ethan had learned to walk on egg shells  literally growing up.his mother had made him.she wanted the young boy to learn to walk with the lightest step possible.to make less noise.to make himself less of the burdening presence he was.his mother had crytis.a disease that made her cry out at noise and sound,sometimes even before she heard it.she made ethan wear toilet paper on his feet and shoes ,anything to quiet the boy.
i learned about crytis from ethan when i was a boy.
when i was about 5 or so.
he would visit me at night.
he first appeared on the ceiling.
like a bug ,sorta.
at first,for several months he just hung there .like a chandelier.
there seemed to be a group of kids like this.frequent fliers.before i even knew the term.
but maybe thats wrong.
none of  this group of appearing boys really flew.
there was simply to heavy a feel to them.
i  guess the most they could muster was this appearing bizness.more escaping than flying.sometimes 3 or more would gather.sometimes more.
none of us could sleep.
all of our parents had crytis in one form or another.which made rest difficult.for we knew what day or days were coming tommorow.
there was no talk.no heloo and such.and not even much comfort.
so what if we all "went ceiling" about every now and than.it didnt help the situations at hand much.we always returned to our own selves.
it was a sad lot.that was probably why there was not too much communication.
we were young.
our empathy was for our own lot.
our own selves.
sometimes we would crawl close together and untagle spider webs in the corners of my room.no talking.
because it was finally only ethan who came.
and ethan had learned not to speak much which was fine by me.
so we crawled about on the white ceiling.i guess while we werent really friends we were shock absorbers for each others day to days
sometimes mine were worse than his sometimes mine.
unlike how things like this are maybe now...it wasnt a contest.of "well you think that's bad..'it was
survival.

we were both in early stages.
of paranoid schizophrenia.we were 6 years old.
or DISASSIMULATION..as gary rainy had deemed it.and dreamed it.the sons of rainy must be sharp.and must be splintered.LIKE PRIMITIVES without Ego or  Directive.!to be reassembled .TO TRAVEL en mass like true spirits.
but here we were.
in our 40s
just broken
NOT BROKEN .
out mothers and fathers had been part of The Rainy  Clan.
we were pioneers.
and he told us why we were brought up as we were.
it was deliberate
it was why we saw things and knew things.
it was why i knew ethan before knowing him

we drank more of the communal stew.hotpockets ,blue corn,ginger.DMT SENSO.we were under a parachute.a fire in the middle .smoke billowing around us some of us coughing.but no body wanted to run,to breath fresh air...while the Rainy Clan Band's techno droned on about Babyfarm babies like us...the song repeating and repeating till it seemed perfectly easy to understand  our childhoods .. because he explained to us a new style ,a new way to remember them...because it was true.because it was so UnTrUE(doesitmatter,it isthe same.we in this dalographic universe are beyond matter  it is the only way the New Way to remembr and not ever remember that yes yes yes it was TRUE...he told us yes yes there were cameras HE HIMSELF ordered our parents to place ...  cameras on the ceiling and microphones.and speakers and lenses and projectors so we could GO CEILING!)....the truth he said is the lie.the lie is the truth he shouted with the synth beat..(gary explained that it was part of a larger picture.for a "larger picturious new world ."sacrifices were made...before you were born to prepare the next generation.for Paradisical Paranormaous Pandora...the risks the risks my Mothers My wives."he shouted but we were all too lost and drugged to keep up"your mothers have taken to break break break you into dots and lines and ones and zeros .so that you may float .and soon fly.!!!
a pretty gitl who looked like someone i knew from highschool suddenly snapped her fingers in front of my eyes,she had to shout above the music,"did he get to the part about how tiny trnasistors were placed in our heads as infants?"
"What"I said cupping my ear.
"I love that part,don't you?"
"sure ,"I said
I didnt like her mocking tone,i would have to get her name.
"that part is the best,bestest and bestolicious,"she screamed,laughing.
I was trying to manuveur my cell phone to take a picture of her but she had gone.Just as Evan took over the dj 's miscrophone and board
"the truth he said is the lie.the lie is the truth he shouted .slowing the beats per minute,speeding them up,creating a disjoint in the crowd.  "sacrifices were made...before you were born to prepare the next generation.for Paradisical Paranormaous Pandora...the risks the risks my  father.YOUR Mothers took. to break break break you into dots and lines and ones and zeros .so that you may float .and soon fly.!!! "he shouted but we were all too lost and drugged to keep up.He began to chant"break break break . dots and lines . ones and zeros .float .and fly.!!!
Mrs rainy joined evan onstage, .Suddenly the lights changed.she spoke in a mocking voice,"some of you want answers.WHY WHY WHY HOW HOW HOW.
"evan began chanting ,in a baby voice ,"whywhywhyhowhowhowwhywhywhyhowhowhow,"but before we could join along he banged the microphone for reverb and Mrs rainy  began,"is that not why you really cAME.YOU INGRATES,she screamed and smiled,flicking her tongue and than she began to dry.
evan began to chant in a gentle tone, wrapping his arm around her,"no no no.,no no no. The crowd in an automatic outpouring of  group thought ,began crying and shout  'No No no"
"quantum physics,cerebral reach and experiments in human augmentation,societal shifts and even rock and roll
the pyramid of control whose highest peak was above men.
millions of years ago .more than millions he told the group
"the history you have been told is false,"he shouted,the fire lighting his face from below.
"i will tell you the true way."
yes yes yes i began to chant when i saw the girl who looked like someone i knew from highschool pass out"
evan rainy had put on his "vestment" he resmebled a Pharoah as he sped talk everything under the sun to mesmerize and confuse what he secretly called the Sqeaky Fromm element,for they always had the most credit cards
"quantum physics,cerebral reach and experiments in human augmentation,societal shifts and even rock and roll
the pyramid of control whose highest peak was above men.
millions of years ago .more than millions he told the group
evan  had put on his "vestment" he resmebled a Pharoah as he sped talk everything under the sun to mesmerize and confuse what he secretly called the Sqeaky Fromm element,for they always had the most credit cards
"quantum physics,cerebral reach and experiments in human augmentation,societal shifts and even rock and roll
the pyramid of control whose highest peak was above men.
millions of years ago .more than millions he told the group
'that's how they do it in dixie",Mrs Rainy said grabbing a miscrophone,dressed in her traditonal Cowgirl uniform,she spoke in a monotone fast talk chant,as all scientific "hooble dash" could only be spoken ,for it destroyed THE DACTILIAN FLOW..but you want answers.
"is that not why you really cAME.YOU INGRATES,she screamed and smiled,flicking her tongue.tossing her hat into the crowd.. she spoke in tongues,or tried to
somuchofthecurrent technologies that come out year  by year were in fact dreampt up decades ago.and released piece by piece
often 50 years from conception
for information has been handled like this since the so called beginning of time.
for there are cross associations in this story that are beyond human understanding,"i signaled ethan to take this time to slip outside,we both knew enough to have spit out the "stew" .We had both been raised as Rainy by the NCIA but even with the recent Enchantment Training this was too fucking much..
 evan rainy had put on his "vestment" he resmebled a Pharoah as he sped talk everything under the sun to mesmerize and confuse what he secretly called the Sqeaky Fromm element,for they always had the most credit cards
"quantum physics,cerebral reach and experiments in human augmentation,societal shifts and even rock and roll
the pyramid of control whose highest peak was above men.
millions of years ago .more than millions he told the group .we were under a parachute.a fire in the middle .smoke billowing around us some of us coughing.but no  body wanted to run,to breath fresh air.
"the history you have been told is false,"he shouted,the fire lighting his face from below.
"i will tell you the true way."

outside the tent i met up with Ethan
"you alright?"
Never ask a NCIA who was raised pre 1977 Rainy if they are alright.
he rolled his eyes.
"i'm this close to just switching sides.if only for the free stew." he said
I knew just what he meant.