now imagine if you will the other operations that the operators had/have in store.especially when the tv and movie industry became involved..underpaid screenwriters make the best interneural muralists.interneural muralists are themost dagerous people on the face of the earth.lately they have begun using my own blog entries in my very dreams.2 nights ago i had a dream that began harmless enough. a monty python type style introduction with the NCIA portrayed as bewigged colonial types in a modern federal office building discussing just how wrong my last stint in LA had indeed gone.

a higher up stands at a presentation board with a long pointer on the board is a photo of my mother.
"what type of woman would participate in Project Tommy"he asks
"well u havent met Kim.Or Jimbis'father for that matter.ambitious in his own right,"
another ,still in the broad style of brit comedy,this dream muralist adds a laugh track<"I thought Operation Rosemary's baby was thrown out with the bathwater"
                   the chairman shouts,"can we stay on point please.This is serious business he shouts ,though i glimpse him foddling himself underthe long table,"this is serious bizzzzness.if you only knew the various situations it took to shatter a small child's mind into this goldfish thinking."
                   A senator type picks his head off the table"goldfish thinking .so better to place the symbols into the basket...does anyone have a deck of cards?"
                  The chairman hushes him and slaps his hand "i thought we were staying away from the manchurian candidate"
                     "which one," an effeminate captain type says
                     'which one what"
                      'which version.I didnt much care for  the denzel washington one.at all.I didnt much like the movie version of "tommy " either" and I think the musical was over rated as well.At least the one we saw in London"
                    The senator suddenly stands  and salutes  shouting "are you men or are you mushrooms!"
                The chairman suddenly morphs into the strange white haired man in the movie "seconds"and the tone changes .The muralist dims the "lighting" and deepens my REM
  " the point is Jimbis 3 has sided with the Dactologists.or thats what i thought .Ive read some of his notes and he seems to now be creating his own version.which i am not so sure the dactologists like anymore than we do.I"m afraid he might be "losing it" in a whole new way"
   "he is WINNING"the senator says.I liked him better when he was whining."
"whining just maybe the new winning ," the effeminine captain sings,I saw his sermon on ACTORS on Interneural direct.I think he should part his hair on the other side."
       "perhaps we should ahve paid him or given him I don't know some impetous.instead of keeping him utterly beholden to every god damn person he knows well into his 40's .maybe that has something to do with his "new winning attitude,One can't really call what he is doing a breach .there was never any contract for him to break.not really.half the time we convince him .or convince him to convince others that interneural is his own madness."
    "Pish"says the captain"he is not as dumb as he puts on."
    the chairman eyes the captain angrily,he hates people who say things like pish .as do i.I have a feeling i know what's coming next.when one identifies.the muralist takes more liberties.A damien lewis moment?or would that breaK stride.
        "we never thought of him as needing money,The chairman says,"he seems to hate more and more being "cared for" I thought this might have worked on our behalf.
   a secretary chimes in ,for a moment she morphs into my mother"this faggot has been playing "tommy" since 1998
meth made him capable of gathering his senses
.but for all appearances he appears as delayed as ever.
The effeminine captain claps his hands like a little school girl suddenly turning into a buddah baby
"tell them about the Wire ,tell them about the Wire!"
"which one,"says a yes man type ,followed by a jerky laugh track...
(the tone changes,i get the sense that this muralist is for me.wants me to begin KnOwing things.)
he has 2 sets
TWO INTERNEURAL KITS!
Cindy Sacket was turned in 2006 and gave us the sequencing data and Prox Implant design
"my goodness<"giggled the Captain,"i couldnt imagine one set of neural interface implants let alone 2.Poor Jimbis3 we should throw the double faced bastard a parade"
"is this parade before or after we hang him for sedition"
"i'd be seditious too if I had to claim schizophrenic meth head for 2 decades.half the time  the sorry son of a bitch thinks he's just hearing voices."
"that's besides the point!"
"besides the point to whom!" I scream suddenly in the dream."Sedition!Hanging.No you fucking cunts.Did somebody say parade!it's almost too late to pay me .Just who is the criminal!"
"you are Jimbis3 and if I were you I'd go back to sleep"
"Ive been asleep for 43 yeaRS.never again"
they ignore me.
so whats' new.
the fag captain starts singing little drummer boy and the senator makes a cutting jesture with his finger .like the joker in the batman movie.at this point i would glad be slit to simply know once and for all if this was really happening.
"this isnt a dream .this is really happening the captain says trying to sound likeMia farrow"
"thats' my line " the secretary shouts.
2 headsets.one of them Proxy.the other the Northern Canadian Intelligence Agency.hmmmm...but what about the uhh ummm..that other part couldnt have been..uh
that jimbis  we werent counting on....
and that jimbis
is the only reason youre alive(FINALLY something I knew already....the name ethan comes to me(this isnt part of the dream,this is something else,
The name ethan and a cop who touched him,helped him gently into the squad car when he needed that gentleness,a youngman i met in key west who reminded me of jesus,...names like Simon,Peter,   but this time in the style of VEDA and Evan.there will be NO GOOD GUYS this time.it won't play .it didnt the first time did it.but GOOD all the same...it doesnt make sense.but it does.it will be tough times and wild times.it began when the man in ohio released the animals I hear ethan say/pray
hmmmm    but what about those aliens hmm...i dont even think Gary rainy knew they were for real for real.some can be bought?no...NO.it's all free.
Dactology Must be free?is that it?
....
the muralist continues the dream..
the dream state almost seems hesitant.
even the muralist knows he doesnt quite control everything.
The muralist knows i want answers.that i might be willing to die for them at this point .or why would i be typing this?
"  our interneural headset,,we called it the wire,so small,the implants not perceptable." the senator says"we used it to try to gather evidence..but it went to shit.early on.Nobody could do it.it's beyond skeevy.mind reading.no body calls it that.they call it proxy we call it interneural...it's something nobody has any bizness playing with"
the muralist is either bored or reticent.he doesnt mean it.a muralist assumes he is "the good guy" the artist with interface.BULLSHIT!but I cant make waves ..(trust me."they control the verticles.they control the horizontals.having bad thoughts about interneural is akin to telling the old testament god to GO AWAY!Just LEAVE ME BE! GGGET OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
almost anyone ,especially a muralist thinks their god or godlike.and they sort of have to be.to play.but proxy isnt "playing" and either is NCIA.and me.I never had a choice.my only choice is to type.to go on and on till someone has the nerve to ....(ooo there are bits of this too unbelievable and dare i say embarrassing to even post.for i read this for i am posting drafts now.postings i had earlier saved .in case the inevitable occur...concerning especially the what i now believe was a simulation..i had made a vow to never reread any entries..the use of a love interest through cybernetic techniques was perhaps the most powerful weapon of choice implemented by my "captors".the use of television and the various reasons one might "relate " or identify with" or be attracted to while sounding silly takes on much more sinister contations when one thinks of what a Network or production house could do with such information (May 18th))
 I MUST BREAK AWAY AND EXPLAIN A BIT>>>Damien(or the Muralist who chose damien as my main CHaractER(truthfully how the fuck would i know.and why this guy.of all actors.
.cuz i related to "Homeland?
"that show with claire danes  on showtime.(liam helped pay for premium channels)
..why did i relate ..cuz the guy held hostage  for 5 years and his head was fucked with?or thru out the program people are suspiscious of him..and he was percieved to be Bad?
no.
it was  because he slept with his clothes on mainly
and seemed so god damned distracted and vague.
"cuz he's fuckin Hot" another friend said thats why...and he has a point.but I was never ever the type to go  like that for some tv show .some actor.ever.suddenly everything was Damien.
i guess i can sort of imagine how like some stalker feels.when a world is created around some ..star
but with me it was odd.
cuz I was afraid of this mother fucker.
and more afraid of the damien types set loose around van nuys.by Proxy as well.Types .Symbols.Redheads.

and the more this fucking damine lewis Proxyied me the more i despised himthis damien lewis shit is unbelievable.(I never heard of the guy before.)and almost impossible to write...funny ..everything else seems believable  or somewhat possible friends who read this say but they draw the line at damien lewis...why cuz he's famous ,cuz he acts for a living.cuz he's good looking ,famous.who gives a damn.the dude is scary.I see RED.RED is important .the color red is my main cue.
 BACK TO THE DREAM SEQUENCE OF 2 NITES
THE senator is at the Blackboard  explaining the events that lead to my "going rogue,goin nuts ,goin broke....
"when Damien lewis got involved'"he explains" it went to from failure to feral.especially when Jimbis went all Scanners on him and than as you know Damien went wild on Jimbis3.something he graphed and than TYPED and POSTED about the guy's wife for christ's sake!OR he insinuated "they had a moment"
another  sergt type says"i thought this was about jimbis infultrating Dacology.who thru this actor into this.
(GOOOOOD GOd damned question)
'''Well he continues damien got so fed up with jimbis,besides the usual complications of internueral.that he said fuck it.after a while.all jim did was smoke cigs,weed,watch porn and painted .to get thru this boring time with jimbis our men began creating "stories" to get him out of the house.and sgt phillip wanted to see if he could for instance 'go both ways"..stuff like that

..The Chairman and MUralist seem to get very serious.
and what did Dactology who inserted the OTHER WIRE in 1994 think of all thisjust more crazy jimbis i suppose."
the effeminine sgt giggles."and he did begin going crazy after Damien left the building.amore". amore."trust me jimbis didnt zactly hate  damien lewis uh uh.no way no how.WOOOOF.."
the senator continues"well,after damien "left the building"unknown to us Private  riley continued the for lack of a better word the love hate hate-hate "bromance".you see sgt riley always wanted to be a screenwriter..."
    UH>ANYONE EVEN BOTHER FOLLOWING DAC"S TRANSMISSIONS?HE SEEMS TO INFER ,from HIS WRITINGS something quite sinister was at play"
"that,"the secretary shouted was allllll Jimbis3"
"well for a coupla months we couldnt take the routine teeth brushing,egg cooking,he also chews very loudlyand uses too much hot water.nor does he recycle.and dont get me started (or damien oooooo no) on his sexual proclivities ,including his tastes in porn.or worse(or better i must say) his rather complicated sexual fantasies,some involving said damien .even after hewas told to stop."
"well a chairperson shouts"well it seems to me that while sgt riley was playing damien lewis gary rainy was essentially giving jimbis the schematics of the entire dact and proxy model"
Yes we kind of missed that.we got carried away,but he did write bits and pieces of his experience on facebook when he wasnt drunk or stoned..actually he posted videos songs pertaining to the experience.it means nothing any of it...than damien lewis ,the real one decided he'd be a sport or something.and he came back to the 'project" and saw the "filth" jimbis was writing about him.of course not knowing that private riley was "playing damien" damien wanted to teach jimbis a lesson and decided to go all"brainstorm "on him.and i suppose jimbis was under so much pressure thay he went beyond bboth ncia's interneural ANd Proyx's
.."saw the face of god and all that",,the real thing that dactology explains at the end of the ...course,and he wrote quite clearly that certain agencies etc are well aware of a fake rapture .with holograms ,satelites ,sound and fury.and he wrote if anyone tries it.this fake rapture stuff..well as he puts it ..the very earth might split in 2 or something to that effect.and some shit that only jimbis and people he SENSES he can BE AROUND in the New World will be left.."
The captain pulls himself up from the slouch he's in "I like damien lewis ,he's a very under used actor...did cliare daines win a grammy for homeland"
"an emmy .silly " the effeminine sgt says"the grammys are  for music"
"Moving on<:.a vote to rid the world of pennies"