against
always up against...

The  new guy who has moved into the complex.
also in the New Way
Tad.
He looks, moves and speaks like television.


 tv watching
... the comparisons I make ...towards fictions.
the comparisons i unconsciously make towards the less than one percent attarctive and enticing enuf to be actors in fictions.
if i am not looking at their flawless beauty and  grace i am looking at their furniture..or clothes.
or comparing my socialness or lack there of to a beer commercial


and there are things I never write of.
that are out of this world.
I am never alone.
nor would I want to be .

 

ever again

 

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*Targeted Individuals are people who are illegally and covertly harassed, abused, gang-stalked and spied upon 24/7 by organized groups of persons. There are several reasons why people become targets and they usually have something to do with sex and money, in that order. The targeting may have to do with a messy divorce, child custody, unrequited love, whistle-blowing, revenge, differences in social, political, or religious beliefs, etc. Targeting for monetary reasons can include anything from denying you social security benefits or workmen's comp. to outright stealing from your bank account, from sexual slavery to embezzelment, and so on. Targets should vehemently resist all attempts at being denied any and all kinds of government benefits. Appeal any bad decisions and if you don't like the next decision, appeal it again. Another claim being made and that is that people might be being targeted for experimental reasons by the military or security agencies, usually, to test out how certain mind-control techniques and weapons work, which goes back to money or sexual slavery. The main purpose of the assaults is to discredit and control targets. Harassment and abuse is often set up by corporations, businesses, organized criminals, street gangs, right-wing extremists, doctors, dentists, lawyers, or anyone who stands a chance of making any money off of targets. Targeted Individuals are often hit with gassing (blowing noxious bio/chemical fumes into the target's environment) and they are attacked psychologically, as well. These abuses often lead to the need for psychological and physiological medical attention, thereby providing a good cash flow for the medical community and for big pharma., while taking care of someone's personal problem at the same time.

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Kevin wasn’t working out.
Not since his brother had come to town.

According to Valerie
he needed a lesson
a reminder who his true family was

Dome wasn’t something one spoke about
not to outsiders

The 9 Hz focused extreme low frequencies waves* from the graffitied van outside Kevin's apartment this time was focused on the posterior region of Kevin''s hypothalamus .

As expected the excitation caused by the transmission triggered calcium ions **to build up and than release into Kevin’s blood stream.

Causing muscle contractions from head to toe.

The damage would be irreversible after 8 minutes.

Instant Parkinson’s Disease
Generalized Dystonia of the trunk and limbs

"let him twitch," Valerie said ,as his mentors had upon hearing that Kevin had spoken out and against intraneural interface and

the Dome towers being constructed around the city

Kevin lay in bed.unable to move.

A feeling like pins and needles,than as if an electrical current was passing through and inside his body.

His face tightened and swelled

His arms jerked about as the smooth muscles of his young body were overcome with stimulation.*

"stop ,stop""Kevin thought ,graphed as loud and as sincerely as he could to his neural mentors."please,please,:he graphed.

I will do anything.Anything you say"

and it stopped.

*

Since ELF is not found naturally, and is only used for maritime communication, its presence proves used on the general public..... scientific documents showing the devastating effects of ELF broadcast by microwave, UHF and VHF on humans.

pulse modulated microwaves (as used for mobile phones) can, when modulated with ELF which mimics specific brain patterns change the behaviour of the victim at the flick of a switch. A vast catalogue of control frequencies in the MHz range, FM radio, TV and mobile phone frequencies, have been measured, 147, 153, 197, 199, 447, 453, 456, 466, 853, 883, 884, 887... Symptoms can be depression, befuddled thinking, loss of memory, stress, not being able to cope, manic behaviour, schizophrenia, nervous breakdowns, physical collapse, brain and nervous system damage, heart attacks, cancer...

Contacting researchers in this field of enquiry, they all complain of microwave-like symptoms, headache, nausea, giddiness, eye damage, ear problems... Readings I have taken show that the 750-1000 MHz range is used by ...services for inducing nervous and physical collapse. Microwave ovens give off 1000 MHz.

highly deniable, device for civilian control.

Precisely modulated microwave radiation is used to influence brain function. Human behaviour and reactions can be entirely controlled by using pulse modulated microwave EM radiation. Pulse modulated microwaves are useful as the carrier for signals as they are able to pass through the skull, which is rather resistant to low level EM. The massive number of microwave antennae that dot the country, some of which are used for the microwave phone network, all use pulse modulated microwaves, which makes their use..against the civilian population in times of trouble, or rioting, crucial to modifying the behaviour of the general population. This pulse modulated microwave carrier beam can then be used to carry signals. These signals are extremely low frequency recordings of brain electrical potentials, which have been recorded by neuro-medical researchers such as Dr Ross Adey.

Dr Ross Adey's research at the Brain Research Institute of the University of California, ...a catalogue of different brain signals for specific actions, emotions and pathological states of mind were recorded. It was found that when microwaves were used to fire these signals at victims' brains, they experienced the moods, behaviour, and the pathological states, carried by the signals. This meant that by mimicking natural brain frequencies, the human brain could be controlled remotely by use of extremely low frequency broadcast carried by pulse modulated microwave beams (ELF pulse modulated microwave remote mind control technology).

Paralysis can be induced in the target by use of this method of broadcasting preparatory sets encoded on microwave beams. A pulse modulated microwave beam, carrying an ELF signal, which is identical to the one in the motor neurone centre of the brain, is used to jam the victim's motor co-ordination. .analogous to radar jamming,..literally overloads the brain, so it cannot control the body. Pulse modulated microwavewhich broadcast the ELF preparatory sets of the motor cortex at the victim, will paralyse the victim without killing them. Breathing and heartbeat are involuntary actions controlled by another set of frequencies in another part of the brain.

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.... Sophisticated computer systems have learnt to read the sub vocalised thoughts in the brain, by associating a specific brain excitation potential, with a particular word. .. Once the donkey work of finding the specific frequencies for all the words in a language has been programmed into a super computer, which can carry out massive parallel processing, software is used to match this with real world excitation potential associated with sub vocalised thought obtained from thousands who are used to calibrate the synthetic telepathy devices.

Synthetic telepathy detects the l5Hz, 5 milliwatt auditory cortex brain emissions, that are linked with the excitation potentials in the brain associated with subvocalised thought. New technology, involving low frequency microwaves and RF, has enabled devices to be built which can scan through walls and look inside peoples' bodies like X-rays. This enables security personnel to see a target in his own home and to track him throughout the house. Further to this, being able to see inside the victim's head, would allow computer controlled targeting of specific brain centres in the victim's brain, even when he was walking around the house.

Adey found that by using 0.75mW/cm² intensity of pulse modulated microwave at a frequency of 450 MHz, it was discovered that an ELF modulation could be used to control all aspects of human behaviour.

., stressing the neural network by constant calcium ion efflux and interference with bio electric fields.

With the advent of synthetic telepathy, 'CCTV of the mind' becomes a reality.

[1] Non-Lethality: John B Alexander,
[3] Enigma Vol 2, It's All In The Mind, T Rifat.

[4] Ross W Adey

**The calcium-outflow window discovered by Ross Adey could be used to interfere with integrated muscle movements