the book of elroy
Friday, November 30, 2012
MNEMOSYNE : Greek Titan goddess of memory ; mythology ... www.theoi.com › Titan › TitanisMnemos... MNEMOSYNE was Titan goddess of memory and remembrance and the inventress of language and words.
Oxytocin (Oxt) (
/ˌɒksɨˈtoʊsɪn/) is a mammalian hormone that acts primarily as a neuromodulator in the brain.
/ˌɒksɨˈtoʊsɪn/) is a mammalian hormone that acts primarily as a neuromodulator in the brain.
The inability to secrete oxytocin and feel empathy is linked to sociopathy, psychopathy, narcissism,[citation needed] and general manipulativeness.[not verified in body] However, there is some evidence that oxytocin promotes 'tribal' behaviour, incorporating the trust and empathy of in-groups with their suspicion and rejection of outsiders.
The word oxytocin was derived from Greek ὀξύς, oxys, and τόκος, tokos, meaning "quick birth",
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Each year, the world's leading thinkers and doers gather for an event many describe as the highlight of their year. Attendees have called it "The ultimate brain spa" and "A 4-day journey into the future, in the company of those creating it The TED conference ...a frontrunner in the future of new communications Disney had attained pantents in Brain Computer/Intraneural Interface without informing either the *** or *** of it's "jumpstart" more concerned with profits than the rather obvious applications of such machinery as a weapon
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
.....THERE IS A CERTAIN TYPE OF PERSON
IF ONE .
IS HONEST
TO THEIR CORE.
THAT
ADMITS
NOT A PATHOLOGY
OF THE ...SOCIOPATHIC SORT
BUT A....
PRIMITIVE.
AND FUTURISTIC
NEED
FOR SPEED.
AND HEAT
.
AND
IF RENDERED CURED
A
CREED
OF
HUNT
FOR
them
...TALKING CRAZY .
EVAN GRAPHS
KNOWING
i AM
FINALLY WITHOUT WORDS.
pointed
LIKE A BLADE
IF ONE .
IS HONEST
TO THEIR CORE.
THAT
ADMITS
NOT A PATHOLOGY
OF THE ...SOCIOPATHIC SORT
BUT A....
PRIMITIVE.
AND FUTURISTIC
NEED
FOR SPEED.
AND HEAT
.
AND
IF RENDERED CURED
A
CREED
OF
HUNT
FOR
...TALKING CRAZY .
EVAN GRAPHS
KNOWING
i AM
FINALLY WITHOUT WORDS.
pointed
LIKE A BLADE
A SiCKO CAN ONLY BE CURED BY A CERTAIN THERAPY.
IS THAT SO i GRAPHED.
eVAN .
IT SEEMED
HAD MORPHED INTO A KINDER GENTLER."GODHEAD TYPE OF.."SLUMLORD"
WE NOW SIMPLY THINK OF YOU
AS THE EQUIVALENT OF POND SCUM
A RELIEF .SWEPT OVER ME AND AN OVERWHELMING SENSE OF LOVE AND BEAUTY
ALMOST TOO INTENSE
NOT SO FAST BUDDY
EVERYTHING
IN
THE RIGHT MEASURE
IS THAT SO i GRAPHED.
eVAN .
IT SEEMED
HAD MORPHED INTO A KINDER GENTLER."GODHEAD TYPE OF.."SLUMLORD"
WE NOW SIMPLY THINK OF YOU
AS THE EQUIVALENT OF POND SCUM
A RELIEF .SWEPT OVER ME AND AN OVERWHELMING SENSE OF LOVE AND BEAUTY
ALMOST TOO INTENSE
NOT SO FAST BUDDY
EVERYTHING
IN
THE RIGHT MEASURE
fair game
Phila- 2012 april another detractor.
another acquaintance who goes on the list.
the list of Perisherables.
i sometimes throw away the list when i am in a good mood.
or move various perishables up and down on the list.
those who will be left behind
or left to their own devices
when the bough breaks etc etc.
a jokester type.you know the type always something to say.
especially when he knows he shouldnt .he's just intching though to say the wrong thing.deliberately.especially if it might hurt you.
Or hurt the Cause at hand.
in this case the blog.(it is not really a blog it is just an easy way to not lose paper)
people who say the wrong thing sometimes cant help it.people with tourettes ,aspergers ,other stuff.they can't help it.you see.it's in them like a piece of something inbetween your teeth.
that is different from this other type.
in a big way
i can tell the differnece .i know these things i sense these things.
he says."so Hows the manifesto.i read it today.the Manifesto....yap yap yap he goes on.putting it down.
he's on the list.is all i can say.
it was just time before he got there anyway.
but it got me thinking besides.
maybe this is some manefesto.
and is that a bad thing?
and maybe i must move away from the computer and all things that beep and light up and make noise and bug me .like tv and phones .
like other manifesto writers seem too.
it;s supposedly not good to write a manifesto.they seem to put those people away sometimes.
so maybe i'll just go away sometime soon .and write it anyway .but be very careful not to call it that.
or something biblical .which is really more what it is.
but thats not good either.
it sounds a bit...uh...self important and arrogant to say one has been chosen to write the New Way
especially when i have taken so many liberties with what I have heard and experienced
from word on high.
I am not a very good writer.and i have very little social skills.but i can tell instantly who
is what .
you'd be suprised.
.
another acquaintance who goes on the list.
the list of Perisherables.
i sometimes throw away the list when i am in a good mood.
or move various perishables up and down on the list.
those who will be left behind
or left to their own devices
when the bough breaks etc etc.
a jokester type.you know the type always something to say.
especially when he knows he shouldnt .he's just intching though to say the wrong thing.deliberately.especially if it might hurt you.
Or hurt the Cause at hand.
in this case the blog.(it is not really a blog it is just an easy way to not lose paper)
people who say the wrong thing sometimes cant help it.people with tourettes ,aspergers ,other stuff.they can't help it.you see.it's in them like a piece of something inbetween your teeth.
that is different from this other type.
in a big way
i can tell the differnece .i know these things i sense these things.
he says."so Hows the manifesto.i read it today.the Manifesto....yap yap yap he goes on.putting it down.
he's on the list.is all i can say.
it was just time before he got there anyway.
but it got me thinking besides.
maybe this is some manefesto.
and is that a bad thing?
and maybe i must move away from the computer and all things that beep and light up and make noise and bug me .like tv and phones .
like other manifesto writers seem too.
it;s supposedly not good to write a manifesto.they seem to put those people away sometimes.
so maybe i'll just go away sometime soon .and write it anyway .but be very careful not to call it that.
or something biblical .which is really more what it is.
but thats not good either.
it sounds a bit...uh...self important and arrogant to say one has been chosen to write the New Way
especially when i have taken so many liberties with what I have heard and experienced
from word on high.
I am not a very good writer.and i have very little social skills.but i can tell instantly who
is what .
you'd be suprised.
.
Thursday, April 26, 2012 the New Way.saved me..Neuronautics saved me.Gary Rainy's teachings save me .from myself..this isn't about Merge bio tech..but emerging..it's a tool.is all ..training wheels..screw all Ruiners who think i joined a cult..No..no not quite..THEY are the Cult
.oh by all means read on and amuse yourself ...though.one way or another your reaction has been recorded....by Entities...and any right minded soul knows without knowing that what i say is the truth.I can write this you see.because I have been punished and therefore purified..Ruiner sense this.they do not understand that
"goodness comes at the end.I am not so far from good. now..but luckily much further away from "Nice" Becuas e.Nice is a lie.Good .I desire.more and more.it was not" good "to come back to philly.I am not Good here.I am not here to rest or recover.not really.I am confused and angry is all.and lost.I fear leaving to whereever i go next because i do not have the proper things to continue on my journey.stuff like money and credit.usually I am provided for.somehow.but I ran.I couldnt change.I am stupid here.
you write this for attention I hear
in adavnce
do I?
Do I write this for attention
maybe it started as something else.way months ago.it is different now.
somehow it is.
yes I needed attention cuz i used this previously as a way to show art.and some haphazzard attempts at screen writng etc..
now.
no.
i thought quite hard about this.
nor do i now think there are people with money to promote theis New Way.I was presented with.
or even cash enuf for me to move more freely to write my sometimes ordained jottings.( i cannot help but toss in my own bits of..bits and stuff cuz I am for now at least too too human and stuck so in the old way
did i just notice a "masked" though implied squeak for donation
for unfettered and much needed Thought and dilligence to the task at hand.
I am guilty.I am guilty of need.
of need of Time and some mild comfort to compose The New Way anthems in such a fashion that I am only Beholden to true Forces
yes future detractor ! I seem stupid and half assed now.! but you shall see the progression
even if i go far from computers and cities.
fuck you ! who judges my raging as coarse!
I am also often pulverized by my "bosses",The forces,the powers that be(they can make my left arm hurt.and sometimes my leg becomes like that guy in the Usual Suspects.)why? because i think they like subordination.
sometimes i believe that is there only reason for these specific games
a schizophrenic you say.
garden variety psychotic
.and he bores me.
this is going nowhere
HA!
this schizo-brainsalad meandering mealymouthedmendacity is my cover .my shield.
who amongst you is not afraid of insanity!
of your own and others?
(ha! when the clock hits the fan .who will be ready.and able .to take it (AND GIVE IT back!)but the LUNATIC.and than you shall ask him for help help help.
Ha.you didnt even throw him a piece of bread.RUN FOR your lives!no
walk.it doesnt matter.
.oh by all means read on and amuse yourself ...though.one way or another your reaction has been recorded....by Entities...and any right minded soul knows without knowing that what i say is the truth.I can write this you see.because I have been punished and therefore purified..Ruiner sense this.they do not understand that
"goodness comes at the end.I am not so far from good. now..but luckily much further away from "Nice" Becuas e.Nice is a lie.Good .I desire.more and more.it was not" good "to come back to philly.I am not Good here.I am not here to rest or recover.not really.I am confused and angry is all.and lost.I fear leaving to whereever i go next because i do not have the proper things to continue on my journey.stuff like money and credit.usually I am provided for.somehow.but I ran.I couldnt change.I am stupid here.
you write this for attention I hear
in adavnce
do I?
Do I write this for attention
maybe it started as something else.way months ago.it is different now.
somehow it is.
yes I needed attention cuz i used this previously as a way to show art.and some haphazzard attempts at screen writng etc..
now.
no.
i thought quite hard about this.
nor do i now think there are people with money to promote theis New Way.I was presented with.
or even cash enuf for me to move more freely to write my sometimes ordained jottings.( i cannot help but toss in my own bits of..bits and stuff cuz I am for now at least too too human and stuck so in the old way
did i just notice a "masked" though implied squeak for donation
for unfettered and much needed Thought and dilligence to the task at hand.
I am guilty.I am guilty of need.
of need of Time and some mild comfort to compose The New Way anthems in such a fashion that I am only Beholden to true Forces
yes future detractor ! I seem stupid and half assed now.! but you shall see the progression
even if i go far from computers and cities.
fuck you ! who judges my raging as coarse!
I am also often pulverized by my "bosses",The forces,the powers that be(they can make my left arm hurt.and sometimes my leg becomes like that guy in the Usual Suspects.)why? because i think they like subordination.
sometimes i believe that is there only reason for these specific games
a schizophrenic you say.
garden variety psychotic
.and he bores me.
this is going nowhere
HA!
this schizo-brainsalad meandering mealymouthedmendacity is my cover .my shield.
who amongst you is not afraid of insanity!
of your own and others?
(ha! when the clock hits the fan .who will be ready.and able .to take it (AND GIVE IT back!)but the LUNATIC.and than you shall ask him for help help help.
Ha.you didnt even throw him a piece of bread.RUN FOR your lives!no
walk.it doesnt matter.
funny that I recieved little guff when discussing the technological aspects of my Neuronautic Mentorship.
and my
communication Process with thE"apps" they shoved in my arm for the interneural interface
no..that didn't bother my roomates..XXXX just says ''''shhhhhhh"like he knows....it''s so odd seeing him again..since I came back from LA he seems so fuckable...it's Liam who is the problem..the other roomates are just stoned...or "out" ...that's what's good about rooming with actors..they always are out "networking" ...dating ...for a part...I find myself judging them...mainly cuz' they judge me...and say ..How can a Jew be a Neuronaut..how can a Fag be a Neuronaut...Neuronautics hates fags and jews..Oooh really...? they took that out of "the book" you dike ..Liam is ok but ...thinks I'm like swengali-ed or something..he didnt mind me explaing the "tech" but goes all Ruiner on me
when I talk about the Divine aspects of Neuronautics..and can see why they didn't want me to come back to ...people who would MAKE ME revert...my Face to face team expalined ..that Ruiners "will say anything" to bring a person who is Higher On the Scale of Human Being ship down to their level...d that i will be wasting my breath and Beingship trying to explain Gary Rainy's teachings. Liam has I am beginniung to think a Ruiner Life Force..he makes me always in a defensive mode.and want to punch him while I explain Neuronautics IS a religion and not corperation.People who talk like that ...shouldnt be allowed to TALK at all.. Questions Gary Rainy says are usually Ruiner WAY of trying to jumble up.people who ve found The New WAY.
my talk of The Forces seems to scare Liam
.He says my eyes get funny when I speak of it.
He fears, he says that I will not "come back"..He seems to think I "am gone"
I stop my pacing .I have an idea how i "come off" to him
and this idea collides with a tear coming down Liam's face.
and suddenly I feel like tearing up as well.
one feeling leads to another
.I think of Liam"s true concern for my "sanity"
thought come.too fast
my mother
.my father
.not as 'symbols" but as real people.
I think about how I have written about them "in my story"
collateral damage .
symbols. cues .as "bianary data" to clear my head.and soul
I have been so removed from emotion and warmth since so much of this began last spring.and even before.I am close with no one now.Only the Forces.
I stop myself.
Before I "regress"
Liam called Proxy 's methods into question.How he said they were not benevalent .and .how they manipulate people
"why shouldnt they manipulate.Why shouldnt they try to alter me?Did you read "the blog " as you call it from the beginning?Did you read how I wrote about my family.My "friends"I was crueler than. i had to be broken .to be fixed again!I was all too willing to code-ify and simplify my ties with humanity into symbols and a series of ones and zeroes."
yes .
a secret .rather swarmy voice comes in my ear shot "everything all at once .everything all at once"WHAT IS your automatic thought RIGHT NOW
whatever it is.Never give in to prolonging a delicate,loving thought that has passed it's experation.(although it might have been good .and WARM.It will become UNREAL and FALSE if you milk it.if you try to pretrend you can HOLD IT longer than you really can.DO NOT CONFUSE your FELLOWMAN with FALSE SEEMINGS.
FEW will survive.
butTHE ANIMAL MAN.The caVEman.Go deeper to that core ..NO fAlse manners or lies of how "human" you are...better to be thought a criminal than carrying on further Lies
better to BE a criminal than
ACT
"the whole world is now actors.Nobody knows what they are .what's going to happen when something happens.and nobody knows INSTINCT"
"who put this shit in your head," he says
"Fuck this"I say putting my coat on.IN sarcastic crazy style I say "space aliens told me dumbass"
"I wouldnt go out when youre like this..."
I take my coat off or half off,thinking he might want to ,I don't know be informed maybe.
"now.If everyone is acting.How will I know .or how will you know who you don't want for lack of a better term "left behind?Why would I throw myself in front of some wigger meth freak to save your ass when the End Begins if i can't tell if you're you or acting like you think a human should act.and where did you learn this way of being.of acting.""
Liam literally throws up his hands.I am "crazy".Proxy has put words in my head.He wants me back to the nice guy i was.
ör was that an act Jim?"
and my
communication Process with thE"apps" they shoved in my arm for the interneural interface
no..that didn't bother my roomates..XXXX just says ''''shhhhhhh"like he knows....it''s so odd seeing him again..since I came back from LA he seems so fuckable...it's Liam who is the problem..the other roomates are just stoned...or "out" ...that's what's good about rooming with actors..they always are out "networking" ...dating ...for a part...I find myself judging them...mainly cuz' they judge me...and say ..How can a Jew be a Neuronaut..how can a Fag be a Neuronaut...Neuronautics hates fags and jews..Oooh really...? they took that out of "the book" you dike ..Liam is ok but ...thinks I'm like swengali-ed or something..he didnt mind me explaing the "tech" but goes all Ruiner on me
when I talk about the Divine aspects of Neuronautics..and can see why they didn't want me to come back to ...people who would MAKE ME revert...my Face to face team expalined ..that Ruiners "will say anything" to bring a person who is Higher On the Scale of Human Being ship down to their level...d that i will be wasting my breath and Beingship trying to explain Gary Rainy's teachings. Liam has I am beginniung to think a Ruiner Life Force..he makes me always in a defensive mode.and want to punch him while I explain Neuronautics IS a religion and not corperation.People who talk like that ...shouldnt be allowed to TALK at all.. Questions Gary Rainy says are usually Ruiner WAY of trying to jumble up.people who ve found The New WAY.
my talk of The Forces seems to scare Liam
.He says my eyes get funny when I speak of it.
He fears, he says that I will not "come back"..He seems to think I "am gone"
I stop my pacing .I have an idea how i "come off" to him
and this idea collides with a tear coming down Liam's face.
and suddenly I feel like tearing up as well.
one feeling leads to another
.I think of Liam"s true concern for my "sanity"
thought come.too fast
my mother
.my father
.not as 'symbols" but as real people.
I think about how I have written about them "in my story"
collateral damage .
symbols. cues .as "bianary data" to clear my head.and soul
I have been so removed from emotion and warmth since so much of this began last spring.and even before.I am close with no one now.Only the Forces.
I stop myself.
Before I "regress"
Liam called Proxy 's methods into question.How he said they were not benevalent .and .how they manipulate people
"why shouldnt they manipulate.Why shouldnt they try to alter me?Did you read "the blog " as you call it from the beginning?Did you read how I wrote about my family.My "friends"I was crueler than. i had to be broken .to be fixed again!I was all too willing to code-ify and simplify my ties with humanity into symbols and a series of ones and zeroes."
yes .
a secret .rather swarmy voice comes in my ear shot "everything all at once .everything all at once"WHAT IS your automatic thought RIGHT NOW
whatever it is.Never give in to prolonging a delicate,loving thought that has passed it's experation.(although it might have been good .and WARM.It will become UNREAL and FALSE if you milk it.if you try to pretrend you can HOLD IT longer than you really can.DO NOT CONFUSE your FELLOWMAN with FALSE SEEMINGS.
FEW will survive.
butTHE ANIMAL MAN.The caVEman.Go deeper to that core ..NO fAlse manners or lies of how "human" you are...better to be thought a criminal than carrying on further Lies
better to BE a criminal than
ACT
"the whole world is now actors.Nobody knows what they are .what's going to happen when something happens.and nobody knows INSTINCT"
"who put this shit in your head," he says
"Fuck this"I say putting my coat on.IN sarcastic crazy style I say "space aliens told me dumbass"
"I wouldnt go out when youre like this..."
I take my coat off or half off,thinking he might want to ,I don't know be informed maybe.
"now.If everyone is acting.How will I know .or how will you know who you don't want for lack of a better term "left behind?Why would I throw myself in front of some wigger meth freak to save your ass when the End Begins if i can't tell if you're you or acting like you think a human should act.and where did you learn this way of being.of acting.""
Liam literally throws up his hands.I am "crazy".Proxy has put words in my head.He wants me back to the nice guy i was.
ör was that an act Jim?"
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October 17th 2010
I"dear Jim ..really like your work are you still in CA? I work "****Studios..can we meet. Have an idea for a book.. Los Angles i'll bring my own set of works?
she left the macket program half way thru("if this is so important to the human species why do we pay for it." or some such such and such...)
I had lost touch with her.
she had opened a bed and breakfast and wanted some art for her new space
evan and linda warned me about the cindy sacket
seems she had written several articles that were both anti proxy and anti dactic for some "shit rag" journal and that i should skip the meeting
i was hesitant but to be honest I needed the money
proxy wants me to "pay them back" for my cigarette habit
i am so broke since my return to pennsylvania that in spite of my initial concerns I agreed to meet with her even though i knew Cindy sacket was full of brackets
and that her brackolia might set me back a month of debrackification
but i feel justified.
the debracks hate my smoking and sexual jackolia so much lately that i am taking risks i might otherwise not
But as usual the Dactics were right.
the moment I saw Cindy Sacket i was so overcome with her brackets that i dropped my portfolio and literally ran back to Liam's house.
all the while fighting the 3 or so Bracket's Cindy had either inadvertantly or maliciously sent upon my being.
I thought I was safe .Or safer at Liam's
But Now it was ALSO Liam's brackets who were practically leaping into my mouth now that I had opened up the gates.
Meeting cindy sacket was paramount to Macketing my Jackolia Impulses in front of Dactelian Dactus at a Proxy Debrackification Ceremony and now
here i was cowering and chain smoking in Liam's backyard.
I tried to remian calm
and found myself up in Liam's room uncapping his bottle of Ativan
the Brackancian Vortex was circling me .
I picked up the phone
Evan's secretary told me Evan was at ProxChem.
ProxChem was developing a new version of VAX.the drug that "stimulated pineal gland function" for "New Cognitions"
and initiated recognition of Brackets.
Both Visiual and Aural.
Only a certified Vax Master could also lead a Pre dac Macket to also use VAX's unique qualities to also "befriend" Whorlings and Whorlot Copiates
thus regualating the Brackets and Bracholia
that surrounds us all
"help ,help'I cried to jenna,evan's secondary secretary"I met with Cindy sacket and her Bracket'sm have clamped around me! I cannot breath.Should I take something?"
She spoke calmly,but it did nothing to relax me.
"tranquilizers contain TWICE as many Brackets as Un Dactified Transgriants!"
No shit I wanted to scream,seeing and hearing the Brackets skating around me.
"perhaps you should at least admit that you welcomes this situation into your life and at least make a commitment to take 2 ReMacket ReMack programs to at the very least begin making Amends"
and somewhere
somewhere up there
the gods at Prox satelite System had mercy and
Turned down
the Input
on the
Output.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Joshua Doe
the body of Joshuah "Doe"lay cold and rigid on the gurney in the sub basement of Parrish Mercy Hospital.Caroline Hines,a second generation New Way follower had paid off 3 of the security guards to keep watch of the autopsy room just in case any of the residents who were not New Way Progressives had suspicions about Dr. Randle's(another second generation "player")conclusion that Joshuah's death at age 39 was indeed caused by heart failure.
Even with the pay offs Caroline worked extra quickly to remove all traces of"augmentation" and insertion.Just in case Joshuah's indigent status didn't get the incineration it deserved
Even with the pay offs Caroline worked extra quickly to remove all traces of"augmentation" and insertion.Just in case Joshuah's indigent status didn't get the incineration it deserved
Friday, November 23, 2012
JOSHUAH
it's beginning to sink in.
I have gotten "the line" about why i must "hurry up and split"
intraneural
having really nothing to do with ...
experimentation
as in
selection.
(seems this survival of the fittest shit is "the new way"
and what a mess
has been made in the past four decades with all these.."social adjustments"
....
such sick minds and bodies.
who needs them...
shucks.that i am not the letterman sweater type.
the more I try to "see" things from their point of view
as in
track my own intrinsic
sickness
is that
it triggers my mind to
race through
whatever I have done .or thought .to be considered .such a 'sicko"
these rampant thoughts of self study
(which intra N servs up to them in hi Def)
of
my sickness
further exhibit to THEM
my "perversion of thought"
to be studied
as
specimen(a example.you see....thus the blog)
causes
such demanding (if nebulous) self study for
clues of one's "disgustingness" over and over
------------------
Let me digress
for "the search for sicko" also triggers all sorts of Remembrances of Things Past
In regard to what
sickness I have observed in others
for instance
(be careful reading this .for it may slip into your consciousness.and perhaps when you "go for a neural read.or have one "thrust upon you unknowing;y"
this
digression may be taken as your own
I remember in the 3rd or fourth grade there was a kid in my class who for whatever reason picked his nose and rubbed the snot on his desk.
i reckon he did this quite visibly and the teacher called him on it.
telling him he was sick.this behavior
(which indeed it was)
when I am called sick by "my mentors"
and for instance going through my daily grooming.
for instance flossing.
trimming nose hair.plucking a stray eyebrow
they are right there with me
as i am constantly neurally monitored.
I have asked my shrink if schizophrenics speak of such intrusion(I have taken all the tests for such diagnosis.he is on OUR side .as he is a forensic psychiatrist (long story
,,,as we merrily roll along ..through the lush hills of the hollycode hills)
the doc says no
Shucks.
I tell him i wish I had schizophrenia it would be easier than this
Hang in he says
let
them catch
up.
in
due time
keep daydreaming he says.
and
ADHD your way to Oz
I have gotten "the line" about why i must "hurry up and split"
intraneural
having really nothing to do with ...
experimentation
as in
selection.
(seems this survival of the fittest shit is "the new way"
and what a mess
has been made in the past four decades with all these.."social adjustments"
....
such sick minds and bodies.
who needs them...
shucks.that i am not the letterman sweater type.
the more I try to "see" things from their point of view
as in
track my own intrinsic
sickness
is that
it triggers my mind to
race through
whatever I have done .or thought .to be considered .such a 'sicko"
these rampant thoughts of self study
(which intra N servs up to them in hi Def)
of
my sickness
further exhibit to THEM
my "perversion of thought"
to be studied
as
specimen(a example.you see....thus the blog)
causes
such demanding (if nebulous) self study for
------------------
Let me digress
for "the search for sicko" also triggers all sorts of Remembrances of Things Past
In regard to what
sickness I have observed in others
for instance
(be careful reading this .for it may slip into your consciousness.and perhaps when you "go for a neural read.or have one "thrust upon you unknowing;y"
this
digression may be taken as your own
I remember in the 3rd or fourth grade there was a kid in my class who for whatever reason picked his nose and rubbed the snot on his desk.
i reckon he did this quite visibly and the teacher called him on it.
telling him he was sick.this behavior
(which indeed it was)
when I am called sick by "my mentors"
and for instance going through my daily grooming.
for instance flossing.
trimming nose hair.plucking a stray eyebrow
they are right there with me
as i am constantly neurally monitored.
I have asked my shrink if schizophrenics speak of such intrusion(I have taken all the tests for such diagnosis.he is on OUR side .as he is a forensic psychiatrist (long story
,,,as we merrily roll along ..through the lush hills of the hollycode hills)
the doc says no
Shucks.
I tell him i wish I had schizophrenia it would be easier than this
Hang in he says
let
them catch
up.
in
keep daydreaming he says.
and
ADHD your way to Oz
Thursday, November 22, 2012
THE OTHER SIDE OF SUMMER..tHE "BRANCH dOMe-IANS
Abraham Maslow
1908 - 1970
"I was awfully curious to find out why I didn't go insane," remarked Abraham Maslow, one of the founders of humanistic psychology.
From 1937 to 1951, Maslow was on the faculty of Brooklyn College. In New York he found two more mentors, anthropologist Ruth Benedict and Gestalt psychologist Max Wertheimer, whom he admired both professionally and personally. These two were so accomplished in both realms, and such "wonderful human beings" as well, that Maslow began taking notes about them and their behavior. This would be the basis of his lifelong research and thinking about mental health and human potential. He wrote extensively on the subject, borrowing ideas from other psychologists but adding significantly to them, especially the concepts of a heirarchy of needs, metaneeds, self-actualizing persons, and peak experiences. Maslow became the leader of the humanistic school of psychology that emerged in the 1950s and 1960s, which he referred to as the "third force" -- beyond Freudian theory and behaviorism.
Maslow saw human beings' needs arranged like a ladder. The most basic needs, at the bottom, were physical -- air, water, food, sex. Then came safety needs -- security, stability -- followed by psychological, or social needs -- for belonging, love, acceptance. At the top of it all were the self-actualizing needs -- the need to fulfill oneself, to become all that one is capable of becoming. Maslow felt that unfulfilled needs lower on the ladder would inhibit the person from climbing to the next step. Someone dying of thirst quickly forgets their thirst when they have no oxygen, as he pointed out. People who dealt in managing the higher needs were what he called self-actualizing people. Benedict and Wertheimer were Maslow's models of self-actualization, from which he generalized that, among other characteristics, self-actualizing people tend to focus on problems outside of themselves, have a clear sense of what is true and what is phony, are spontaneous and creative, and are not bound too strictly by social conventions.
Peak experiences are profound moments of love, understanding, happiness, or rapture, when a person feels more whole, alive, self-sufficient and yet a part of the world, more aware of truth, justice, harmony, goodness, and so on. Self-actualizing people have many such peak experiences.
Maslow's thinking was surprisingly original -- most psychology before him had been concerned with the abnormal and the ill. He wanted to know what constituted positive mental health. Humanistic psychology gave rise to several different therapies, all guided by the idea that people possess the inner resources for growth and healing and that the point of therapy is to help remove obstacles to individuals' achieving this. The most famous of these was client-centered therapy developed by Carl Rogers.
Maslow was a professor at Brandeis University from 1951 to 1969, and then became a resident fellow of the Laughlin Institute in California. He died of a heart attack in 1970.
"Human nature is not nearly as bad as it has been thought to be."
1908 - 1970
"I was awfully curious to find out why I didn't go insane," remarked Abraham Maslow, one of the founders of humanistic psychology.
From 1937 to 1951, Maslow was on the faculty of Brooklyn College. In New York he found two more mentors, anthropologist Ruth Benedict and Gestalt psychologist Max Wertheimer, whom he admired both professionally and personally. These two were so accomplished in both realms, and such "wonderful human beings" as well, that Maslow began taking notes about them and their behavior. This would be the basis of his lifelong research and thinking about mental health and human potential. He wrote extensively on the subject, borrowing ideas from other psychologists but adding significantly to them, especially the concepts of a heirarchy of needs, metaneeds, self-actualizing persons, and peak experiences. Maslow became the leader of the humanistic school of psychology that emerged in the 1950s and 1960s, which he referred to as the "third force" -- beyond Freudian theory and behaviorism.
Maslow saw human beings' needs arranged like a ladder. The most basic needs, at the bottom, were physical -- air, water, food, sex. Then came safety needs -- security, stability -- followed by psychological, or social needs -- for belonging, love, acceptance. At the top of it all were the self-actualizing needs -- the need to fulfill oneself, to become all that one is capable of becoming. Maslow felt that unfulfilled needs lower on the ladder would inhibit the person from climbing to the next step. Someone dying of thirst quickly forgets their thirst when they have no oxygen, as he pointed out. People who dealt in managing the higher needs were what he called self-actualizing people. Benedict and Wertheimer were Maslow's models of self-actualization, from which he generalized that, among other characteristics, self-actualizing people tend to focus on problems outside of themselves, have a clear sense of what is true and what is phony, are spontaneous and creative, and are not bound too strictly by social conventions.
Peak experiences are profound moments of love, understanding, happiness, or rapture, when a person feels more whole, alive, self-sufficient and yet a part of the world, more aware of truth, justice, harmony, goodness, and so on. Self-actualizing people have many such peak experiences.
Maslow's thinking was surprisingly original -- most psychology before him had been concerned with the abnormal and the ill. He wanted to know what constituted positive mental health. Humanistic psychology gave rise to several different therapies, all guided by the idea that people possess the inner resources for growth and healing and that the point of therapy is to help remove obstacles to individuals' achieving this. The most famous of these was client-centered therapy developed by Carl Rogers.
Maslow was a professor at Brandeis University from 1951 to 1969, and then became a resident fellow of the Laughlin Institute in California. He died of a heart attack in 1970.
"Human nature is not nearly as bad as it has been thought to be."
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
THE "BOOK OF KITT" (dmt senso)
I don't feel
love in
"normal" ways
I can't deal with the intensity of any feeling that strong
and love
i guess is the strongest
I wanted to be miles a way and long gone
as my parents and all that are getting older
and I
didn't and don't want to know about anyone .Going away
(I know now since my "visitation" over a year ago that we all come back...
and soon
this will be possible .
with the new techno Here as it is In heaven
I cannot be Measured
or "read" ..with FMRI readings
and it is not just my ADHD
it is
that I
Love in a different way
THEY don't yet understand
there is a "game'
there is a place ...that gathers and collects variations of human experience
the most intense experience
ever experienced on the face of the earth
is that of Jesus
that of a pain so intense
that
a man must
literally scream so loud
with every fiber of his being
that
a rapturous
senasation
out of neccesity
must beat
and emminate through both his body and soul
Project Wicker Man
it is called
the problem is
that I have a feeling
that if that
extreme is "simulated"
indeed Jesus or the "imitation of Christ" will come back.
but THIS TIME with a Shot gun
The GENESIS Simulator-based Neuronal Database 
www.genesis-sim.org/hbp/GOOD/GOOD.htmlCachedShareJESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR
The GENESIS Simulator-based Neuronal Database. David Beeman Department of Electrical and Computer Engineering University of Colorado at Boulder ...
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