dumbo-itis

according to Evan they meet  bi weekly
at the Big House
 in Brentwood

all  of the "walking wounded"had been on headset during
"that night"

"when Dumbo went
out there....
and his out their
 into their minds
via ..headset.."

when DUMBO ,who would NOT stop SMOKING WEED!
nearly destroyed many of the best minds in the filed
cause DUMBO cares nothing about anyone
but DUMBO!

what was going exactly through dumbo's mind
that night was never clear
it was more a sense

a horrible sense

that Dumbo would
AND WILL! pay for
for the rest of his life

"may it be short!" NO MAKE IT BE LONG!"is  the mantra
in the informal support group

held bi weekly at The Big  House in Brentwood


none have recovered nor ever will Evan says
from my

From my what Evan

automatic response
to part 2 of
Mentorship?

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i remind EVAN and Pals
that the terror dumbo felt

was not  everpart of the equation
and whatever "primal manifestations "
of terror
 that terror itself  brings on
is 10 times worse than anything i fuckin graphed back to a bunch of fuckin Mandlers who were never supposed to be in my fuckin mind to bein with!
you knew by that time what was going on you're not fooling anyone

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i remind him that Dumbo  here
has no support group
Dumbo here might as well be schizo
cuz DUMBO here
had no one to hold hands with
or commiserate with over that night
and the first night in 1994
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or that night on Pine st
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or the that night at the Parker hotel
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or that night he was so soused up with neuroleptic because of "the game" he could not write his own name
or that day in palm springs
or that dream in san francisco
or that day in san francisco or

DOES HE?

 

"you're like a little girl sometimes Dumbo
a little wuss"
 Evan graphs