there are more uses for this than baking soda I graphed Evan saying to the wife of some moneybag from St Louis ,Just put on the headset,he said,there,there you go.

wait .let's not start.
Hopefully he graphed,you're not wacking off or thinking your nasty bits about Dome or your dreary thoughts about your mother or something ingrate
I tried to clear my head
but the first thing I thought of was nasty bits about Dome
wacking off
and my mother.
not a good thing to think all at once
YOU MOTHERFUCKER! I gleaned from Evan who i imagined in the room trying to keep his face composed for "the tourists/investors:while going all Scanners on my cortex
 Evan always thinks i "do it" on purpose
scramble my "output"when guests arrive for a demo
he asks moneybag's wife to remove the headset
"he's sleeping,we respect his dreamstate"
BULLSHIT I feel like Graphing but know it's useless
I am  in trouble for not somehow cueing up some unicorns or generalized wholesome images (might be easier if sir Hackenstein paid me (or i don't know Trained me?) for this clusterfuck.at nuremburg)for the bigwigs
youre in for some real bad dreams sicko he graphed
as if i didnt already know

the less you know the better

than why tell me at all?

write it this way that way

forward and back..

not so difficult.

is it?

                                                                when i am of two

minds

on the subject at hand

i so despise that it is I that must be the Loon

 in this tale

of blue cities

the unreliable narrator

with a crystal at my head

when they leave

when they change tonalites

I am lost

I have grown addicted

maybe they shoulda just picked one "volunteer" for each goddamn investor
but since it's sooooo don't say a word
it's all in one
some times you feel like you're Anne frank
and sometimes Speed Racer

but

you see.I am supposed to be
"cool" enuf or something to handle this
this "got me' when i was like in my 20's and still think I respond to cooolness
i had to beef up my mental health cred and take all these pills to CRED it ...that trust me
there aint noooo coolness left
cover it up
why!
i am against this
so dont get me wrong when i write about this as some light hearted fiction
gallows humor is all
this shit is the most dangerous stuff known to man
and trust me it WILL ALWAYS and only be in the wrong hands.
there are no RIGHT HANDS for this like some kind of god damn gentleman
only **** knows how intense this shit is
sometimes you just want ....
but than when they cool it for a coupla days
you feel like an idiot wanting them back all stockhom sydrom and shit
ya see after a coupla months of this crap you sorta only are "with " them...you're glazed ovr.
you dontreally go out much cuz...you're going out as some kind of avatar or something
for them
and since there is not true difference between "the new fronteir" and what accounts for schizophrenia you're fucked.
but not quite fucked enuf that the "men in suits and hawain shirts "won't make it their bizness to let you "overhear" them

"he just won't stop talking .or typing about it ."

"maybe he should cut his hands off.to stop typing"

oh probablyjust some random conversation that I missed the beginning of.
"know what i mean.

Jellybean?"
by this time you have no secrets
you comply


so dont get me wrong when i write about this as some light hearted fiction
gallows humor is all
this shit is the most dangerous stuff known to man
and trust me it WILL ALWAYS and only be in the wrong hands.
there are no RIGHT HANDS for this

whats fucked however
is sometimes
you get some punk ass on the headset
that's a trip
that doesnt care about "the experiemnts'
or changing me into "a better man"
or searching or planting pathologies in my head.real or imagined.
but about having fun with this monkeywrench
cuz also it's all about gaming
and porn

so you're a weapon
a sociological test
EST
and Inception
and some" puppet/avatar" for "str8 guy" to feel once again what it feels like to suck cock

       

  "creative" won't be back till September
that's how they Graph.
now that Valerie has stepped in

Creative huh?

is that what they call mind contr,,oops,,I mean programmed dreams these days?
I inadvertantly graphed the "c" word at some bitch investor who thinks interneural is  like  a god damn telephone
and Valerie brings in some sicko screen writer to Mulholland Drive my REM

elroy they used to call me

man
 do things go from bad to worse with personality conflicts when it's real time BRAINSTORM


should I care that i am saying too much..

all over LA County these big wigs been spreadin some wicked shit about Jimbis here.
and the threats


POW POW POW

but things settle down
but things settle down
simpatico simpatico
most of the kinks are out
....................

I am a hot head.
I do poorly on ritalin
but i must say removed alot of baggage
------------------------
but they also threatened to sort of put me into a piece of baggage.
-----------
but things settle down
simpatico simpatico
-------------------------
one day .it will all come out and it will be funny...hmmm?
ya think.
hmmm
----------
deep breath 1-2-3-4-5
--------------------------
too bad I wasn't invisibe huh.
and nothin a bit pecuuuuuliar was apparent during my run about s in LA,san francisco
and palm springs.
and good old 1994
-----------------
yeah
-----------
too bad I didnt fully immerse myself in this schizophrenia jive
-----------------
a treat huh
------ellllroy?
----new frontier..huh
-----
deep breath 1-2-3-4-5
----

"the Industry" you see helps finance this clusterfuck


don't ask who was tinkering about previously.......
anyway
trust me
they don't answer,not really
but one sorta gets the vibe
one would think things might get a tad easier around here with plain old coperate types
but no
quite the opposite
it's one thing thinkin you're Guantanimo Joe testing tuning  shit for the "enemy"
and quite another to be some flunky for some bitch producer
private industry
and still they won't pay me

this is supposed to be some fuckin treat you see!


and  presumably I lack some kinda grace! or something or some kind of.discretion

for instance typing this online

yo

it's fiction .

right?



huh

this shit aint even possible.

yeah

fuck you




Evan used to call me an urban astronaut,
man those were the days..
.but familiarity indeed breeds contempt especially when
 mimicked telepathy is in play..

 they tend to lose their urban astronauts
or kill em off.
but the recent problems are different
perhaps the .....loses
 are a mistake

 I inadvertently graphed from Evan that  l they've been  testing EXTREME LOW FREQUENCY "IMPART" DREAM techniques.

did you hear about that crazy incident in Kyoto? ..

gruuuuuuuusome

.
 but i reckon they have to
"keep up"


i heard they have already set up an infrastructure of "the New Way"

a coupla nips and tucks to  old UHF television towers and badda bing badda boom

OPEN AIR CommuniCCCCCCCCATION

 OOOO how i long for the daze when i knew for sure
this was just aliens or" angels in America" whispering warning into my presumed schizo scherzo-
Eeeeeeffective cerrebellum.....



 smoke and mirrors from Evan Rainy's Brentwood home studio



 an inadvertent graph of him writing a check to some contractors for 15,000 dollars for some imported marble tiles set me off


"do you really want to be paid for this .No way
 you're going to make a buck off this.We're letting you get away with murder writing this  slander online. according to you we are your torturers and this is  mind rape.How could you live with yourself if we paid you"

the bottom line is  this neural intrusion is to make me a better person
not some white slave

fuck that

maybe i want some imported marble tiles



they want me poor.
they don't want me "like them'
it's easier to think of me as some kind of rag doll when i am in rags and raging

don't smoke jimbis,
no drugs,
work out
,be nicer to your mother,
and lately
things like use less water
and shit about phosphates in detergent

there's a rush lately  involving development and some patent
..
lately i am always   broadcasting
all these investors wanting a headset  full of 'the latest thing"'
and now that bitch from Television
i can tell when she uses the headset even for a brief time
which is odd.
only Evan and ***** and actorman
have the nerve to go pure 2  way open access
maybe one really does become genuinely telepathic if one uses Intraneural Interface enough
i mean it sure does something to the old noodle
i mean how could it not.

Televison lady.
from ABC
ooooo there is something about her
uppity doesnt describe it.



.my Neural Palette she calls it
she won't call it my brain
 she wants me more wholesome
my thoughts
.my readings

to see how "it "might work for an older demo graphic