re-edt.

feed me and buy me things.
for some reason i want to exist.
why
i dont know
to buy more things?
i am crazy... i am bad.unfortunately even the bad need food and shelter and there is never enuf
the very bad need and need
 they need

cuz they get nothing immaterial and spiritual like  what SOLVABLES get
for some reason i want to exist
why
i don't know.
One who was a Ruiner but was saved with Brain Computer Mentorship is on the stage
the RESOLVABLE finishes her poem and leaves stage right-.the lights dim.a spot comes up on Macy, linda and Evan.I am upstage  when a Blue Bean hits me .I put my hand up to block it.Macy copies my movement  and suddenly the light dims


"UNSOLVABLES love the dark they hate the day ",Macy says
I am sitting
on a stage
behind me is a huge screen
various pages of things i have written and drawn are projected on it

there is another screen which has my other thoughts
my interneural thoughts. What I am thinking in Real Time .Right Now on the stage..
sometimes the 2 are shown at once


.I was smiling,I was in my suit,the suit I got that i wore alot since my Reduction.that has helped me  think
in a reduced manner 
 smaller portions.

"He,"Evan Rainy says to the audience <"was asked NOT to write  BUT HE kept writing and writing...."
(he kept writng,he kept going,I hear her say
I Have been dimmed for the presentation

"when do i get a snack"
i hear the audience laughing
i laugh too.
i look at macy who points to the screen
when do i get a snack  it says in big letters

"Snacks.so he wants snacks,"Macy ,one of my Mentors says shrugging smiling".nothing wrong with snacks,,"she pauses and becomes serious..ok so the old brown mare  she ain't what she used to be ,'she comes up behind me and puts her hands on me "  Nothing wrong with snacks and smiles ....in a year or so he will moved to a better apartment and might be able to care for a pet"

Paintings and drawings and things i wrote are projected behind me
Evan takes the stage.
"i monitored much of who we will refer only as "Dumbos: PROCESS
"Usually Internals transcripts are kept utterly private ,don't you worry" Evan  said"All you future consumers of our brand of Brain Link...,this is a one time deal,"he laughs and the audience laughs back
Dumbo gave us permission...he signed a waiver..be "app-ed' with Merge bio tech of serve time for intent to distribute illegal substances..
I am smiling,I turn around to see if my thoughts are on the screen
i dont know if i gave anyone permission,but there is nothing on the screen but angry paintings and words and words
 Believe me i know all too well how  UNSOLVABLES think,"he laughs,putting a hankerchief to his forehead.I know how they eat ,sleep and ruminate
Evan  comes up behind me and puts his hands on my shoulders and shouts to the audience",My father,
Gary Rainy believed that one man's bad thoughts wipes away the actions and thoughts of 100,000 good men and believed they should be removed from existance.he believed that even after their death that their Emanations  would still stream through the Enway..the "Enway" is what Neuronautic's call the Neural Highway
,the electromagnetic spectrum...
People's thoughts Emanate electromagnetism..2 hz.when they sleep..
4 hz when they wake.
11Hz or so when the Hate ..


"know why you rememebr only bad things Dumbo! "he screamed
"because you made all the bad things happen!.Because you are bad and people and the plants and the Earth's electromagnetism - responded in kind  to your badness!because your EMINATIONS  were and are  SO Intense and So AGAINST  The ENWAY! that every LITTLE element and Molecule reacted to your EMINATIONS ...so powerful was your sickness of spirit that it was contagious...WHY does an ARTIST paint such UGLY DEPRAVITY if not to attempt to corrupt another's senses...like their own.. "
Macy saw I was scared and held up a cookie
seeing this Evan stopped yelling and came up behind me.smiling
"we went through alot ,didnt we Dumbo....before ...we realized that there was no hope ..except Psychotronic Reduction Surgery


pictures of my destroyed apartment flickered on the screen
and next a broken window


Evan's Interneural "stories" made me get very mad sometimes


there was a sound from the audience
I turned around and saw the screen filled with what i had just thought
evan's interneural stories made me get very mad sometimes

a projectorist or something quickly overlaid it with a "horrible" painting i had done of a crowd at a bus stop"
I felt a tiny twitch through the back of my head and knew that i had better just think of cookies
but Macy mouthed "they turned it off," she said circling her head with her finger,she smiled.







***********************************************************************

• necessary for the Proxeteer to be told something despicable about "the reason"

a subject was chosen for the program

• a crime
• preferably sexual in nature, should be introduced.at first casually. It is unfortunate that some Mentors moral compass however veers more toward crimes such as theft,or betrayal..in which case.one might lead the subject into such hot spots of ambiguity. Much more difficult than sexual misappropriations
• it is relatively easy to overload

a Proxy's subconscious "loop" toward such correlations

• (especially in the first 8 weeks of intrusion ,so that memories of childhood.and sexuality may seem to concur in such a way that a future Mentor may  be introduced to the subject in such a way that subject is implied and implicated as a sexual predator.

• one has a rather wide berth to introduce such themes.
• especially if one is prudent in seeking specific identifiers.
• (which can often can be done if one focuses on visual correlations during "quiet reads" during television)

• ....used to provide the Mentor enough wherewithal and emotion fortitude to begin the initial "dent"

• and subsequent psychotic break for participants who were randomly chosen,who did not sign waivers.)
• ------------------------
• the volunteers.
• 120 days max
• with pay
• the most important part of establishing Intraneural with the unknowing participants
• would be to immediately establish an incongruous
• correspondence
• which would also guarantee ..... the right to experiment on human subjects would be to provide ample evidence of required monitoring over riding the 120 day ....
• as the subjects not signing waivers were "in the grey zone"of the law.....
• concerning psychological non lethal....fair play
• important early on
• to make the subject.... either incapacitated and institutionalized
• as the very nature of future conditioning for type b. testing would and should be mind "without limits"
• and in such regard these tests under guidelines and for the public's safety be "played out" in facilities
• such as jails or hospitals

I went back to some of gary rainy's True Sci-Fi Guides for young boys
he predicted "the dots" in 1965

little triggers

The control tones recorded on the film's optical or magnetic track triggered one of   Two tones of 25 Hz or 35 Hz  that bypassed the "enhanced" tv viewers temporal lobe...the silent frequencies were a form of "low -fi remote neural monitoring .
.possible now
 for the " control group" who  had drank the potable nano particles and bio sensors
 placed in select batches  of Compo Cola 


Parasol Pictures a subsidiary of Compo had co- sponsored the trial run of Associative /Referential TV Response
that called for a" mild" Brain Computer Interface 
BCI was the latest thing
but for all intensive purposes did not exist at all

Valerie Prentis asked for the utmost discretion for the "experience"
as she feared Intraneural TV
would be perceived by the public ," as too Invasive..or something or other"
she spoke privately and scornfully of  Luddite thinking toward advanced Technologies," especially amongst those "Jewie" types  who could not or would not '"get over  their "thang" that someone or something was always "up to something"
Valerie spoke about "hippies and those PBS types  against Evolutionary Progressiveness...ruining just RUINING everything For Everybody....
But the project went forward nonetheless thanks in part  to a generous grant from both the beverage company and The Gary P. Rainy TruGenics Corperation for Human Betterment...

the TVs were of a generic brand 
bought mainly in the neighborhoods who drank Compo cola to begin with...
a small manipulation of pulse code through the cables in and around the 30 block radius 
altered the Tvs suitably to be essentially mirrors of both the Moods and Modes of the persons viewing the sets
 these two tones  responded "in kind" to the viewer's facial Reactives and the bio sensors that had survived the ardent trip past the consumer/tester's blood brain barrier.., the main soundtrack could be increased in  8 decibel increments to create a more Immersive Response to the programming  Some viewers and consumers brought even more to the market study as their Compo Cola contained not only bio sensors for survey but nano particles that could convey a  virtual 5 sense dendrite /synapse over ride

 

 

It was selective television

that read the pupils

and neural reactions to one of 57 thought styles programmed into

the New Direct intraneural Program

being introduced by Parasol Pictures

discretely

as the feedback was

mainly for marketing and or

spotting

anyone who reacted to various associations and cues

in a manner too far off

 the

Gary Rainy Neuronautic Scale of Normalcy

 

"you are a child in The Process
it's a beginning.
it's no big thing
certainly not something to waste hours typing and writing about
the only people who may understand a word of this know everything about this
"everyone has "things"
it's just how we go about letting the snow shake off our shoes when we go inside
do you shake them wildly and get ice and water over everything and everyone.
you don't want to get the snow in the next room,"Valerie says

"does everyone  talk like a fruitcake when "they're finished"I ask

"the way you're going I don't think you'll ever know"she said nor ever
be
finshed


"i am trying" I say.

"Trying what? trying to screw around with things you don't understand"she says

"they're screwing with me Paul,you don't get it.I never asked for this shit,"I say"I was perfectly happy or happy enough before this,now all I get is.."

"is what it is Little brother"

"you can't even fly man,didn't they promise flying and shit in the beginning?"

"they only do that to dumb people I heard,promise flying and stuff"

"is that so?"

"they don't like you writing this shit online,and misrepresenting everything,Think of them as the Old Testament types."

"oh don't worry bout it my Brother I see what they can do,trust me."

"and you make it tit for tat,is what I heard"

"i can't deal with it,I "ve began taking pills again"

"they told you not to"

"they're fair,"I say

"you're not,"Paul says ,"ever".

"i didnt ask for this"

"you did ,quite specifically,it is noted"

"why you talkin all religious and shit like some poem person,what is this?"

"gentleness.why do you pretend you don't like it.

"shut up shut up  shut up,I am so sick of talking .I am actually banging the side of my head hurting it.listening and listening to this nothing this nothing for years from my family from everyone .i am losing my mind i dont work now i dont paint .i dont care..i can't deal with dealing with..people just to .....survive it's a disgusting thing.I'd rather be dead.i am serious. my problems are financial,if I had enough money I could go away from  I am old.now I am fed up.I am a loser ."

"you expect me to say careful what you wish for.you expect us to give you money

"shut up.can't you see why i've turned into this.somethings are fucking made.sometimes there is no way out.
"don't worry Jimbis no way out ,no money  will be forthcoming .you have costed the "agency ' a small fortune with that whatever his name is shit"

"you do understand that to a certain degree i have absolutely no god damn idea what you're talking about nor did i than.it was minutes.it was minutes. of a day!

'to a certain degree yes.but that is all,why did you do that to him"

"are you out of your fucking mind!"

"who writes like that about someone ,really"

"i suppose i do.I suppose by the time this somebody came along I had fucking lost all sense of how to speak let alone fucking "graph" to anyone.one thousand pardons..

"take it down"

"what"

"everything you have written on the computer.it is filth and sickness."

"YES  YES it is.we agree on something.it is what happens when someone goes that down.I wrote it for people who have been there or are there now.oh fuck dont i wrote it as a cry for help BECAUSE I CANT AFFORD TO think that way,oh shit paul dont get me talkin REAL here.HERE we ONLY SPEAK PROXY

"i won't I can't i dont know why.it took some work putting it up there.
besides he sorta wants it up there."

"you think?"

"i think .yes I do.I am not as dumb as you think."

"you are dumber.that is your only saving grace"

"OK than save me"

"we are kind of in the middle with that,this saving bizness,it can really go either way"

"oh and what is the opposite of being saved"

"it is not what you think."

On the way to Bimbombey
There's a hill on the way to Bimbombey
There's a house on the hill and a girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey
A house on the hill and a girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey


There's a store in Bimbombey
There's a ring in the store in Bimbombey
That's where I'll buy the ring for the girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey
I'll buy the ring for the girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey


Once I get to Bimbombey
You can bet I will stay in Bimbombey
That's where I'll settle down with the girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey
I'll settle down with the girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey

mimic

"harsh
living
is what
makes a man
what.....a man is supposed to be..Evan has Imparted...

                             ...   people should be taught by their "Bettors "and open up their hearts and minds completely with or without Open Mind and Impart technologies

without the "Old Way" residue that
makes one want to  scream to a "higher god"a supposed "true god" above the "grid" above one's "mentors"
       like any "Lessor" might,"Evan Imparts,
"and  I suppose must..but tell me WHAT has this REAL GOD done for you lately.has he saved you from "us"?We who take real time and effort to change you..while you cower and cry
"oh god help oh god help..:
Think about it Dumbo how it might feel to be a mentor hearing this..over and over ..as if we were The Bad Guys as if you were being hurt by The New Way ...
What a betryal and what an indictment of The Process..this childish ,cowering begging to an entity thaT NEITHER yOU NOR wE KNOW EXISTS..
OR cARES?"

They hear my prayers .
They hear my wishes for intervention from another Force
that is neither "man made" or so severe in it's Lessons
of How "to be" if one is to continue "being" at all
The New Way is all Knowing
and as artificial in it's intelligence as it might be
as we go on and as THEY collect more "styles of thinking"
"Voice of God" technology becomes as organic
as
The Real Thing

Voice of God Perception Augmentation and Over-ride Technology - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

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In Judaism and Christianity, the voice of God (Hebrew בּת קול, bat kol or bath ḳōl, literally ....referring to technology used by the specific and non specific "groups" to insert voices and sounds into one's head synthetically...

 

On the way to Bimbombey
There's a hill on the way to Bimbombey
There's a house on the hill and a girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey
A house on the hill and a girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey


There's a store in Bimbombey
There's a ring in the store in Bimbombey
That's where I'll buy the ring for the girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey
I'll buy the ring for the girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey


Once I get to Bimbombey
You can bet I will stay in Bimbombey
That's where I'll settle down with the girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey
I'll settle down with the girl in the house
On the hill on the way to Bimbombey

Evan Rainy told me that if i want
i might go to the next level of consciousness
i must know The Truth
and most of all

must stop callin gthe things in my body  apps or nano particles

and if i keep telling every one around town about what happened in califronia with the strange people who "took me under their wing"
I will be in big trouble with forces
beyond my comprehension

these things they put in me nobody wants to here about
anyway
and i had better shut up


that
where  i came  up with this notion of Nano particles is beyond him

I graphed that some guy told  me in LA,and lots of people told me..
i graphed i had to look it up online..

and than i came across all this stuff ..about direct neural inter face and all the universities testing it on non person type..and people in prisons

it's misinformation evan said

 and if you keep talking about nano
or nano particles
or human experiments

well
i can get locked up
or worse..

what's inside of you is Raindrops
and to have raindrops inside you
is a gift

Evan  Graphs says Gary Rainy was known to have special way of thinking that allowed him to
cross into otherrealities
 at a  drop of a hat ,while sittin in an easy chair
 Gary Rainy  could travel through time and space

on one of his many journeys
out side his physical shell
he found himself transplanted to a civilization somewhat like our own
 trillions of light years away on a different astral plane
a leader of this planet gave Gary Rainy  a telepathic graph the leader of this advanced planet
the secret of How To Be

he also gave Gary rainy
a small wooden box containing  what the ruler called"Raindrops"

the ruler said these little teeny tiny inserts
could enter another's blood stream
and could save the world and that gary rainy could share the supreme knowledge of how to be and act
with the tiny inserts
The Raindrops ,
that allow you to see and hear things nobody else can
and  also engage telepathically with entities from another world

 you are not some human experiment Dumbo
but  in genuine communion with forces beyond man's comprehension
and these entities you are messing with are getting very angry that you are sharing sacred knowledge of other worlds dumbo

 

whatever happened to Gary Rainy's babies

"you think it's odd that people have and had  kids for reasons dummy!

that's why people had kids
 "In The Beginning"

so the kids could tend the farm.EVAN BOOMS through my temporal lobe

"not this lovey dovey   horseshit about "
our baby will change the world ,
be another wonder in this great "brotherhood of man "
this kid ,who turns 18 and  main goal is getting at least  500 miles away from the family unit

,

Neuronautics and Dome Industries didn't have kids based on  these false sentiments

but science

and you ain't the only flame in town

there are hundreds of New Way babies

who  else were we gonna try this stuff out on?*
so ,cool it with the fact you just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time
everything

happened

for

a reason
.in a way the chidren of Gary Rainy were made for the apps not the other way around

* Beyond directed sound, it’s long been known that microwaves at certain frequencies can produce an auditory effect that sounds like it’s coming from within someone’s head

 to know in advance our CAUSALITES and STIMULI
of course everything was recorded when we were  growing up

"why you think you' are so hyper sensative,high strung
it's a side effect of" the sense of being watched.recorded,captured"
besides
we were raised on scripts
,it was done only for this to be done decades later

not this story again not this story again not this story again not this story again any story but this I graph

Who says it's a story .

how were they supposed to know you'd go all Hardy Boys  with the " How and whatsit  of it all"

they assumed they could just toss you into a mental hospital

the times were different when they thought all this up

but I ask you Dumbo,is  this piecing together

 working for you
or quite the opposite
the point was Tommy Walker
not Tommy TALKER scumbag!

a better man
would be understanding the whys and wherefores concerning the  severity of some what you call "runthroughs"

you know the shit someone has no business,as in BIG BUSINESS writing about at all (he graphs a visual of Rock Hudson in the movie "Seconds",they use film like it's some kind of...)

the only reason we LET you write this is because

Dumbo Dumbass can't seem to really DO anything else
like get a real job

NO Dumbo   prefers being  indignant

like you're some fucking Judah Macabee Green Piece of shit suddenly

who WE KNOW

freaks out when we stop or threaten to take it away

"it's the threats of killing me
that are getting in the way" I graph,sorta turned on by Evan's intensity"  ..the threats kinda take away the entrancement of it all Brotha"

they aren't threats

dumbo
cuz ya see
it will work either way

ya see...king of betrayl

king of Ruiners
if you just disappear or say get run over
or better yet we 
 blow your head off
or

something more DREAMY perhaps~~~~~~

 ----words appear on the wall across from me Miami Face Eating Attack Lasted 18 Agonizing Minutes
they begin graphing a   picutre of the victim  but thankfully  stop

why couldn't you just have thought of us as angels Dumbo!

                                    why you have to be so god damn inquisitive you make me do this

it works either way

dead or alive

like they say IN DA" MOOOOOOOOVIES

and as you represent How Not to Be so well

don't tempt us

 it's this close now as in "look future urban astronauts

Look  what happens to Ruiners.
who share about crazy things."

so you had better start lightening UP and

have fun with it

they like me
destitute
they like me having
little else to do but stare
at a ceiling all day

the ceiling Evan graphed
is all you  need
it's a clean palate
clean canvas
to dream

but I always fuck it up
i picture
nasty
scary things that frighten Evan,not always
but sometimes I resent the intrusion
and get embarrassed when Evan is nice sending me nicer and nicer images

i recoil and picture some childhood humiliation
and hate Evan for knowing,seeing it enacted

so do I Evan graphs

than take off your fuckin headset scumbag,who gave you the right to do this

do you want to quit or do you want to learn

both

no .
i want to quit..

ok than we'll
flay you
alive
like physically torture you

i mean he graphs
wouldn't it be nice
to get
that kinda
neural read
your very nerve endings screaming

I tell them
I will just go
meow meow meow meow like the Purina cat chow commercial
all through my
flaying

you think so Dumbo

I know so ASSHOLE !

he settles down
and graphs me a rainbow and some clouds
but all I can think of is this flaying business

and big bizzness it is Dumbo

now let's start again,he graphs,I feel his smile

 

i send him a rainbow but it has little pieces of lint and spiders in it

 

 

not bad  Dumbo.not that good but not  that bad

truck.stop.

since so much of Brain Computer Interface concerns studying the effects of pulsation and mega hertz on a Proxy's moods and cognitions much of what a Proxy perceives as hearing is only to keep synapses sufficiently engaged for a mapping  and to induce heightened reads during "Chatterbox" processing
a Mentor will often work in tandem with the rhythmic algorithms by engaging A Proxy in simultaneous discourse
in a pre registered "tone"which encourages a Proxy's self to a corresponding "zone of Being", based on previous recorded brainwave response

Since most of this "machinery"s design and intent is to induce  heightened activity in the amygdala  through fear and emotional breakdown and subsequent nurturing  a large portion of the psychotronic "play dates:" are and should be based on a Proxy's  sexual predisposition.

As with all engagements  with A Proxy ,a Mentor's  primary focus  inevitably and rightly goes back to self protection ,as a Proxy's graphs can be cruel and hurtful,"why are you doing this to me?" can only be heard so many times.And often to get back at the Mentor for having so much control of a Proxy will purposely  "toy" or "creep out" the Mandler with activities  the proxy knows  repulse the Mandler...things like pornography and masterbation ,as a Proxy regresses further and further into an almost infantile state ,this activity,if not curtailed can  become a de-stressor,and a weapon,as the Proxy is only too aware that  neural mapping and neural monitoring  must proceed despite the crimes against self being committed.


The Mandler,who must  foremost protect his or her own mind will inevitably devise drastic measures   to get the Proxy to stop such  foul behavior ,for instance over riding the Proxy's visual cortex with directed  images of children's toys 

 ...as the Proxy is aware that his or her readings will indeed be read by magistrate and  may be mistaken as "jacking off" to these "placed"visual overlays ,which might be perceived as  sexual perversion..

But beware Mandler. for while this coercion may seem necessary to curb a Proxy's  self destructive behavior the Mandler must be aware that these associations may cause the Proxy to present as criminal ,as these associations may linger causing the  Proxy to  have heightened brain alteration and feedback if ,for instance the Proxy sees a toy truck or  a child on TV or any sort of childhood recollection 

The proxy  may also assume that these introductions and associations of sexual perversity were perhaps not "to make for a more pleasant work environment for one's Mandler but to deliberately implicate a Proxy as criminal in his  " neural readings.

and do not forget that The Mandler who might initiate a miscorrolation for disciplinary action is not immune to the power of suggestion he has induced into a Proxy's mind set as the "graphed" referential has also been imbued into the Mandler's mind .

Scientists Successfully ‘Hack’ Brain To Obtain Private Data

BERKELEY, Calif. (CBS Seattle) – It sounds like something out of the movie “Johnny Mnemonic,” but scientists have successfully been able to “hack” a brain with a device that’s easily available on the open market.

Researchers from the University of California and University of Oxford in Geneva figured out a way to pluck sensitive information from a person’s head, such as PIN numbers and bank information.

The scientists took an off-the-shelf Emotiv brain-computer interface, a device that costs around $299, which allows users to interact with their computers by thought.

The scientists then sat their subjects in front of a computer screen and showed them images of banks, people, and PIN numbers. They then tracked the readings coming off of the brain, specifically the P300 signal.

 

Read more: http://seattle.cbslocal.com/2012/08/25/scientists-successfully-hack-brain-to-obtain-private-data/

Ps and Qs

don't think of yourself as a human experiment
think of yourself as a social experiment
evan graphs

i try not tp think at all.
these days

for my thoughts are fodder to Dome

Vanessa from General Foods is in Palo Alto this week
and thinking of investing 4 million or so into market research

 you all but lost us Coca Cola Dumbo
what you did with that poor executive was a disgrace
that thought about what you wanted to do to that jogger with your tongue
not everyone is a homo Dumbo
please,please don't go out on tuesday
and practice your white wall visualizations
FOCUS
no thoughts of thirst,hunger,that your cold ,
nothing extraneous..
as that kind of thinking not only makes you look ridiculous
but also ego centric
nobody cares if your cold or thirsty
so take care of your Self Referentials before 2 pm

Fuck you i graph Evan
folding laundry

I don't care that you're folding laundry dumbo!
go into your white room

The white Room is supposedly a place in my mind free of words

I try folding a t shirt without thing about the T shirt
than I find I am thinking about trying not to think about folding a T shirt

knock it off !
Go into your white room go into your white room,Evan
 graphs

 you had better mind your pre neural firings and cognitive intent
understand?
no smart mouth!

Smart mouth? smart mouth?
have we ever spoken face to face you son of bitch!
.
Evan
i am convinced
 has never listened to a single thing I have ever deliberately graphed to him
about how it is on this end
of
the graphs ,the microwave transmission via brain computer interface via headset and in my case nano particle inbeds

this manic
(who has never paid me a fuckin dime
by the way)
 really thinks" I am mouthing off "to him all day long

him to me
is a disembodied voice
i am linked to via brain computer interface
a nuisance
an amusement
a horrorshow
a game
a giant 8 foot rabbit
only I can see and hear..

On tuesday Vanessa will be interfacing with you from 2pm to 4pm about logos and colors for packaging of a new line of  low sodium soups
it will be an opportunity for you to pay us back for the experience.

The Experience?

the mentoring
the sight and sound
the therapy.
fair is fair.. another voice graphs

it's difficult to switch gears from psychonic neuro "gaming" to marketing
and having some kind of slow ,gentle wholesome neurals





do you ever just listen stop talking stop talking Dumbo
i am trying to speak to you as an adult




.I try not to think about the color of the t shirt i am foldingbut you are Thinking of it DUMBO
and I don't care about things like that! the subject we were discussing is you'd better min dyour Ps and Qs Tuesday!I can't help but mind drift and wonder who coined the term Ps and Qs,and what it means




and I feel a tingling than a stinging pain in my left arm,
saying he must clean me up and my "mind games"
by tuesday
MY MIND GAMES,are you fuckin kidding!I can't help but think.
than I become worried.for the intensity of my hate of this situation goes right into Evan's nervous sytstem..I apologize.
and go in My White Room and calm myself..i sens ethat Evan understands but really wants me to try on Tuesday and he's sorry about the directed energy pain but I am acting all beligerant ,moreso than usual



and
that Vanessa is really a very sweet gal ,very excited to be part of neural brain pattern analysis
and don't you go graphing her about being a human monkey!
or stockholm syndrome or cults
or anyof your ruiner shit
Or what Evan ?
or this he graphs ,and I hear the sound of a ping pong ball going once in my left ear
and than in my right
once in my left ear
once in my right
once in my left ear once in my right
we can play this the rest of your life.
That's what!

and if you fuck it up we'll play ping pong sounds voice to skull for days..
you don't respond to the "stories"anymore  but trust me Dumbo you will respond to the sound

glue factory glue factory glue factory

Evan has somehow gotten ahold of some shit I wrote on facebook and says
it is proof positive that I have no idea how to ACT like a normal human being in polite society


cuz i wrote online once that when i was painting out side in the park
when I used to do such things
when I was
alone with my thoughts
before Harvey

before this Donnie Darko Jonny Mnemetic Frea Show
before I was apped
before I was tagged

i had written
that i was laying on a knoll  drawing on this knoll  i consdiered MY KNOLL in the park for people watching
and people drawing
I wrote that trying to draw people was like
sniping  or something

trying to capture the people on paper
without being seen
staring
and that one must use their eyes like telescope
to correctly adjust horizon lines and ...and art fag shit like that

OOOO no


metaphor is beyond these rocket scientist's understanding
metaphor to these types is strange
faggoty
or Jew-ie
jewie means intellectual
EWWWW

"and some of this art
Dumbo
is just plain wrong!"Evan laughs
you really used to sell this shit"

Used to Evan .cuz I don't draw anymore do I not since you "saved me from myself and my sick thoughts"
"it looks like a madman with feet for arms drew them." Evan wails,

"it's bad enuf that you think this way
worse that you feel you must share your sickness with others

why did i ever start posting my thoughts and my art
OH I don't know
maybe CUZ it seems they're training the entire planet to reveal every god damn
(i mean gosh darn !! Mentors!)thing about one self

"never write grassy knoll when hill will suffice ...not only is it questionable but
extraneous,"I man's voice says,a pleasant voice I had heard before  in a TV ad
The Voice sounds like .Dennis Haysbert...I wonder why i know the actor's name


"You know the actor's name because that's the type of thing that people who do not care about human beings or the world care about dumbo"


I am sent ,a visual overlay of what looks like an air traffic control room
it looks very modern
but between the over lays
i see a jump cuts of title cards like silent movies use
GLUE FACTORY! it reads in neon blue over a bright pink back round
it goes very fast
the words
and there's a strobe effect

than I get a
fish eye look at the control room ..
like a movie
than GLUE FACTORY GLUE FACTORY
and than the giant control room
people wearing not just head sets but helmets
 their hands and whole bodies wired to things
i

"FOR FULL IMMERSION DUMBO!"

,i had once went to see an air traffic control room   on a field trip
 in the 5th grade
my mandlers of course know this
by now they know everything

a voice
repeates my previous thoughts in a mocking way,..i had once went to see an air traffic control room,it says in a mincing ,mocking  waylike nah nah nah nah nah..
..

there are no windows in the rooms but giant tv screens with all sorts of video of point of view shots that are pixelated.
pixels are filling in
point of view shots from Proxy
i can tell the point of view is from Proxy's eyes

because the pixels are also filling in time delay and blackness
from blinking


no their are not camera in the eyes
of urban astronauts
it's called something else.
.some fancy science terms
and not simple fancy -like cones and rods

but xy /fg -xy equals  yap yap yap fiancy


"did ya hear Barbra,now Dumbo thinks
we're in the transhumanism bizz.. A VOICE says

" the enemy is scum like  you Dumbo.."



I retain a visual overlay of Evan  in front of several monitors
wearing a body suit with wires coming out of it
like a real astronaut
his face  and head are covered  ,more wires ,more gadgets
..
he removes the "helmet" and shakes himself out of the suit
i see him through a visual overlay
and feel him in mt system
he feels proud and smiley
 he  always presents as
 the best looking man in any setting he send me
 ,often he is out of scale,his ego often making himself so large in relation to other's he -

SHUT UP DUMBO!!!!
He ROARS

this is called fucking up the good part.!
don't go all francis ford coppala on me..directing me around !
I know what i am doing a little better than you might think

just the same i notice in the next visual overlay
that Evan's sense of his EVAN ness is in scale to the scene around him



"Oh fuck it Dumbo...we'll try this again some other time.."

"
tempers get riled in direct interface as they do in real life
i graph him a unicorn
sometimes this is so gay

AND DUMBO RUINS IT AGAIN
i hear or seem to hear
and feel bad..
cuz it's true i suck at this..

and one learns not to move one's mouth to their
sound or one looks like a dummy
a puppet
it took a year and a half to learn that shit
also not to look to wacko not looking
at the visuals
only one can see
cuz people see you sometimes LOOKING
and look in that direction
like whats that funny lookin guy lookin at

hmmm don't ya wish ya knew..

now Dumbo is being a show off!
bragging about his human enslavement cuz he was deemed disposable enuf to be
found unworthy enuf
to be made a husk for AI and psychotronic testing

yeah you FUCK i graph
I'm bragging
if you didnt notice I am crying for help with these

jottings of a LOOOOONY ,he states..again as dennis haysberry
and i lose track
and try to recall the name of the car insurance
company he did the ad for
and cannot

finally Dumbo some News we can use!

ya know dumbo.He graphs in his own voice
THEY  think you believe this nano looks shit..
                    it's why half of them think you're bona fide .
                  bedridden loco loco....you'r e good at this actin crazy shit
but you don't have me fooled..
and this gary rainy half of them think is YOU.what YOU want the world to be
YOUR Proclamations
of HOW TO BE
not ours
boy did someone write themselves into a corner ...
reread it sometime
and realize...how this TIME STAMP of yours really comes off.
you trying to present yourself as the victim?
what a joke!
the looks thing.
ain't none of your business but between us
                                                                                 it's high density directed energy to make you look like THE MONSTER you are


you really believe there's nano particles in your face..dimwit?
I WISH
WE ALL WISH!
you really give us too much credit...but we like it.we'll use it
on the next one

you in fact gave us that idea.it's your claim to fame
a monster like you deciding to monster up another's face with nano inserts
congradulations
you mr greenpeace
against psychotronics and the New Way is helping make develop it
is this a rundown?I graph
some kind of
runthrough to create gaming techniques


you are a run through DUMBO
I wish you ran through your mother's -

MORNING DUMBO a new voice said



that's why the option (,if you such a good man) still stands
kill yourself as soooon as possible
,,well gotta go to church dumbo,go play with yourself or whatever social deviants do on a sunday morning
we're giving you some time off
not from the monitoring understand
filth like you needs to be watched
you're a slippery guy
with a criminal mind
YOU know it

and WE know it....

the fact that "the looks thing"

was reversible was not disclosed to new clients

The clients of course were aware that the nano particles could alter one's appearance drastically

but  were not informed that "at a flip of a switch" the cluster of nano could rearrange itself to one's mentor's desires
 not yours 
The cosmetic nano enhancement feature that came with The Package of The Singularity by Dome Cybernetics could be "reformatted" into something hideous if one did not "get with the program"

  Much in the same way that one's intraneural mentor  could turn synthesized 'telepathy" into "synthetic insanity" if one's neural readings were presumed "mutinous",confrontational or simply "too weird"

"Don't fight it
          After all
   you have signed on
          and paid
    to be sculpted  by  bettors
 to Become

and trans-scend your  current state*
 to Be One
with the teachings of Gary Rainy
who you knew despised this contrived sense of "Me"

 back to the path of We*
-------are in this
together Dumbo

are we
Evan?...you said I was yours .and to trust you and the new way ,that i should consider myself adopted .i did.
and needing reparenting...I did
and mind expansive plasticity..I did
and that the inserts were temporary
and just training wheels.
Are they?

 You know I'm still trying ..I haven't given up on you yet
but have you given up on Me?
cuz I feel you have
because of the writing..but you cause me to write more...
and more harshly
and say I 'm the one whose made my bed
and make it worse by continuing my diatribe against you
who els eam I gonna turn to?
while we try to work it out 
so this is
a
time stamp ,not a  betrayl 
and no I am not bailing or "being cute" or making a mockery of  what might SEEM to others like  severe punishments
they are not New Way,they don't understand Intraneural Interface or how it can be used to re-align and prioritize
both one's self referencials or what one puts forth into the world
I do
you know it
I can care less if anyone knows what's it been like.
but man
this is a story...that got carried away perhaps
everyone likes a bad guy
you do Evan
isn't that what you see me as.all the time now?
as you know i misunderstand the
threats of physical harmyou say are mainly to test my fight or flight response and reawaken  my primal
instinct
and that "the reigns" that alter-
are a gift.
as man's most ingrained primal fear is disfigurement
and dismemberment

and that Gary Rainy
included "psychotronically induced pain points" in his set of rundowns
to further induce the amygdala to regress to primitive states of altered consciousness.
and that the psychotronic pain
is also a gift
from Gary Rainy's bag of tricks
to reach out
like a father ,with a caring kick in the behind , done only with love
a "butterfly kiss"
really?
Do not get me wrong when I write about the New Way
I get it.I respect it,YOU know it's true
fuck what other's think
or think of my "story"
you said previously It was important to you that I do anything I want
including writing about "it"
 so long as every now and than I tossed in some
measure of fairness.
and respect
and lately you feel I am making a joke of IT
but
it is you making a joke of me
back in LA,
why can't I go back?
what have you told them?
I thought our sessions were private?
I am not writing about my real mentorship
why are you telling THEM i am a Ruiner?
I am not mocking your mentorship or Tru Christie so much as trying to work out my own ...
responsibility  in this
with all respect
and endurance and love,
                                            J


Transhumanism is a movement that fundamentally transforms the human condition by developing and making widely available technologies to greatly enhance human intellectual, physical, and psychological capacities.British philosopher Max More  articulated the principles of transhumanism  in 1990, and organized  in California an intelligentsia  and following that has since grown into the worldwide  movement.

Francis Fukuyama has called transhumanismas the world's most dangerous idea.,^[5] to which Ronald Bailey  countered that it is rather the "movement that epitomizes the most daring, courageous, imaginative, and idealistic aspirations of humanity".^[6]

disappeared dead.the worst kind of dead

         "  the stylized family  the
arranged marriage
                  of certain types
                         is  not a new thing .Peter..
Peter?
                          only that this  stylization happened to include fore knowledge of Things to Come
concerning nano particles and such....
Mentorship via Neural Interface and all that fine stuff you've been carrying on your back Peter ..
my name isn't Peter

 to make someone OPEN MINDED toward the Take over
 required a certain malleability of mindset
                                                          based on a scattering of self integration
                   that certain childhood traumas have been known to evoke.Exponentially
there's theorems ,algorythyms  x equals this,y equals y all over the place
your grandfather was a scientist was he not?"
can i have another lollipop?I ask

The Loon  hands me a pollipop and jumps on top of the garbage bin and startes twirling and dancing  like a marionette

But  Peter,you provincial square
you let down
you shmuch
you ingrate
you faggit
                  they didn't count on the inhaled stimulants or you to being  so difficult and so so pre-emptive !

who gave you the idea to smoke crack
HUH HUH
.You completely fucked it up ,there's really no way of making you shattered glass again.!
Decades of imprinting  were just wiped away in a single puff ,you're supposed to be Tommy Walker in this not some Paul Revere secretary...
so now
you're simply a liability ,a ruiner,
you may as well be one of THEM

well they're still trying to save me i tell him,cure me,I say ,afraid

Dude,spare me the born yesterday shit,who you think wrote half these god damn stories in your wooden Woodhouse head
we're  trying to drive you mad
they hate  you
for being such a Ruiner


ahhhh i'm sorry pinochio,the Loon says sticking his hand down my pants
"Yeah yeah yeah he say
thats all Dumbo understands
yeah yeah yeah...all those drugs they gave to you over the years ,those pills ,the built up diagnoses,RUINED cuz Pinochio  short pants wants to be a wigger.smoking crack,with the boys in long pants in the alley,he says punching me in the stomach
YOU IDIOT!
ahhh
I'm sorry Pinochio
he says pulling me up
the Loony  tells me to sit on a milk crate and   takes an intravenous needle out of his backpack,a spoon  and a small blue cap full of powder   it's not heroin, it's Holmium,
the 67th element in the periodic table,it's magnetic and disengages the receptiveness of  nano particles making them Virtuuualy non responsive,Like you are.
too much Holmium will kill you Pinnochio
 and not enough won't do a  damn thing
         it's a delicate balance
but how'd you like those  Mandlers 
to get a dial tone or a busy signal  instead of your neurals. graphs and readings
they told me the only way that would happen is if I were dead.
and I just won't be dead.
but disappeared dead
the worst kind of dead
and it won't be fast
it will be as slow
and wasteful
as I am
was
"you were supposed to be Tommy Walker,not Tommy Talker.and now your Tommy NOBODY!Hope you enjoyed yourself smoking crack with the Big Boys and typing online..hope it was worth it,caus eyou got no idea what's coming next Dumbo ,now roll up your fuckin arm"he say ,as a black van pulls behind the dumpster

Autistic Syntax as an Inverse Use of the Psychic ... - Frances Tustin

by D Amir - Related articles

Abstract. This paper deals with autistic syntax and its expressions both in the fully fledged autistic structure and in the autistic zones of another personality ...

Autism and telepathy

no soda for Dumbo Darko

..ive learned to control my neurals enuf that half the time I can visualize myself doing other things than what i am doing


i can recall long boring walks
or products on the shelf at mini marts..
and reduce neural spikes and pre neural firings lately for up to four minutes at a time
so in a way they don't know where i am or what i am thinking or doing

 i even forget if i posted something or kept it as a draft for authorities other than them to discover after I disappear in one of their vans
there is not authority other than us DUMBO
i refuse to believe this is true..


you can write about as vampires BUT don't write about imprints or Tommy Walker or stylized family units
stylized childhood
is what makes kings

well I aint no king am I
some of you didnt work out.OBVIOUSLY  DUMBO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but you are trying to ruin it for the others
envy
vindictiveness
jealousy

I try to imagine  hundreds or thousand other kids being brought up in like exactly the same circumstances
with people playing mothe rand father.
the same incidentals

red slay yellow sundress
orange

  you can have some juice now.but no soda Tru Christie graphs
..i am of no use...to them.
juice juice juice I love juice.except maybe to get some neural read of my being physically hurt to use on enemies...so who gives a fuck.
juice juice juice
i love juice i sing to fuck with fuckin Tru Christie
juic ejuice juice WE love juice
and  in return Tru sends
visual overlays of ancient
torture devices
he said will be used on me
as neural overlays of physical pain
are GOLD! to Dome

i graph to them if they trying torturing me to get a neural  read
they can sell to THEM
to use on bad guys
YOU ARE THE BAD GUYS
he booms
that I have trained my mind to go meow meow meow meow like the Purina cat chow commercial so whatever brain storm shit they gather wont hurt anyone..
I am excited to see if you can really do this when the time comes.
you have not trained your mind Dumbo
you have no mind
think about it.
you were born to be a husk
the problem is you have some notion from tv or something that you
SHUT UP i graph,slamming a plate across the room
no eating for the rest of the day !Tru Christie graphs.and for the rest of the week you will eat off the floor since WE DO NOT THROW PLATES,THAT"S NOT WHAT A PLATE IS FOR!
I grab a tiny piece of bread
and know true
can sense the chewing
and a zap goes through my arm*sending me to my knees and than prone on the floor ,on my back like an insect,who's been specimened and labeled and stabbed with a pin
FINISH ME OFF


oooh come on joy boy
a voice says
I just wanted you on the floor
a visual over lay of one of my favorite actors
makes me see
Adam Parker,in mid air

the takes takes his shirt off .
and I feel my arms ,being held down

".They can lock you up for crying fire in a movie theater  ya know ,"the overlay of Adam Parker graphs
 but I'm not in a movie theater,I graph back
oh yes ,yes you are Dumbo!he graphs
and I feel his mouth on mine
he smiles ,This Really feel like psychotronic torture to you Dumbo?
a little,I graph ,
can you tell them to amp up the pain a bit?

*

 Psychotronic  Electronic, Electromagnetic, Directed Energy, Neurological, Non-lethal Technologies,..... human subjects in experiments without their informed consent.  randomized with nanomaterials that  alter consciousness and behavior and encode EGG patterns of thought
targeted individuals may experience:
a). Microwave hearing, torture with loud noise.
b). Visual hallucinations, artificial dreams.
c). Reading thoughts, retrieving memories.
d). Manipulation of thoughts, will, emotions, desires and perceptions.
e). Manipulation of human behavior: forced speech, involuntary body movements, transmission of specific commands into the subconscious, compulsory execution of these commands
f). Debilitation of mental acuity, loss of memory.
g). Sleep deprivation or uncontrollable sleep
h). Cramps, spasms, excruciating artificial pain in any part of the body, manipulation of body systems, including heart attacks and other serious medical conditions.
2. Some victims are subject to harassment and organized stalking in their communities, some victims receive false psychiatric diagnosis and in addition become victims of the systems, from which they are seeking help (medical institutions and law enforcement).
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Come here , the man in the trenchcoat said ,holding up a lollipop

i was thirsty and the lolliopo looked extra extra good like a chip of ice they give you in the hospital when they run you over with a car or beat you up for "talkin about it'
or what they call squeaking about the inserts or imprints that help the inserts "make you a better person"
the lollipo looked like it might help my dry mouth
I was not  allowed to drink liquid as Tru Christie made it clear I had embarrassed him and his pet project
in front of all his friends
in the cabin in the woods

the man seemd nice and i needed someone to touch me
direct neural interface is never lonely
but it's good to be touched
I don't really talk to people
all i respond to they say is physical touch
and they sometime send ground bound Mandlers to touch me
if I am getting to be Too Much
sometimes the groud bound mandlers who do this give me money
they say I am autistic
or schizo affect
or they just say
i was raised a certain way
to be able  to DO IT

if i was raised any other way
they couldnt do associations

to be Mandled by Mentors

the lollipop looked good and my mouth watered
YOU HAD BETTER NOT BE DRINKING LIQUID !
TRU CHRISTIE GRAPHS 
and i hope the man in the trenchcoat didnt see me react
 I wondered what was under his raincoat...and so hungry these days for any sort of real connection that is not mind to mind but person to person ,face to face,I went with the man behind the Winkies toward the alley in back where the garbage cans were
he seemd to know I associated bad things with garbage cans behind winkies.
The man
made a universal circular motion with his finger pointing to his head which meant I am not one of them  I just be crazy but it's really the same isn't it? it's Ok
..I wondered if the man knew  I was under some reprimand to not drink liquids for my bad thoughts about overpriced juice with chia seeds in it that afternoon.
who are you talking to
are you making up more fucking stories
Tru Christir graphs
ARE YOU DRINKING LIQUID!

"synthesized telepathy
causes psychic stress
and stimulation of the amygdala ,the lizard brain,"the strange fella said,
"as the subject of these tests brain is  being  essentially rewired and reintroduced to primal fear for any number of reason.
the subject
unaware of the source of the psychic trauma 
instinctively wishes punative damages against the source of this trauma
DMT a naturally occurring substance in plants and all living things
quite possibly can be triggered in the Enway of the Source
by simply suggesting  some empathic intervention concerning  unwanted interface
as DMT is known to repond to those that either seek or need a lesson in empathy
DMT is known to cause mutual shared hallucinations and the feeling of a force reading one's mind..
the.Loon.Outside.the .Donutshop.Said giving me the lollipop