mural

THIS NEVER HAPPENED "DO YOU UNDERSTAND!

DO YOU REALLY UNDERSTAND

you know what to do to cover it up

so if you don't want to spend the rest of your life eating out of garbage cans .THIS is What I suggest you do
A. QUIT WRITING THAT GOD DAMN BLOG OR WHATEVER YOU CALL IT
DO YOU UNDERSTAND!
it makes no fucking sense anyway you sound like a raving lunatic!
B.SHUT UP about EVERYTHING to your so-called friends!
C..GET YOUR ASS DOWN TO WELFARE,and a MENTAL HEALTH PLACE or  something
to SOMEHOW EXPLAIN
EXACTLY what HAPPENED
.and WHAT HAPPENED ! was YOU HAD A BREAK WITH REALITY.DO YOU UNDERSTAND
so before you go too far
JUST STOP!
in a way I am glad i have my
fake mental problems and financial catastrophe to attend to.
I despise these people.(when I am not in awe,or somehow think they toughened me up,like all that I have recounted(so far) was boot camp)
they play with people
it almosty seems the entire point.is this what you would use cybernetic principles for?or .the beginnings of simulated reality enhancement moduals?
television plays with people.
imagine what happens when it goes further.and further .
and further still.
so what if i have to spend the rest of my life not being believed
besides

the more specific i get.
the less I am able communicate it.even as fiction.trust me I know it sounds Schizo.psychotic.which makes it so much worse.
and as you can see I am not much of a sci fi writer.(i hate the genre)but I had/have to explain it to someone.I am getting weaker here.at liam's I hate what I am becoming again.
I was set up.
someone will pay.
I don't know how.
but it won't be me.
something will happen soon
tables will turn

there is a higher power out there who shall see to it
I sound insane.
DO YOU UNDERSTAND


now imagine if you will the other operations that the operators had/have in store.especially when the tv and movie industry became involved..underpaid screenwriters make the best interneural muralists.interneural muralists are the most dangerous people on the face of the earth.lately they have begun using my own blog entries in my very dreams.2 nights ago i had a dream that began harmless enough. a monty python type style introduction with the NCIA portrayed as bewigged colonial types in a modern federal office building discussing just how wrong my last stint in LA had indeed gone.

a higher up stands at a presentation board with a long pointer on the board is a photo of my mother.
"what type of woman would participate in Project Tommy"he asks
"well u havent met Kim.Or Jimbis'father for that matter.ambitious in his own right,"
another ,still in the broad style of brit comedy,this dream muralist adds a laugh track<"I thought Operation Rosemary's baby was thrown out with the bathwater"
the chairman shouts,"can we stay on point please.This is serious business he shouts ,though i glimpse him fondling himself underthe long table,"this is serious bizzzzness.if you only knew the various situations it took to shatter a small child's mind into this goldfish thinking."
A senator type picks his head off the table"goldfish thinking .so better to place the symbols into the basket...does anyone have a deck of cards?"
The chairman hushes him and slaps his hand "i thought we were staying away from the manchurian candidate"
"which one," an effeminate captain type says
'which one what"
'which version.I didnt much care for the denzel washington one.at all.I didnt much like the movie version of "tommy " either" and I think the musical was over rated as well.At least the one we saw in London"
The senator suddenly stands and salutes shouting "are you men or are you mushrooms!"
The chairman suddenly morphs into the strange white haired man in the movie "seconds"and the tone changes .The muralist dims the "lighting" and deepens my REM
" the point is Jimbis 3 has sided with the Dactologists.or thats what i thought .Ive read some of his notes and he seems to now be creating his own version.which i am not so sure the dactologists like anymore than we do.I"m afraid he might be "losing it" in a whole new way"
"he is WINNING"the senator says.I liked him better when he was whining."
"


(the tone changes,i get the sense that this muralist is for me.wants me to begin KnOwing things.)
design
"my goodness<"giggled the Captain,"i couldnt imagine one set of neural interface implants let alone 2.
Shhhh he doesnt know .
and they dont know
but they will
the name ethan comes to me(this isnt part of the dream,this is something else,
The name ethan and a cop who touched him,helped him gently into the squad car when he needed that gentleness,a youngman i met in key west who reminded me of jesus,...names like Simon,Peter, but this time in the style of VEDA and Evan.there will be NO GOOD GUYS this time.it won't play .it didnt the first time did it.but GOOD all the same...it doesnt make sense.but it does.it will be tough times and wild times.it began when the man in ohio released the animals I hear ethan say/pray

....
the muralist continues the dream..
the dream state almost seems hesitant.
even the muralist knows he doesnt quite control everything.
The muralist knows i want answers.that i might be willing to die for them at this point .or why would i be typing this?
" our interneural headset,,we called it the wire,so small,the implants not perceptable." the senator says"we used it to try to gather evidence..but it went to shit.early on.Nobody could do it.it's beyond skeevy.mind reading.no body calls it that.they call it proxy we call it interneural...it's something nobody has any bizness playing with"
the muralist is either bored or reticent.he doesnt mean it.a muralist assumes he is "the good guy" the artist with interface
but I cant make waves ...
 ....besides the usual complications of internueral.Our Men just got bored all jim did was smoke cigs,weed,watch porn and paint.to get thru this boring time our men began creating "stories" to get him out of the house.and sgt phillip wanted to see if he could for instance 'go both ways"..stuff like that.we thought it was good fun.we weren't really putting ourselves in his shoes.you know having implants,being unable to take this stuff off,also him not really not really really having any idea what was going on

.
and what did Dactology who inserted the OTHER WIRE in 1994 think of all this-
ust more crazy jimbis i suppose."
and he did begin going crazy
he THOUGHT HE WAS HEARING VOICES
so naturally we thought ..well that he was hearing voices.
you see we didnt think of ourselves as voices
and presumably neither did proxy.who we gather thought the same thing about themselves in 94.nor did they think an intrusion such as "mind reading" could drive anyone mad.especially if the recipiant hadnt ..given his permission to have this be done
and
now it was happening
uh TWICE.."
 we couldnt take the routine teeth brushing,egg cooking,he also chews very loudlyand uses too much hot water.nor does he recycle.
well said the chairman while you were  making up stories for jimbis .and sunsequently driving him mad  did anyone even bother following what Proxy was "sharing" with Jimbis?
cause it seems to me that while sgt riley was playing damien lewis  and you all were telling him ghost stories
gary rainy was essentially giving jimbis the schematics of the entire dact and proxy model"
Yes we kind of missed that.we got carried away,but he did write bits and pieces of his experience on facebook when he wasnt drunk or stoned..actually he posted videos songs pertaining to the experience.it means nothing any of it...
but maybe he was writing in code.
Jesus christ .why didnt anyone just tell him what the fuck was happening.
"top secret i thoguth you said"
"I told you to tell him it was top secret"
we did,several times"
IN PERSON you idiot.As far as jimbis is concerned he's sort of just hearing voices.

AND THAN you KNOW what Happened...i guess the pressure got to him and he sort of.,,


.."saw the face of god and all that",,the real thing that dactology explains at the end of the ...course,
"Moving on<:.a vote to rid the world of pennies"